He knows why he does it. Scotty is lying awake with Kevin sleeping tight, snuggled up in his arms. He smells Kevin's hair, still smelling of shampoo. They had ended up in bed not long after they had gotten home, eager to show very concrete appreciation of each other.
But it's different, Scotty thinks. The sex is, and has always been good between them, but these past days, it's been different. Not necessarily bad or even worse. He knows why he feels different. Jason is coming back to the country and Scotty will not lose Kevin without a fight, and knowing this he has to show Kevin that he's on the front line.
What will he do if Kevin wants to see Jason? He can't say no, that will only make things worse. Saying no to Kevin is like saying no to a little child, it makes him want it even more, even if it really doesn't. Sometimes his lawyer side is just a tad too much.
But he does need to be there, and he is trying to, in every possible way. Although, he doesn't have much to offer Kevin, it seems. He tries to cook everyday for them, and that's always appreciated from Kevin's side, and then they have sex. Really good sex, but again, different. That tension…
The weird thing is, also Kevin acts different, also being more intense. Lately Kevin always comes to the restaurant when Scotty works late, and that is a lot. He sits there and patiently, well, kind of, waits for Scotty, talking and laughing with his colleagues.
Scotty is quite sure that Kevin doesn't know that he knows, and maybe he doesn't know himself, but he is treating Scotty like a… queen. Scotty chuckles for himself, and Kevin moves a bit, shifting the position of the arm he has tightly held around Scotty's waist.
Kevin has obviously been watching his steps around Scotty lately. After Kitty's wedding, he must have realized how thin the thread that their relationship hangs in is. They both did. Scotty hunts away the thought of maybe he stayed with Kevin after that because he was scared. Scared of being alone and without a home.
He can't help but love the touch of Kevin against his naked skin, and the stroke that Kevin gives him makes him shiver. Kevin makes a little noise, but doesn't wake up. Scotty smiles, but the smile fades before it reaches his eyes.
He can guess that they will wake up tomorrow to make love one more time before they have to part for work. Either that or the one who wakes up first will make the other one breakfast in bed. And then the sex.
Scotty doesn't want to complain. It's kind of nice having this new kind of romance, he only wishes it didn't feel forced, not from either one of them. Once Jason is back and well in the state, he will make sure Kevin gets out all his aggressions, and questions, and then this will all be over.
He only hopes that when this all is over, he is still the one laying in Kevin's arms, listening to his heavy breathing. The thought of Saint Jason replacing him, with himself back to sleeping in his car almost gives him an anxiety attack. He thinks back to those days. Cold, lonely, alone. No! There is no way he's going back to that. Not ever.
Single again, and with no future with Kevin what-so-ever. With even the friend card burned, there's not much left to hope for.
Jason laying there, kissing Kevin's soft newly showered hair… No! He can't think of that. He strokes Kevin's back and places a soft kiss in his hair, taking in the scent.
Jason is welcome back, he'll see.