A/N: This will be quiet short. It is a version of why Snape stopped being a deatheater. Probably not the reason that I think he stopped but it shouldn't turn out too bad. Please Review.
Disclaimer: I own Jade and the story but I don't own Harry potter, it's characters or it's locations. They belongs to J. K. Rowling. Please do not sue me.
Sleep.
Where you close your eyes.
Go to a world of dreams or a world of nightmares.
Where you wake up and you open your eyes.
Usually.
What do you do when you sleep forever.
Do you ever open your eyes?
Not physically, no.
Is there another way to open your eyes?
I have no idea.
There are ghosts and poltergeists at Hogwarts.
But I don't know.
It hurts too much to think.
I close my eyes.
I don't want to see the coffin being lowered into the ground.
I can't.
I should have known that this would happen.
People say that everything happens for a reason.
They talk about fate.
And about destiny.
I always thought that fate was a name for bad destiny.
Destiny gone wrong.
Jade taught me to believe in them.
I should have left her.
Then she would have woken up.
Opened her eyes to a new day.
She may have cried for a while.
For a few days.
Maybe longer.
I don't know.
All I know is that I should have obeyed Lord Voldemort's rules.
Left her.
Dumped her.
I wouldn't have been able to cope with the pain.
At least, not fully.
She would not be asleep though.
I was too selfish.
I gave her life away so that I wouldn't have to live alone.
I am an idiot.
What use was there in doing that?
None.
No use at all.
I see the guests start to leave.
I feel my tears roll down my face.
I don't let anyone else see them.
I know that my master is watching me.
I can not look weak.
I can not look weak.
I can not look weak.
I fall to the ground by her grave.
Unable to hold my tears in any longer.
My emotions.
My love.
My life.
All falling out of me.
Hard as I try, I can not catch them again.
Place them back inside me.
I have lost them forever.
Dumbledore rushes to my side.
He tries to comfort me.
Rocking me backwards and forwards like a baby.
I think he knows.
What happened.
I think he knows that it was my fault.
I know that it was.
It was at that point that I decided.
I had to give Jade something.
Something that meant that her life wasn't wasted.
She had always told me that a person's greatest gift is goodness.
Standing up from evil.
Even in the darkest of times.
She stood up from evil.
It was too late for her though.
Voldemort killed her in her sleep.
She didn't even know he was there.
That was why she looked so peaceful.
So calm.
I start to cry louder.
I can't help it.
I had had my world ripped away from me in a matter of seconds.
It was the darkest of times now.
I knew what gift I was able to give her.
I would stand up from evil.
It was all that I could do.
She deserved that much.
No.
She deserved more than that.
She deserved her life.
The thing that I had rid her of.
Taken away from her.
That she couldn't get back.
But I would stand up from evil.
I had to.
I hadn't realised how much strength I had.
I suppose that she brought it out of me.
Even when she wasn't alive.
I leave the graveyard.
I wished one thing then.
I wished that, when her coffin had been buried.
That I had opened my eyes.
A/N: So, what did people think? Please review this. Probably the most depressing fic that I have written. It even beats me killing Ron in a song fic. I hope that people liked it. I am not a huge Snape fan but I felt like I had to write it. Flame me if you want. It's up to you.