AN: Hey guys I'm going to give you some warnings on this chapter. There are mentions of Kurt getting raped by Dave. If it will trigger anything for you then just skip that part. But anyway this is klaine in fourtis place. So when Kurt chooses he chooses Dauntless and Blaine is one of his trainers. I do not own glee or divergent. They belong to Veronica and Ryan. I'm not trying to steal anything here.
I walked down the street slowly; motionlessly letting my mind wander. It's so hard to choose. Too have to decide what the rest of your life has in store. It's too soon. I look behind me and see a flower. I walk over to it, slowly reach down and grasp it in my hand. I feel the roots pull out of the ground as my hand rises. I bring the flower to my nose and smell it. I smile faintly at the scent that fills my nose. I place it back on the ground and think. It's kind of like me. It used to have so much hope, now it will just struggle to live. It will never be the same again, because I made a choice that will ruin that flowers life.
Tomorrow is the day I will have to choose my new life style. My new faction. The factions are split into five different categories. Abnegation: Selfless, Dauntless: Brave, Amity: Peaceful, Erudite: Intelligent, and Candor: Honesty.
This is how the society works. When teens turn sixteen, they have to choose to either stay where they were raised, or leave the nest and never turn back.
It all went downhill for me when I was eight and my mom died. She was so special to me and her face still appears in my dreams some nights. I still don't know what happened to her. One day she was there, and the next she was gone. I think my dad knows. I'll never be sure though whenever I bring it up he just pushes the subject away like nothing ever happened. He's remarried now, to a very nice lady named Carole. I have a stepbrother now, his names Finn. We were actually pretty close before they got married to so that was good.
I walk farther and farther to my house on the Abnegation compound. I open the door slowly and check to see if anyone's home. I don't see anybody so when I close the door I slump my back against it with a soft thud. I take a shaky breathe, trying to free my mind from the thoughts that have it cluttered.
My back slams against the lockers with a loud bang. A trickling pain runs up my back. I look up only to lock eyes with David Karowsky.
"You got a problem, stiff?" he asks me in a cold dead tone.
"No problem at all," I peep terrified of what he will do to me again if I say I have a problem.
"Good," he snarled groping my thigh after he made sure nobody was looking. I freeze dreading what he will do next. Luckily he walks away without another word. I wish I could slap the smirk he just gave me off his face. But I can't. I know exactly what he would do to me if I did. And it's horrifying.
I pick up a few books that I dropped on the floor when I was shoved. As I walk I think about the things David does to me. First he bullies me, and then he steels my first kiss, then my virginity. I didn't ask him to do it, I honestly begged him to stop, over and over again. As usual my request would be denied. After that it started happening almost every day. He doesn't even try to make less painful, he doesn't even prep me.
I snap out of my thoughts as I reach the cafeteria door. As I push the door open I see some of my friends and walk over to them. When I get there my friend Mercedes pulls me into a hug. "Hey boo," she says as she folds her arms around me in a tight embrace.
"Hey Cedes," I say giving into her strong arms. We pull back from the hug and she eyes me curiously.
"You okay?" she asks me, looking concerned for me.
I think about the question. I honestly don't know if I'm okay anymore. All my friends are bullied but not far as bad as me. The reason I'm bullied so bad is because I came out a while ago. People don't understand. Of course I'm not okay.
"I'm fine," I say. I tell people that lie almost every day. "Just scared." I conclude.
"Relax," she tells me patting my arm. I smile at her, but then my friend Rachel hugs me from behind. I look up and notice people are starting their tests. A nervous feeling builds in my stomach. When I open my mouth to start talking to Rachel, we are told to sit and be quiet.
We sit there silently for about 10 minutes, hearing people get called in for their tests. Suddenly a girl with black hair with different color streaks in it calls my name.
I take in a shaky breathe. The nervous feeling in my stomach intensifies, as I get to my feet. Finn, my stepbrother, makes eye contact with me. He mouths the words good luck to me. I smile at him.
Then I turn and start walking away, towards the girl who called my name. She smiles at me and we walk into a room with mirrors covering every wall. There's a chair in the middle of the room.
"You could just take a seat in the chair," she tells me. I walk over to the chair and silently sit down. "My name is Tori I'll be doing your test today." She says. I nod. She walks up to me with a small cup with a clear liquid inside. It doesn't look like water.
"What is that?" I ask her horrified.
"It's just a serum that will knock you out for little while. But only for about two minutes, then you'll wake up and it will be over. Don't worry it's going to be okay." I nod and cautiously take the glass from her hand. It shakes a little as I take the small cup to my mouth. She nods at me to drink it. I feel my heart stop in my chest as I drink the serum. Then everything goes black.
My eyes snap open. I'm in a different room now. Everything is black and no matter where I look it's black. Am I dead? I think. Then all of a sudden the lights turn on. My breathe catches in my throat as a dog appears. All I see is a knife, and on the other side of the room there is a piece of cheese. "What the actual fuck?" I say getting more nervous each time the dog steps forward, growling at me. My mind is racing with so many thoughts and my stomach twitches with terror. I don't know what to use. I don't know what's happening. I just don't know.
All of a sudden the god jumps at me. I scream and try to reach for something to help me escape. But nothing works. I lay there as the dog bites me, and pain goes through my body.
I sit up straight breathing heavy. Tori walks up to me and put her hand on my shoulder. "You okay?" She asks me.
"Are you fucking kidding me!? I was just attacked by a dog and you think I'm OKAY?! Because I'm not freaking okay! I have never been OKAY!" I yell. She stares at me wide eyed and shocked.
"I'll be right back," she says and walks out. I sit there staring at where my hands are now folded in my lap. I start to think about what I just said. I feel so bad for yelling at Tori now. She did nothing; I just needed to yell it. I'm not okay. I don't know if I ever will be. But I have to for my dad, Finn, Carole, but mostly my mom. She would always want me to pull through.
Tori walked in the room again with her head down. "Listen, I'm sorry I snapped at you I just-"she cuts me off by raising her hand. Its fine I understand, you're just stressed," she tells me. I sigh and sick down into my chair. "So here's some bad news," my eyes then shoot open.
"What do you mean bad news?" I say.
"It's nothing to bad, it's just…your test was inconclusive," she says her eyes searching mine trying to find the emotion I have hiding in them.
"What the hell does that mean?" I ask. My voice is getting louder and she puts her hand on my shoulder again.
"I need you to relax so I can explain," she pleaded. I nod and take a deep breath, calming myself. "They can't categorize you. You fit into more than faction. It's called Divergent." She explains. My stomach is twisting with nerves.
"I don't get it. What do I choose? Should I ask somebody? Am I going to be factionless?" I start spitting out random questions.
"You can't tell anybody," she says. "It's too dangerous. They can take your life." Suddenly my heart pauses in my chest. My mind is pulsing with raging thoughts. I can't even think anymore. I feel like I'm on fire from the terror intensifying inside of me.
"What is it? Why is it so dangerous? Are there other people like me?" My voice is panicky and I feel like I'm going to pass out.
"I'm sorry but our time is up," she tells me. "Just don't tell anybody," she concludes. She grabs my arm and leads me to the door. Right before I walk out she grabs my wrist and whispers "choose wisely," in my ear. I feel tears build up behind my eyes, but I don't let them fall.
"Thank you," I respond to her. She smiles and I walk away, pretending everything is okay.
Later that night I'm sitting at the table with my family eating dinner. My family is not like the other Abnegation households. For example we goof off a little and talk when we want to talk. But tonight everything feels different. Nobody is talking. It's completely silent. But suddenly my dad clears his throat.
"So boys how did your test go?" he asks us. I freeze.
"Dad! We can't tell you what the test said." I say to him sternly and nervous. He looks at me weird, like he knows something's up.
"I wasn't asking what you got, I just wanted to know if they went okay," he says defensively.
"It was fine," I say slamming my fork on the table. "Can I be excused please?" I ask infuriated.
"Fine," my dad says. As I walk away I feel there gazes on me. So I walk up to my room faster. I close the door and lay my back on it, as the tears I've been holding in, slowly roll down my cheeks silently. A sob is torn from my throat as I think more and more about how screwed up my life is. Why do I always suffer? I think to myself. Why me? Why am I such a failure? Why can't I just be normal like everyone else?
More tears roll down my cheeks at a fast pace. I decide to cope with this the only way I know how. I start to sing.
It's probably what's best for you
I only want the best for you
And if it's not the best then you're stuck
I feel my heart pound and more tears escape as I reach the chorus.
But baby I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start
Cause you can bandage the damage
But you never really can fix a heart
I stop singing when I feel calm and walk over to my nightstand. I reach inside and take out a picture of me and my mom, and her old perfume bottle. I lift it to my nose and frown. The smell if fading. A silent tear makes its way down my face, and drips on the picture I'm holding of us. It's the only picture we have of me and her. I feel like all the memories I have of her are now gone. I just feel so empty.
In the picture I can't be any older than four, and I'm in my mom's arms. I study her blue eyes, pale skin, and light brown hair. She looks just like me.
I put the perfume bottle back in my drawer, but keep the picture in my hand. I slowly make my way over to the bed. I put the picture under my pillow and feel the warm wet tacks trailing down my pale cheeks. I lay there and cry silently until I fall asleep.
A knock on my door awakes me from my sleep. "Kurt? Buddy can I come in?" I hear my dad say on the other side of the door.
"Yeah," I mumble loud enough so he could hear me but I didn't have to move my face out of the pillow I have my face stuffed in. I hear the door open and my dad steps in.
"Hey bud, you okay?" he asks me sitting at the foot of my bed.
I look's up and my dad makes a pained face. I know I have tears staining my face, and it's probably super red.
"Dad, I'm scared," I whisper looking up and making eye contact with him. Pressure builds behind my eyes and next thing I know I'm crying again. My dad scoots over to me and takes me in his arms. I sob quietly into his chest as he runs his hand through my hair. When my sobs slow down and the tears start to stop, we break apart.
"Bud," my dad says. "I don't want you to be scared, or sad. You know you can come to me for anything right?" he asks me.
"Of course I know that dad," I answer. "I just don't want to lose you. I'm so afraid that I'll lose you just like I lost mom. I won't be able to take that pain for long. I need you, dad. I know this makes me sound pathetic but, you're my best friend. You always will be," I mumble that last sentence right before another sob was torn from my throat and I throw my arms around him. "Please never leave me," I plead into his ear.
He grips my back tightly before whispering the promise I've almost wanted him to promise me. "You're not going to lose me."
We lay there for about 2 hours talking for a while, till us both fell asleep.
I slowly peel my eyes open. The first thought I have is that today is the choosing ceremony. I look at the clock and see that its 6:25. I role out of bed to shower and get dressed. When I finish getting ready I walk down the stairs and say good morning to everybody. I kiss my dad on the head, and he smiles at me.
"Okay everybody," Carole says. "Eat up quick, we can't be late." I sit down and have some pancakes. Right when we finish we walk to the ceremony. When we arrive we take our seats, and wait silently with everyone else. I look around and see all the other factions sitting around us. Then Jeanine Matthews walks out. Jeanine is the leader of the Erudite.
"Hello everybody," she says. "Today we will see these teens, find out the rest of their life. This is a very big choice, and it is not something to fool with. Your new faction is your new way of life. Choose wisely," she concludes. She walks off the stage and names are called randomly. When Finn's name is called, he decides to stay with Abnegation. So I watch as some of my friends choose.
Quinn chooses Erudite, and so does Brittany. Rachel chooses Amity. After Rachel chooses my name is called. I take a shaky breathe and walk over to the bowls. I stare at the different bowls in front of me. I think about what to do as I feel everybody's eyes on me. I pick up the blade and try and decide what to do. I don't have much time. I want to scream. But before I know what I'm doing, I slice my palm open and drip my blood into Dauntless.
The brave.
AN: So did you like it? Please review and tell me what you think. And please be nice!