Prayer to an Angel
I cannot pretend to be you. I can't claim to know what you were thinking. The day that you took your own life. My words feel weak and childish compared to yours. Once I thought my hair was black but compared to you my hair is brown. I thought I was deep but now I'm just insecure. Yet I still believe that I understand you. I still believe the meanings behind your words. I wish that you could have been happy with her. She loved you. You're not here anymore and I know that but still…I love you. If only you were here with me for real, not just a voice in my head. I'm obsessed and pathetic. Your name haunts me. I keep singing it to myself; I let the words take me over. Even when I'm in my lover's arms I still think of you. I still call out to you. When you died it was I who cried, it was I who stood by your grave all night long. It was I who laid the flowers beside you day after day. I thought that I would get over you. Being with someone else should have made me forget you. But as much as I love him I can't forget you. I can't carry on living this way without you. And that's why I'm here, saying these words to a block of stone inscribed with your name. This is all I have left.
He doesn't know that I'm here. I never told him about my feelings for you. I was so happy when he told me he loved me. It was like a dream come true. I have always had feelings for him ever since the day he left town. Why is it I can only appreciate things when they've gone? If I'd told him then maybe he would have stayed. None of this would ever have happened. We could have been happy. But then we never would have met. Is that good or bad? The day I first saw you I knew I would fall in love with you one day. Your dark raven hair flowing down your back framing a beautifully pale face. And your eyes. I still see them in my dreams. Eyes of blood trying not to betray your emotions yet I could see through them. I saw the frail and frightened man behind those eyes. As I got to know you I saw more and more. I can see why it broke her heart to betray you like that.
I know you still love her. I hope you're reunited in the Lifestream together. That's why you leapt in wasn't it? That's why you flew off the Highwind and dived into the Lifestream. You wanted to be with her. You never loved me. Did you ever that I loved you? Did you hear me call out to you as you died? It was me who wanted to find you. They said it would be better to leave your body where it was. They said it had probably been absorbed into the Lifestream and they were right. All we found was your claw. It shone out against the background of destruction Meteor had left behind. I miss you! I want to collapse beside your grave and cry. I want you to be alive again. I want to tell you how I feel.
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But you have.""Vincent! You're alive. But how?"
"I did enter the Lifestream. I met Lucrecia there. I wanted to die and be with her but at the last minute I heard you call out my name. Sweet Lucrecia. She saw it but I was too blind."
"Vincent…"
"She knew that I loved you."
"Your kiss is as sweet as I thought it would be."
"Come angel. Let's go home."
"Val-en-tine"
"Tifa"
Author's note: Final Fantasy and all associated names and images are registered trademarks of Square Co Ltd. Please review. I think Tifa and Vincent make a great couple.