AUTHOR'S NOTES: this was the very first fic I ever posted on So forgive the bad placing of the text before. I changed the plot entirely in this story but the main idea is from 'My Sassy Girl' a hilarious, romantic Korean movie. I definitely recommend the movie to those who want a good laugh and a good cry. I LOVE RUKAWA ("v")
BTW, I don't own the first saying. I just got it from the anime 'Boys Be' but the other two, I own.
-...- - sayings
italicizedbold - Japanese lyrics
/.../ – English translation of jap lyrics
PROLOGUE: One Kono Yo ga Hatete mo Hanarenai; One Even if This World Comes to an End, I Won't Leave You
-You come to this world alone, and you die alone.-
This is--was my motto. The truth. No matter how many kith and kin we have in our lifetime, we will always be alone. So I shunned myself from everyone, everyone except myself. Except from her.
I couldn't trust anyone. But she taught me how. It was only typical of someone like me, someone of my stature in society, to doubt the intentions of those around me. I did not want to be used. I was afraid of being betrayed. I was afraid of being hurt.
I did not receive love. Admiration perhaps, but never love. I wanted to be loved, but she showed me that it's better to love than be loved. Because wanting to be loved, is a very selfish thing. And love is never selfish.
I am the only son of one of the richest businesspeople in Japan. My mother and father never had time for me since their job kept them busy and traveling countries. They own a successful international company. Yup, I'm that Rukawa. The billionaire's son. Although I doubt everyone thinks that about me. Nobody knows who I really am and I don't even want them to. I live in a mansion alone with maids scurrying about, cleaning a house barely anyone lives in. There are times when I think my parents don't even know I exist. The only thing they do that assures me they know I'm alive is when they send me money. I get cards and a load of presents on holidays (especially on my birthday) and a greeting card filled with utter nonsense and lies (probably bought by their secretaries). I don't really care.
I wanted to hide my identity. So I enrolled in Shohoku High school. My parents enrolled me in some high class school at first but I was always expelled on purpose. So they let me decide which school I wanted. I chose regular schools that I was sure no one knew of my name. And my assumption was correct. No one knew who I am.
I didn't want anyone to know. To find out about me. No one had a clue since I didn't dress like the rich boy I am. I was afraid that if they discovered my identity, deceptive people will cling to me. And the last thing I want is stubborn gold-diggers.
But when I told her about me, it didn't make any difference. Her treatment towards me didn't change. Because she saw beneath that exterior. Because she knew that I wanted to be seen as a person, not as an heir to a large financial empire. She saw the lonely little boy I was... because she was a lonely, lost little girl.
sabishisa to tomo ni umareta tamashii meguriai hitotsu ni tokeau toki eien ga nagare hajimeru...
/When souls that were born along with loneliness are brought together by fate, and melt into one, eternity begins to flow.../
It's strange, how we filled each other's void with our emptiness. Our loneliness had drawn us to each other and connected us. She understood me because she felt the same... the same loneliness, the same pain... even the same betrayal.
kanashimi mo mukidashi de misete ii kuchibiru de itami mo iyashite yaru sono mune ni bara ga saku made...
/It's OK to show you can bare your loneliness, healing the pain with your lips until a rose blooms in your heart.../
You know the most amazing thing about her? Despite all the hurt she's experienced, she didn't become bitter. But she grew more sad and hopeless. She wants happiness, but she is afraid of it disappearing and leaving her more broken than she is already.
-Happiness doesn't always last. And when it goes, you are left more miserable than before. More pain. More regret. And I don't want that. I'm sick and tired of being hurt. So I don't want it.-
Even though she didn't want it, still... she longed for it. She wanted to be loved, to be happy, and to be accepted for who she is... but she believed she would never have any of that. So she wouldn't allow herself to wish.
-People always wish things they don't have. Can't have.-
She is the most unselfish person I know. Because she experience pain, she didn't want others to feel what she suffers. She thinks she doesn't deserve the good things she receive. Why? Because she thinks she's not worth it.
I wanted to see her smile. A happy smile, not the heartrending smile she always wore. No one saw underneath her mask. All except me.
sabishisa wo nuida futatsu no tamashii dakiatte hitotsu ni tokeau toki kodoku kara ai ga umareru...
/When two souls that have shed their loneliness embrace and melt into one, from out of loneliness, love is born.../
I wanted to see her happy because she made me happy. We became friends, but never did I expect to fall in love with her. Sure, she's loud, independent, unruly at times, tough, violent, a study freak, but hell. I like it.
This is my--our story. The story of a lonely rich boy who found a lonely, lost, sad little girl.
hi wo tsukero tachihadakaru Distress
moyashi tsuku shitai kinou no Darkness
ore-tachi no kokoro wa sou Endless
REAL na kiseki ga koko ni aru...
/Burst into flame, distress that blocks the way.
I want to burn the darkness of the past.
Our hearts are, yes, endless.
A real miracle is right here with us.../
PS: PLEASE REVIEW! tell me if it sucks or not or if you want to continue this story. TY(",)