Title:My Family, My Father Now

Chapter:1 of 1 - One Shot

Rating:T

Summary: Noah is grateful for having Holden as a father to have and how much he has to thank him

Characters:Luke, Noah, Holden, Ameera (metioned), Colonel Mayer (mentioned)

Genre:AU

Warnings:None

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Well it was November, a time of giving and thanks. A time to spend with family and friends and talk about and remember all the good things we all share and have with each other and ourselves. Noah sat in the kitchen of the Snyder farmhouse trying to work out what he had to be thankful about. A year had already passed and some what a lot has changed and happened in that past year.

He had thought about how he had helped Luke get out of the wheelchair his father had put him in after their now ill fated fishing trip, how much he had the support of the Snyder's especially Holden, who had become like a step father so to speak when he needed it the most. He also thought about how much he had put Luke and the Snyder's through with marring Ameera, and how much he knew Holden was there not only for him and Ameera, but also his own son Luke. He was truly grateful for that most of all.

Then there was also the time where he and Luke had fought after coming back from Ney York, over he's father killing himself right in front of Noah and Ameera and once again the Snyder's more so Holden was there for Luke, and Noah knew it. He had so much to thank really to the Snyder's but more so to Holden, as without Holden, he wasn't sure how things could have really gone.

He sat there unaware Holden had entered the room and was talking to him, but after trying to get Noah's attention, he sat down opposite him just looking. Noah came out of his day dream and saw Holden looking at him with a smile on his face "Hey Mr Snyder, I….I mean Holden. I…..I didn't see you there" Noah stammered a little bit embarrassed to say the least.

"It's fine Noah, honestly and please, call me Holden, Mr Snyder is so formal and not really to my liking ok. I take it you where having a good day dream? Maybe about a certain young man who's heart you have stolen and made him so very happy then?" Holden asked taking a sip of his cold lemonade in front of him with a smile on his face.

"well, not quite actually. I was actually thinking about how much I have to thank you and your family for being there not only for Myself, but for Ameera, but more so for Luke. I have done a lot to hurt him and some how really not forgive, but not only has he forgiven me, but you all have and I thank you for that. I am not sure how I can ever repay you all, but I plan on doing so" Noah said look at Holden.

Holden looked at Noah and thought about what he said. Yes he had done some stuff that would have normally been probably unforgivable, but who hasn't really. And who was he to judge, especially after the Carly fiasco that embroiled his family recently. He two had been perfect and there was no way he was going to judge Noah just on his mistakes. It wouldn't be right but he was right He, Lilly and the whole Snyder Family had been there for all of them in one way or form for support and guidance and that truly was something special in its self.

"Well Noah, you don't have to repay us, your part of the crazy Snyder clan now and I am sorry to say there is no way out any more Mister. But I do have to say that you have been there for Luke and for us when we needed it also. Like the time I was at Oakdale PD confessing for Dusty's fake death and for when I had that affair with Carly, you where there also, not only for Luke for support but also my family. You have truly been a tower of strength for them all in our darkest hours so far and that I thank you so very, very much." Holden said getting up and walking over to Noah who was now standing.

Holden brought Noah in for a Hug as he said "Noah regardless of how much your Father treated you I want you to know that we will never treat you, any of us for the fact like the way he did. You are practically a son to me. You have made Luke very happy in ways we could only imagine. Yes it wasn't easy for you two in the beginning, but look how much you have come together. So much has happened and yet somehow you survived all the obstacles so far. I am not saying that there isn't any more, but it goes to show you how much you can survive even the smallest or biggest things life will ever throw at you. So thank you Noah so very much for everything. I want you to know you are and will always be considered a step son more so a true son to me just like Luke and my other children are ok" Holden said as he looked at Noah who had tears forming in his eyes.

Noah had never felt such passion and such love coming from someone so dear and special to him in his life. Yeah ok Luke had also said that about their love, but to hear that from someone he not only looks up to, but also considers to be his step dad well more so dad that anything, it just brought up all these emotions. Emotions he had not felt in such a long time since, well since never really. The Colonel had not been a real father in any way, sense or form so he could justify comparing really, as there was no comparison.

"Thank you Holden, Dad, you don't know how much that means to me to hear that from you. I know that this might sound even sillier but I do look up to you as a father. The Colonel will never seem or be a father in my eyes and mind. You are truly the father I once wished I could have, and now it is true, I just….sorry…but its just brought up so many emotions I have never felt that its overwhelmed me truly. You are a wonderful father and I hope you don't mind me calling you dad if that is ok with you" Noah said trying to wipe away his tears has Holden held out the tissue box to Noah.

"Of course not Noah, you can call me Dad, Holden, Father except Mr Snyder ok and it's not silly. I am glad you look up to me as your father, but don't forget about the Colonel. Yes he wasn't a good man, but surely you did have some good memories and they are not worth throwing away just for the sake of hate. What I am saying is that Yes I would like to be considered your father but don't forget about your real Father ok, no matter how much the hurt or pain. Just remember the good time and memories ok" Holden said as Noah nodded his head yes in reply.

"Dad is right Noah. Don't forget about the Colonel, as much as we both want to. You need to remember all the good times you did share. As little as they may seem or be, you should never forget ok. Trust me I know from experience here. But I am glad you look up to my Dad as your Dad. Holden, Dad. Is truly a very special person. Yes he has made mistakes, but we all have really. He doesn't really judge people but still he protects and looks after his family and that in its self is truly special. Thanks Dad and I love you Noah, don't ever forget that ok" Luke said as we walked over to Noah and Holden, Hugging Noah and giving him a quick peck on the cheek as he then went over and hugged his own dad.

"thank you Luke very much. I am sure Noah gets what you mean" Holden said as he returned the hugs as Noah spoke up "thank you Luke and I Love you too very much. That will never, ever change. I do have one question, how long have you been listening in to our conversation?" Noah asked as he grabbed Luke and held him against his body, kissing Luke a=on the cheek while looking over at Holden as Holden smiled.

"Um long enough, but enough mushy talk, we have to get ready for thanksgiving dinner tonight as the girls and Grandma are out on the field looking for the biggest Hubbard Squash so I hope you two are ready for some work then?" Luke said to both Noah and Holden raising his left eyebrow as Noah and Holden groaned out.

"Yes I suppose we have no choice in the matter so yes we are ready, aren't we dad?" Noah said smiling to Holden as Holden went over to both boys and brought them into a group hug.

"yes we don't have a choice and we need to show princess here how a man deal with a Hubbard squash so come on, time to shake that thing I say" Holden said laughing out as Noah laughed and Luke replied "Princess, princess, I'll give you two princess, I am more man than Brad and Aaron put together" as they walked out to the back porch and to the field to help with the Hubbard Squash search as Noah said to himself quietly smiling "God I love my family, my Mom, my Dad and My Love"

And the Hubbard Squash began with the Snyder-Mayer Clan for the biggest family thanksgiving ever!