Important AN
Hello all you wonderful people! I'm so sorry I haven't updated family ties in awhile! ( for all new readers family ties is my other story) its taking longer to write than I thought! It should hopefully be updated by at least Tuesday. So I've decided I feel horrible for promising some reviewers an update by Friday, and that's why im posting this TFIOS one shot. Enjoy!
Hazel's POV
It's the anniversary of his death. The thought makes me cringe. it's been ten long years. Ten years since our little infinite ended. Ten years since my other half died. I've moved on, only by his request. I have a husband, and children. I'm also living a surprising cancer free life. It was a surprise going to Doctor Maria and her telling me the lumps in my lung had just disappeared. When I arrive at his grave I go through the usual routine of this day. First I turn off my cell phone and place it in the car, today all my focus is on him. I then take the long trudge up to his grave, where I sit a cry, my head upon his tombstone, screaming out profanities to the world. They tend to go along the lines of, It should've been me! Why god?! Why'd you make him the grenade? After an hour or so I get up to leave, except this time around I leave a note.
Dear Augustus,
I never forgot you. I still see you everywhere we visited together. I have, in a sense, moved on from you. I'm married, have children, and am cancer free. I guess you could say that I'm living a happy life, full of miracles, and I'd say so too, but I still have my moments. Like yesterday, I was going through a box of stuff from my younger years when I found a picture of us from Amsterdam. I burst into tears and I couldn't stop. When my husband got home I was asleep on the floor, clutching the picture close to my chest. I was confused; I thought I had moved on. I got married and had children, yet you're all I could think about. Then I realized, I haven't really moved on. In order to move on you have to let go, and so far I've done the opposite. Truthfully, I've never been ready to set you free. Your death was still so fresh the past nine years, and I didn't want to forget you, for fear once I set you free, you would disappear into oblivion and be forgotten from this forsaken planet. But now, a long, hard decade after your death, I'm ready. I realize I can no longer see you when I close my eyes, my family replaced you, I can no longer smell you when I lay on my couch, and I can no longer feel the ghost of your lips on my forehead. Most of all, I can no longer feel your presence haunting me every waking hour. 10 long years later Augustus, I'm ready to let you go. It's not going to be easy, but it will be possible. You will always be my first love, but Augustus Waters, I set you free.
Best wishes,
Hazel Grace
I plant a small kiss on his tomb, and for the very last time I walk away from his grave, refusing to look back.