(A/N- this
story takes place after my short piece called Lives Washed Away: Remus and
Saraan. This story is about basically what happened after Remus tried to commit
suicide and Saraan saves him. It will probably be a series. It'll be in both
Remus's and Saraan's POV, the chapters will tell you who's POV it's in)
Chapter One: Saraan
KNOCK!
A knock on my
front door. Not what I needed right now; I didn't feel leaving Remus's side. He
was still unconscious and it pained me to see him that way.
KNOCK!
There it was
again. I decided to ignore it, and stay with Remus. It had been a month since
he'd threw him self over the ledge by the rocks. He'd been a bloody and mangled
mess. That had since healed but he was still like this. He mumbled in his coma
sometimes, and from that I'd learned his deepest secrets; some of them I
defiantly didn't need to know.
People called
me a recluse now, since I'd quit my job. Remus and my brother were more
important, and then there was my own project. I made limited contact with
anybody, and stayed mostly inside my house. With James and Lily dead, Sirius
and Less gone, and Remus maybe never waking up, there just wasn't a lot I
wanted to commit my self to.
I turned my
eyes to Remus seeing him stir. That made sense; the full moon was tomorrow
after all.
"Saraan?" I
turned. Robert stood in the doorway looking worried as usual. My brother. It
seemed unusual that he'd be worried about me, as I usually worried about him.
"Saraan," he
repeated. "Do you need anything? I'm kind of worried about you." It was true I
could see it in his eye.
I smiled
slightly. "You should be resting."
Robert
scowled. "I'll be fine. It's not till…"
"Still," I
turned my attention back to Remus. He twisted and turned in his sleep, moaning.
I adjusted the cloth on his head.
"Just rest
Rob, It'll put my mind at ease at least for a bit."
He sighed, but
left. When he did I laid my head down ob Remus's chest and cried.
Chapter Two: Saraan
The full moon was up, and I sat at
Remus's bedside. There was a chance he'd wake up, and if he did I needed to be
there. There was something I really needed to tell him.
Night
approached quietly, and after making sure my brother was safe I went back to
Remus. It killed me to see him like this. Of all the years I'd ever known him
I'd never seen him transform from human to wolf. Only back.. He woke up shaking
violently, and I tried to console him. He grasped me with a half hand half paw
trying to talk but all that came out was a growl. I'd dosed him with a proto
type of my invention so I'd be able to be with him that night. A final shiver
and Remus fully a wolf.
I stroked his
head and he climbed onto my lap.
"You know
where you are?" I asked him kindly.
He nodded
weakly.
"You wee in a
bad way for a awhile." I kept talking. "You almost didn't live."
A whimpering
sound came from my wolf, but I kept on stroking him.
"Self pity
isn't going to help. It was a stupid thing to do. And Remus I wouldn't want to
loose you."
He shifted in
my lap, gently looking up at me. Daring me to say what I wanted to say next.
"Remus, listen
I love you and I don't want you hurt." I said looking into his eyes. "You don't
know how scared I was when you jumped. I…" I found I couldn't continue. I was
too choked up. Instead I started to cry. Remus nuzzled up closer to me, and I
stroked him some more, curling up into a ball.
"You truly are
beautiful this way." I told him in between tears. Then I fell asleep next to
him.
Chapter Three: Remus
.
I woke up in the morning to bright
light coming in through the blinds. I was next to Saraan on a chair. She looked
beautiful, but stressed and worried at the same time. I remembered the night
before, the conversation, the guilt I'd felt in my wolven form. There'd been a
lot of that; guilt for all I'd put her through. But the night, the night I'd
done that I guess I'd been desperate. But now Saraan was upset, and I
guess her feelings meant a lot to me.
Saraan's eyes opened next to me. She
yawned and looked around.
"Oh Rem." She
sighed using her pet name for me.
"Hey," I
looked at her smiling slightly. "Thanks."
"Don't do
that." She kissed me. "All the thanks I need is you being alive."
I kissed her
back then tried to get up. I found my legs to be tiered and weighed down.
"Get into the
bed." Saraan instructed. "The potion might have a side effect."
"It worked
wonders." I walked over to the bed and got in. I didn't have the energy to
argue with her properly, so I let her doctor and baby me. She bought breakfast
to me and sat while I ate.
"You were out
for a month." She offered.
"A month!" I nearly
choked on my bacon.
She nodded
slowly.
"Did anything
happen while I was asleep?" I had hopes. Maybe Sirius was free. Maybe they'd
found Less. Maybe none of this had happened at all.
"Nothing
really." Saraan broke into my thoughts.
"Oh." I said
glumly.
"Rem, it'll be
ok." Saraan sighed. "I have to go see Robert, make him rest."
"Yeah, ok." I
smiled. "I love you know."
"I know."
Saraan laughed and left the room.