To: Dan Howell
From: Phil Lester
Hey Dan I'm sorry but my flights delayed and I'm not going to be back until after Christmas/
To: Phil Lester
From: Dan Howell
but I'll miss you
Oh okay That's fine we can have our own little Christmas when you get back...
"Why did his plane have to be delayed?! That was the only plane that couldn't go out!" Dan yelled, tears streaming down his face, as he threw his phone across the room.
"Dan I'm so sorry I can't be there. I hope you forgive me." Phil said as he layed on his hotel bed. It has been two days since Phil found out his plane was delayed and he wasn't able to have Christmas with Dan.
"I wish you could have come with me. It's so boring here. I don't know anyone and I'm stuck by myself most of the day." Phil sighed.
...
"Hey Dan, here's another daily update! Check out all the lights of New York City! This place is so big, bright, and loud! I wish you could have come with me," A sad look falls on Phil's face for a second before it vanishes, "But anyways, oh guess where I'm going. I'm going to see The Statue of Liberty!"
To: Dan Howell
From: Phil Lester
Dan I really miss you. Can we Skype or something?
To: Dan Howell
From: Phil Lester
Dan? Are you okay?
To: Dan Howell
From: Phil Lester
Dan?! Why are you ignoring me? Did I do something wrong? Please Skype me. I wanna see my bright little star
"Phil... I'm sorry but I can't do this with out you here right beside me. You were what kept me going and since you're gone. I cant go on. You were my life, my only existence. You gave me life when I needed it most. You dried my eyes when they were filled with tears. You brought color and sunshine to my dark and gloomy life. I don't. I didn't want to say good-bye to you. But your gone now, so this is it, Phil. This is our last goodbye. We can finally see the skies together now." Dan picked up the blade. It once reflected Dan's pale skin, now it numbed his mind.
When Phil finally returned to England, he returned with glazed eyes and a empty heart. His everything was nothing now. He could only try to buy happiness now.
"I just wish I could have been there" Phil thinks as he walks into his apartment. The one he shared with...
"I just want to see the stares with you"
"Dan, you said I was your happy pill, but what you didn't know was that you was mine too. You say you kept me going, and you kept me going also. why, Dan? Why did you leave me? I was coming back! I would have never left you! I love you Dan!" Phil screamed into his pillow, tears streaming down his face. That night Phil made a decision. He was going to finally see the stares with Dan.
"Hey Phil. I'm sorry for leaving you. Will you forgive me?" Dan asked, taking Phil's hand in his, tears streaming down his face.
"Yes, Dan, I will always forgive you. I love you." Phil said, using his sleeve to dry Dan's face.
"Let's go see the stars love." Dan said entwining his hand with Phil's. They both turned and walking into the bright light. Both happy that they could finally see the stares with each other...
A/N
Hey guys! So as I'm rereading this, it seems kinda random. SO what I meant to happen was that Phil went to the States with family for a holiday break. Dan was suppose to go with his, but wasn't able to since his mom wanted to do something. Phil's flight was delayed, and that was the only thing Dan heard from Phil, because for some reason his texts or nothing would send or whatever. Dan, who has depression in this story, thought Phil abandoned him and killed himself. Phil heard about it and somehow managed to get a flight to England. Shortly after returning to England, Phil killed himself to be with Dan... I tried to make this to a mash up of Troye Sivan's songs Happy Little Pill and The Fault In Our Stars. Hope you guys like!