How could you leave me with a broken heart

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RPOV:

I can't even think anymore he left me; just like that he is gone. Dimitri left me without even a word, how could he do this to me after everything that we have been threw the past few weeks? We made it threw all the attacks on the school, he almost died and I almost died trying to save him, and leaves me for her. Maybe this is all a dream come on Rose wake up there is no way Dimitri would leave you for Tasha, no he wouldn't he loves you he said he loved me. I sat in my room reading the note that Dimitri left me telling me that he was leaving; he couldn't even do it in person.

My dear Roza,

I know this is going to hurt you a lot and I'm so very sorry, but I have to do this. I have to leave to keep you safe you almost died saving my life, and it is everything that I was afraid of from the very beginning. We will always put the others life before anyone else's and by you doing that you almost got killed , I almost got you killed and if something ever happened to you because of me I would never forgive myself. I left because I need you to have a life away from me I don't want you risking you're life for mine. Roza I need you to know that I still love you with everything that I am , you have my heart and soul but I will not put you're life in danger because of me. I love you my beautiful Roza you are the only one for me in this world. Please don't hate me for doing this because it was the only way I could keep you safe.

I will love you forever,

Love Dimitri

He left to keep me safe what a joke, doesn't he know he is the only reason I even made it this far because of him in my life, Without Dimitri ill be lost. If Dimitri isn't here I don't want to be here either, but I have to stay Lissa still needs me. How can I stay here and protect Lissa when Dimitri isn't here anymore who is going to teach me how to be the guardian I need to be. There isn't another guardian in this world as good as Dimitri, no body could possibly teach me like he did, and he taught what it was to be a true guardian. He taught me to fight for what you love, and to fight for the love people you care about. So where does this leave me life now? What do I do with myself; I mean I feel so numb I don't think I can do this without Dimitri. For the first time in a while I pulled out my journal and started to write, I haven't need to do this since Dimitri brought us back because he was always there and I could always talk to him, but there isn't anyone I could talk to about Dimitri so I started to write.

I don't know why you went, but since you left me all alone I can't think I can't feel. I'm so lost inside I don't even feel alive anymore. I used to be so safe inside my head but not that your gone I can't stop thinking about you. I can't remember who I used to be before you came into my life. I wish you were here so I could tell you all the things that I never got to say. I wish you would have giving me a chance to speak up and tell you how much I love you and how I never wanted to leave your arms, how I love the way you look at me when you think I'm not watching you. I love everything about you, and this is killing me. You left me here thinking that it would protect me but there is no way this could be for the better because without you there is no me. This isn't what I thought my life would be like after the night in our cabin. We are supposed to be together you said that you would love me forever and that we would make this work. Was it all a lie, would you really do that to me? If you were here I would have the answers to all my questions, but your not here you left me. My heart is breaking and it's all your fault, I gave you everything I had and you took it and ran. I've never felt more alone in my life.

In that moment realized just how alone I truly felt, I couldn't tell Lissa about me and Dimitri she would be so made at me for not telling her from the beginning, I have no one to talk to about this. And with that last thought someone knocked at my door, I didn't say anything I didn't even more. Then I heard a voice on the other side of the door and made my heart drop.

Adrian said, " Little Dhampir I know your in there please let me in, I know he left and I know that you must be hurting so badly please just let me in. I promise I wont try anything I just want to be with you so you don't have to be alone, I know you are going to need someone so please let me be that someone to take care of you while you are hurting. Please Rose open the door and let me in." I sat in the middle of my room on the floor crying I don't even remember starting to cry, I guess Adrian is right I do need someone and he is the only person who knows about me and Dimitri. So I got up and opened the door and let him in. He just sat there and looked at me with such pain in his eyes I don't even know why he looks so sad so I said, " Adrian why do you look like your going to die?" He sat there for a minute longer then said, "Rose go look in the mirror you look so sad, so lost its killing me to see you like this. I wish I could take away all of your pain and hurt. Rose you don't get it that I love you and I would never leave you, I would never do anything that would hurt you so much." I didn't even know what to say to that, I'm so not ready to deal with this right now. I just want to be left alone but do I really want to be alone. I already feel so alone and maybe Adrian could make me feel not so alone.

I closed the distance between Adrian and me and I wrapped my arms around him and he pulled me to the bed , and with me on his lap I sat and cried all night. I'm not sure when I fell asleep but I woke up the next day still wrapped in Adrian's arms and it felt so nice to have someone to wake up next to in the morning. This was something me and Dimitri never got to do, and with that thought I started to cry again Adrian woke up and said, "Little Dhampir are you ok?" "Yea I'm fine I was just thinking how great it felt to wake up in your arms, and then I thought that it was something I never got to do with Dimitri." Adrian just held me tighter he let me sit there wrapped in his arms and cry. I cried for everything that I lost I cried for everything that would never be and I cried for what could have been. After awhile I had nothing left to cry for and, and I had no tears left. I looked up into Adrian's bright green eyes and saw so much pain, pain that he held for me it really showed how much he cared about me. He looked at me and said, "Are you feeling any better? We should go get some food but if you don't want to leave I can have someone bring us up some food." I stayed looking into his eyes and thought he really does love me, could I ever return that him? Sitting here I thought that maybe one day I could. I sat up in Adrian's lap and kissed his cheek so softly I wasn't sure he would feel it and I said, " I really like to just stay here in your arms all day if you don't mind." Those simple words brought the biggest smile to his face and it wasn't one of those smirks that he can give this was one that I had never seen on Adrian it was one of complete happiness and love.

Seeing that loving look on his face made my heart fly and killed me at the same time because those were the kind of smiles that were so rare for Dimitri but one he would smile it would light up his whole face. Adrian interrupted my thought by saying, "Little Dhampir we can do anything that you want to do as long as we can do it together, I don't want to leave you alone not till I know you wont cry because I don't want to nor will I leave you here to cry by your self." I said, "Don't worry I don't want you to leave me ….. I don't ever want you to leave me Adrian." Adrian looked at me for a very long time before he spoke again, "Rose what are you saying? Are you saying that you want to be with me?" I thought about what I had said is that what I meant when I said that? Could I let myself be with Adrian could I love him? The answer was yes I could love Adrian, but I could never love him the way I loved Dimitri. Love is still love no matter what form it is in but could I ever give myself over completely to Adrian the way I did with Dimitri? That I wasn't so sure about maybe in time but did I have time, how long would Adrian wait for me to get over Dimitri? Is it even far to make him sit around and wait for me to get over Dimitri? I'm still so lost and confused but sitting here in Adrian's arms some how made me feel like I could make is threw this. I forgot that Adrian had asked me anything till I looked up into his eyes and saw that he was waiting for an answer so I told him the truth, " Adrian truthfully I could see myself loving you and there was always a part of me that wanted you, but I don't know if I'm ready to be with anyone right now and I don't thinks its fair to make you sit around and wait for me to get over Dimitri. It means the world to me to have you here right now, sitting here in your arms I feel like that one I will get over this and that everything will be ok. You make me feel like I could be happy again when before you came to my room I was even more lost and hurt, but its not so bad with you here it feels like it could be bearable." He sat and just looked at me with eyes that held some many different emotions I wasn't sure what I was seeing, " Rose." He whispered, "I have waited so long to hear you say what you just said to me. I need you to know that you mean the world to me and that there is no place else I would rather be then with you, I would follow you to the end of the earth and back. I would have giving up everything just for the chance to hold you as I am now. You make me want to be a better person then I was before, bring out the best in me Rose. And I would wait for ever to be with you so don't ever think that I would leave you because you took to long to get over the man that you loved because I understand how much you love him, and how messed up you are because of how he left you. Just know that I'm not going anywhere not ever I will forever be by your side weather you like it or not." I did the only thing I could think of I smiled at him and I pulled him closer to me and held him so tight like I was trying to mold my body to his and strangely our bodies fit perfectly together. We sat together in each others arms for a while then we got up and Adrian called someone to bring us up some food and while he was doing that I got into the shower. When the food came we ate in a peaceful silence then we snuggled up into my bed again and watch a movie and I fell asleep in Adrian's arms for a second time in two days and it felt wonderful.

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XOXO ROZA