The pristinely cut lawn of this particular section of cemetery compared to its somewhat overgrown neighbor gave life to the town's haves v. have-nots battleground. She hasn't been here since the funeral. The petite blonde stood quietly staring at the headstone of her best friend. It was well maintained. To manicured though. It never did justice to the person who rested there. She doesn't bring flowers. She brings pictures and champagne. If she stared long enough would its occupant appear.
"Finally come home, Veronica Mars." The words whispered in her ear as if carried by the breeze.
"Lily."
"The one and only, dorkus."
"I thought I stopped seeing you after I found your murderer."
"I guess I have more to do."
"What would that be."
"I don't know, but, if he makes you happy. Then don't say goodbye."
"Who?"
"You know who, Veronica Mars. And one more thing, there is another option other than get out or get buried. Neptune could use more people like you and your dad. Keep us good-for-nothing 09ers out of trouble." Lily said before skipping behind a nearby headstone.
"But, Lily." Veronica walked to and peered behind the tombstone. Nothing there. Once upon a time when she was trying to solve Lily's murder she would have the same dream/hallucination/message from beyond. And as quickly as she appeared, she disappeared. Same old thing. And she was always right.
Veronica pulled out her cell phone and dialed a number. "Yes I am booked on a 6pm flight to Virginia. Can I change that to the red eye?" This might take a while she confessed to herself. She took the Champagne as she left. "To either celebrate or drown some sorrows. I'll be seeing you, Lil."
The nourish hallway was familiar. The door and even the boy behind it were familiar. The territory, however, was unbearably new. She knocked, considered running, and waited.
"Veronica? What are you doing here? I thought you were on your way to that dream internship." He said with a cocky lilt.
"Pushed my flight to the red eye. Can I come in?" She said in such a weak manner that for a minute she wasn't sure if she said it.
"Yeah, of course." Logan saw the heaviness of her heart. His almost broke. Her being there couldn't be good. He knew without a doubt she wasn't there to rekindle their star-crossed romance. He gave up hope of that after his weekend with Heather. With that hope gone, and what he did to Piz, he knew it wouldn't be fun, fun, fun. Her face belied something worse. He feared the worse.
"I need to tell you something."
"famous last words" he said with his usual snarky cover.
"please just let me say this." He motioned for her to go on.
"I can't say goodbye to you. I can't remove you from my life, because I need you in it. I can count on one hand the people who mean the most to me. You are one of them no matter how I try to deny it. But you are so much more then just that. I can't say goodbye. But, this internship is so important so I am leaving. I just couldn't leave without saying that. I wanted you to know that I am going back on what I said last time I was here. And, letting you know that I will always be there for you. That I love you."
You could have knocked Logan over with a feather. Did she really say that? Did she even mean it? She never said it before, only answered yes. "What does this mean?" He asked with trepidation.
"thought I was pretty clear. I don't want you out of my life, I want –need you in it."
"I mean are you giving me a second chance to be your boyfriend? Or is this just a Dear John let's be friends? Because I gotta know do I get to be your Ducky as you walk off all pretty in pink?"
"You can't be Ducky, you are the rich guy." Veronica said with a classic head tilt and smirk.
"Im serious Veronica." Veronica sighed and looked down sheepishly.
"I know you are. I am just not sure. There is a part of me that realizes why I broke up with you was stupid, and that Piz was just a distraction from the pain of you and Parker. But, so much of me is constantly battling between jumping you and pushing you even farther away."
"You still don't trust me."
"I don't think it is not trusting you. I think it is that I can't count on you because I think you will let me down again."
"I know I let you down in the past. So many times. But I am trying to be the person you want me to be."
"Im not trying to change you. I just think you could do so much better."
"I realize that. I told you before, it is encouraging that someone thinks so highly of me. I just want to prove you right."
"when did you ever tell me that./"
"The message I left after you found out about Madison."
"after the rant about digging through garbage."
"yeah. Take it you didn't finish listening."
"Nope. Look, Logan, maybe we can revisit that after Virginia. I might be transferring to Stanford, so, it wouldn't be fair to make any decisions now. But, we can talk and email. You can come visit. And, we'll see."
"I guess that makes sense. Stanford has always been your dream. I never knew why you went here when you could have gone there. I thought it was us. Especially with a the help you gave to get me in Hearst."
"Logan, I, wanted to be here with you. I don't regret that. But you know I have to try. I can't give up on my dreams."
"I know. It hurts, but I get it. I always thought we were epic. You and me." You could have knocked Veronica over with a feather, as they say. Logan mistook her shocked face for confusion. "Lives ruined, bloodshed. Spanning years, continents. You know epic."
Veronica was confused. Did he remember? If he didn't this would be proof he meant it all that time ago.
"Lives ruined, bloodshed? You really think it should be that hard?"
"they don't write songs about the ones that come easy. Wow. Weird."
"What's weird."
"Just déjà vu I guess."
"No. You told me that before. At alterna-prom."
"That's what I said to you." Logan looked ambushed. Veronica nodded. "Well, this time I will remember. No wonder you ran."
"So…?"
"So. Can I take to dinner before you leave."
"I'd like that." She stepped up to his towering height, raised to her tip toes, and placed kissed his cheek. Anyone else would think it was just a peck on the cheek between friends. Those who really knew them would know that inside that simple kiss was every emotion and enough love to fill the universe.
A/N: Thank you to those who have reviewed. I am so gratified and grateful. I will endeavor to make this continue. Perhaps other readers will vote. I always harbored two ideas for a fourth season. One in which Veronica is back at Hearst and one where she does go to Stanford and only returns to Neptune after 4/5 years (a time jump if you will). Which do you want to see here? I am leaning toward time jump.
