Another contract killing. For my good friend, Whispers and Rain. I hope you enjoy this...as it is a little different from my normal work. Like I told you before...I blame the copious amounts of wine and sad music.
"…love me…"
The thought lingered in his mind as he walked down the quiet hallway of the main estate…more of a craving, then an actual thought.
"…love me… Love me. Love me. Love me, love me, love me. Love. Me."
His fingers clenched into fists as nails dug into the flesh of his palms. A slow ache ran its way up the length of his arms, the muscles and tendons growing weak under the strain as he finally relaxed his fingers, staring at the painful indentations on his palms. Looking at his hands, memories began to involuntarily flood his mind. Of her. Her words. Her tears. Her screams. The look of complete fear on her face…even as she protested that she wanted to know him. How he felt. …how he felt…no one had ever asked him that before. Not even Shigure. But she did. And then she left…just like that. She left…
"…love me…"
In hindsight, he wished he hadn't hurt her. Driven her away. But that's what happened when people came too close to him. They suffered. They suffered as he suffered. And he did…hurt her. Hurt her and broke her. Just like them. Just like the others. Breaking people down…controlling them…frustration washed over him as he ruminated over this. As hard as he tried…they still couldn't hear him screaming.
"...love me…"
In order to keep them close he had sacrificed his humanity for divinity…becoming a monster in the process. The fact of the matter was…he didn't want to be alone. But no matter how hard he tried to keep them close to him they seemed to be drifting further apart…away from him. He knew he was losing control. It would only be a matter of time. He would be gone…forgotten. The only thing he ever understood was pain. Pain left scars. And scars were a permanent testament that the pain had been real. Something left behind…
"…love me…"
If becoming a monster was what it took to be remembered…etched permanently in their minds…so be it. Walking into the garden, he took a seat in his favorite spot. A moment of peace in the turmoil. It wasn't long now. He could feel his body growing weaker with each passing moment. The only thing driving him now was that memory…of her. It was absolutely cruel the way she had arrived…crashing into his life. Why now? Now…when it was too late to matter. Having finally found what he had so desperately longed for…searched for… To have it right there in front of him. And then she just left… He didn't blame her, though. Taking what he wanted from her flesh was the only thing he knew to do. Taking. Taking without asking. Because no one had ever given him what he was crying out for. They were all too scared.
"...love me…"
Pain rushed through his body as the muscles contracted and tightened underneath his pale skin. Gasping out for breath, tears stung his eyes as he choked back sobs. He hadn't realized it would hurt this much…to die. Slumping to the ground another wave of pain crashed into his consciousness, crowding out everything else. Pain…the only thing he had ever understood completely. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he realized his worst fear. He was…alone.
End
His little whispers,
"Love me, love me
That's all I ask for
Love me, love me."
He battered his tiny fists to feel something
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something
Monster,
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
That night he caged her
Bruised and broke her
He struggled closer
Then he stole her
Violet wrists and then her ankles, silent pain
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams
Monster,
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the windows
Time will
Hear their voices
I'm a glass child,
I am Hannah's regrets
Monster,
How should I feel?
Turn the sheets down
Murder ears with pillow lace
There's bath tubs
Full of glow flies
Bathe in kerosene
Their words tattooed in his veins
Yeah!
A/N: Feature lyrics in this story are from the song "Monster" by Meg and Dia.