Disclaimer: I do not own the Mortal Instruments series that said the first parts going to be familiar and then it will be switching to the story I wrote.

More than just words

Chapter one

"Go home Clary, go home!" Jace's words rang through my mind as I turned and ran out of the room. He wasn't going to get the chance to see the tears in my eyes, he wouldn't get the chance to know just how badly he'd hurt me. Not after the cruel words he said. I had only wanted to help our mother, but apparently that was something else he could do on his own.

"You should never have come. I know I told you it's because it's not safe for you here, but that wasn't true. The truth is that I don't want you here because you're rash and thoughtless and you'll mess everything up. It's just how you are. You're not careful Clary." the cruel words echoed in my mind and I wondered if that was the only thing he'd ever lied to me about. Somehow I doubted it. The worst part of the whole argument was when he'd said I'd never make it as a Shadowhunter that I never could be because of my upbringing. One way or the other I would prove him wrong. I wasn't too sure how I was going to go about doing it but I would.

I swallowed hard as I fought to keep the tears back, now wasn't the time to cry or feel the hurt. Jace clearly didn't want me around so I would do him a favor and go home but I would keep working on a way to save my mother. I race down the hallway heading towards the front door; I needed to put as much space between Jace and I as possible. I wonder if he knew just how badly he'd hurt me? Somehow I doubted it, most of the time Jace didn't care about anyone's feelings unless they were the Lightwoods, I was clearly was not one of them. I would never be.

Rushing through the front door, I squeezed past Sebastian who was just coming in.

"Clary?" he asked confusion in his voice. I was sure I looked pretty strange, running as hard as I could through the door with my fiery red hair flying behind me. I ignored him and headed for the road I could already feel the tears in my eyes and I didn't want to be anywhere near the Penhallow house when the dam finally burst.

"Clary, wait up" Sebastian called but I pretended I didn't hear him and keep running. Only a few seconds later I felt a hand wrap around my arm forcing me to stop.

"What's going on?" Sebastian asked once he'd gotten to stop running. I panted hard nearly out of breath, I had never ran so much in my life as I had lately.

"You're crying" he frowned when he turned me to face him. I raised my hand and wiped at my eyes. I didn't care for him to see me fall apart.

"I want to go home, I just don't want to be here anymore." That was putting it mildly I didn't think I'd ever want to get around Jace anymore. I felt a slight twinge in my heart at that thought. I was lying to myself and I knew it, I would do anything for Jace except follow stupid orders when it pertained to helping my mother.

"Okay then I'll walk with you" Sebastian said and I frowned I wasn't sure about him, he seemed like a nice enough guy but I wasn't sure whether I could trust him or not.

"Whatever" I tell him "not telling him that I was planning on going back to New York." Something was telling me not to tell him too much.

"You want to tell me what has you so upset?" he asked as we started walking towards Amatis' house.

"Got in a fight with Jace" I said glumly going silent he didn't need to know my personal problems. I didn't know him from eve he could have been anybody for all I knew.

"First major argument?" he asked not paying attention to the black mood I had seemed to fall into the further we walked together. i ignored his question as Jace's cruel words seemed to be on repeat in my mind.

We arrived at her house faster than I'd expected and right before I headed inside Sebastian grabbed my arm and turned me to face him. I scowled and jerked my arm out of his grip. I didn't know who he was but I didn't care to have his hands on me.

"Will I see you tomorrow?" he asked and I shrugged I wasn't telling him I didn't plan on being in Idris by then.

"I hope I do" he said as he said goodbye I walked into the house. I went straight to the room that I had been staying in. I gathered the small things I had taken and then went in search of paper. I needed to let Luke know why I wasn't here anymore.

Luke,

By the time you receive this letter I will probably be back in New York. I'm sorry for dragging you here in the first place; I didn't think I would be thought of as useless and a disaster to the cause. I still want to search for a way to help my mom, but I will probably have to look for a way from home. Jace doesn't want me here so for once I am going to respect his wishes and go back to New York. I'm sorry I brought you here, be safe come home whenever you can. And thank you Amatis for letting me stay with you and healing me when I was sick. Sorry to have to leave so soon, but I can't stay where I'm not wanted.

Clary

Finished with the letter, I grabbed my things and made a portal; I just hoped it would take me to the right place. Once the portal was made I took a deep breath, thought of my home in New York and stepped through the portal. It felt like a wind blowing a couple hundred miles an hour, it grabbed ahold of my body and just pulled me through until I finally landed on the cold hard floor of my living room.

Still feeling dizzy I lay on the floor and looked up at the ceiling, I was glad to be home where I could finally release my hurt feelings. I could cry without feeling embarrassed about being made fun of.

After a few minutes I dragged myself up from the floor and made my way up to my bedroom. Maybe if I hadn't been focusing on the hurt I was feeling, I would have sensed the danger. If I had sensed then maybe I could have saved myself a world of pain but as it was I didn't even notice anything strange as I stepped into my room the world went black.

This is my first mortal instruments so please forgive any mistakes. Let me know what you think. Please no flames. Thanks for reading and reviewing. Liz