Ok ok ok, I know what you are thinking, that I should be working on "Your Kiss Is Home, but I just had to write this. Besides I am having a block in that story. Anyway, please read nad no flaming the pair. R&R
Disclaimer: I do NOT own the Titans
"Game Over, BB," I heard Cyborg yell from my place on the couch. I looked up to see him and Beast Boy playing Master Racer 6; something they had not been doing when I had sat down to read my book. I had awoken early this morning due to a mysterious sound coming from one of my books. When I had fully wakened, I had discovered it was Melchior.
"Hello, my beautiful bird. Are you lonely," I remember him taunting me. "Let me out and you will be lonely no more. Remember how powerful you were and could be again. We could rule this Earth together, and no one could stop us." I remember being tempted by his words, remembering the black magic he had indeed taught me. I had been close to opening the book and letting him loose. I wanted someone to comfort me and hold me. I wanted someone to love me in a way no one else could. Then, I felt a nudge in my mind, telling me I did.
"You love Cyborg," Love had told me and in my state of mind, within the fighting and chaos my emotions caused at Melchior's voice, she spoke the loudest. I quickly shut Melchior's book and rushed from the room. I had fixed me a cup of tea and settled on the sofa with a good book. I did not recall when everyone else had awoken, but now that I looked around, I saw everyone else was up. Robin was sitting at the table reading the paper with a slight frown on his face, the other two boys were playing and Starfire was in the kitchen with her many items for food. Surprising me the most, though, was when I realized how close the guys were to me. Cyborg was so close that once in a while his back would brush my leg and Beast Boy was right beside him. I looked at the clock to find I had been reading for four hours straight. I put down my book and stretched my legs out in front of me, making Cyborg jump.
"Gosh, Rae, I didn't think you were awake in there," he said lightly tapping my forehead. At his touch, I suddenly remembered what love had said earlier.
"I don't know if I am or not," I said in deep thought.
"How could I love Cyborg," I thought to myself. He was like my brother and he thought of me as a sister, not lover. I stored that thought away as Robin looked over at me.
"Raven, are you ok," Robin asked all of a sudden. Curse him and the stupid bond.
"What do you mean," I asked in my usual monotone. Starfire and Beast Boy ignored us and walked towards the garage saying something about going to the mall but Cyborg watched in concern.
"Well, I awoke earlier this morning feeling something through the bond. It was almost powerful enough to knock me to my feet. By the time I made it out of bed, you were no longer present in my mind. It sounded like you were asking for help," he said coming to sit beside me. I felt him put his hand on my shoulder, but I was looking out the window.
"It was nothing," I said pulling my hood up.
"Oh, no you don't," Cyborg said. He reached up and pulled my hood back down. "This is probably the only way we can see your emotions." I sighed but left it off.
"Just tell me what was going on, because I also sensed hurt and depression coming through. Something seriously hurt you Raven," Robin said turning me to face him. I sighed and held out my hand.
"Azerath, Metrion Zinthose," I said and Melchior's book landed in front of me.
"Well, my little bird it's about time I see that darling face again. Tell me why you left me this morning," he asked in his sensual voice. I felt myself shudder as I threw it to the ground. I looked and saw Robin a state of being surprised, but Cyborg held a sense of compassion to him.
"He's bothering you again," he asked coming to sit beside me. I nodded at my weakness and I heard Melchior laugh.
"Goodness, Raven, it seems I am not quite popular around here. Tell me, why do you not accept what you are and let us rule together. You love me, and I still love you Raven. I could give you so much, much more than you have now. You could have all the diamonds you want, all the slaves in the world. Every human would bow to you and every male would worship you. I understand you Raven; more than anyone else in this world. Take me back. Let me out," he said and my heart fluttered as I looked at the cover of the book. Again I felt that pull towards him. I grabbed a hold of the couch and closed me eyes, screwing them shut. I started chanting quietly and calming my emotions. I felt a cold arm wrap around my shoulder.
"Raven, don't listen to him," I heard Robin command as he felt the feelings stir inside of me.
"Oh, and who are you to tell her what to do," Melchior laughed. I snarled at Melchior and opened my eyes.
"Better him than you," I snarled picking up the book from my feet. "Why don't you just leave me alone?" I swore I felt the book sigh as I placed it on the table in front of us.
"Because, Raven, I value my possessions and you are in my possession," he stated as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. I felt Robin stop breathing and Cyborg tightened his hold on my shoulders, causing me to shiver.
"She does not belong to you," Cyborg said through clenched teeth. I felt him shaking in anger and had his fist clenched.
"So, you don't know how close we were? You don't know what all Raven and I did together," Melchior taunted. I felt a sudden surge of memories hit me and I gasped.
"What is he talking about Raven," Cyborg asked in a confusion that was on the verge of pain.
"He isn't talking about anything," I said as I leaned back into Cyborg's arm. Melchior laughed out loud and I winced.
"Come on, Rae Rae. Tell them about us. Tell them how much you loved me, about every touch you ever felt at my hand, about every kiss you ever received at my lips, about every night in between," Melchior said and I shivered. I remembered his seductive kisses, his elegant touch and lying in his arms every night. No, we never had sex, but with kisses like his, it felt that way. I moaned and fell deeper into the couch.
"You miss those days Raven," Melchior said and I shook my head.
"No, no I don't. I have lived every day at the dispense of those memories. They keep me from making the mistake of falling in love ever again. I will NEVER release you. I will NEVER go back to you and I will NEVER let another guy hurt me," I said as I stood up in frustration. Robin stood up with me, placing an arm around my waist.
"Raven, I felt what you just did. I saw the memories you just had and I know how much they hurt you now, but you can't vow never to love again. It will hurt you worse," he said gently in my ear.
"You don't get it," I turned around in anger. I saw Robin back up a step but Cyborg remained seated.
"He's right," I screamed. "No one else out there understands and loves me! I am just a worthless half demon who isn't meant for love or any other form of emotion. No one out there really knows me and still loves me! I'm bound for darkness!" I threw my hands up in the air and then picked up Melchior's book. "If you don't leave me alone, I'll throw this book to the bottom of the ocean," I screamed at him. I teleported him to my room and turned to face the others. Robin was surprised and Cyborg looked hurt.
"Raven, that's not true," Cyborg said looking up to me. My anger left me at his voice and I answered with real curiosity.
"What's not true," I asked sitting on the coffee table.
"There are people out there that love you and you are just more than a useless half demon," he said looking me in the eyes.
"Cyborg is right, Raven. We love you, we care for you and you are amazing. You are a hero, a saver, and a."
"A destroyer," I finished for him.
"No you're not," Cyborg screamed standing up. He marched to stand in front of me and knelt down to my height. At his closeness my heart beat sped up and I started sweating.
"You are more than any of those things. You are a kick-ass fighter, a great hero, a caring person and a beautiful woman," he said grabbing my hand. I swear my heart stopped at the word beautiful.
"Any guy that isn't in love with you is down right crazy and stupid. Any guy would be lucky as hell to be the apple of your eye, the man of your desires, the one you love. Rae, you are the most amazing person I have ever met, not to mention the most beautiful," he said with a small smile playing on his face. His face inclined toward mine and he looked me deep in the eyes. I heard Robin clear his throat but we continued staring at each other. I was lost in thought and I was trying to figure out what was wrong.
"Raven," Cyborg sighed pulling me into a hug. I hugged him back and discovered how much I loved the way my body fit into his. He had his long arms around my waist as I hugged him around his shoulders. I hugged him tighter and felt my heart speed up. Robin just sighed and left and my emotions came out as soon as he was gone.
"Raven, you are in love with Cyborg," Love said in a small happy voice.
"Raven, Love is right," Intelligence spoke up. Cyborg leaned back and looked me in eyes. He reached to move a piece of hair out form my face and it burned where he touched me. He tucked it behind my ear and his hand lingered on my cheek. I stared into his eyes and his face was serious. He brought both hands up and held my small face in his hands.
"Raven," he asked in a gruff voice.
"Yes, Cyborg," I asked licking my lips at how parch they were. He slightly trembled and I shivered in return. I turned my head trying to hide my embarrassment. He moved his right hand to cradle my neck turning me back to face him. He slightly inclined my head upwards and leaned into my expose throat. He wrapped an arm around my waist and the other still rested on my neck. He pressed his lips to my throat and my heart peaked. He kissed it and then again in a different spot. I felt the tingling sensation that rolled through me and I moaned deeper. I lifted my chin more, pressing his lips harder against my throat. He slightly kissed it, but I found myself enjoying them so much. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him tighter to me. He then moved to the other side of me neck and I moaned again. He placed a trail of kisses up until he reached my cheek. I didn't even care or think about anything other than his lips on me. He then wrapped both arms around my waist and lifted me into his arms. He sat on the couch with me in his laps. He kissed my neck again and I sighed in contempt. I shifted slightly until I was straddling him with his lips still kissing my neck. I shivered as his found there way down my waist. He leaned up and wrapped my legs around his long muscular waist. I shivered again and leaned back to look at him. He looked at me and I found him in a dazed state just like me.
"This is not the way a brother acts toward his sister," Lust screamed in mind. I heard the others agree but I barely heard them. I grabbed him by the back of his neck and we slowly inched forward. I closed my eyes and waited for our lips to meet. All of a sudden the alarm started screaming causing me to jump. Cyborg protectively wrapped his arm around my waist without realizing it. We turned to gaze at each other again in a new state of mind. I finally realized what exactly was going on and my eyes widened. I saw his eyes in shock as well and we both just looked at each other.
"Raven," he started but we both heard Robin running towards the door. I got off of his lap quickly pulling up my hood. Cyborg watched me and sighed. He got up and headed to the computer at the same time Robin marched through the door.
"Who is it," Robin asked Cyborg. Cyborg sighed before coming to face us.
"Slade," he said. Robin growled and pulled out his communicator.
"Starfire, Beast Boy get home now. It's Slade; he's been spotted," Robin said while still skimming the message. I sighed as I sat down again on the couch. Cyborg sat beside me and I froze. I slowly relaxed, though, as Robin turned to face us.
"While we're so calmly waiting, are you two ok," he asked sitting on the coffee table in front of us. I raised an eyebrow and Cyborg just stared at him.
"What do you mean," I asked in my dead voice. Robin stared at me intently.
"Well, you both looked flushed red for one thing. Also, Cyborg is sitting a mere inch from you and you haven't smacked him yet," Robin said also raising an eyebrow.
"Well, Boy Blunder, if you haven't noticed, closeness doesn't really bother me anymore," I said in a sarcastic voice.
"Really," he asked. Robin came over to me and leaned down into my face. "So me being this close to you does not bother you," he whispered. I flinched and he got closer.
"No," I breathed. I started chanting in my head and I waited for him to leave but he didn't.
"Rob, back off," I heard Cyborg say. Robin laughed leaning up.
"See Raven, closeness does bother you except for Cyborg's," Robin said returning to his seat.
"Or maybe it's just your closeness and stinking breath that bothers me," I said rolling my eyes.
"Well, that was mean," Robin said pretending to pout. I smiled a small smile and relaxed in the couch.
"No, but seriously what happened when I left? Yall were staring at each other and hugging," he said motioning with his hands. Cyborg laughed nervously and I conjured up a force field in my mind.
"Truthfully, Robin, I don't know what happened," I said casting a look at Cyborg. We locked gazes and I could almost see what had just happened replaying in his eyes. With the twitch of a hand Cyborg grazed his little finger against mine, so Robin wouldn't see.
"What do you mean," Robin asked but before he completed the question, Starfire and Beast Boy bust through the door.
"What's going on," Beast Boy asked. He and Starfire sat beside me and I shot Robin a pleading look.
"Ok, here's what we're going to do," Robin started. He then explained everything we were going to do but I didn't notice. Cyborg had grabbed my hand as soon as their attention was elsewhere. He squeezed it every one in a while and I would give a small squeeze in return. As we neared the end of the briefing, I finally realized what was happening and I gasped out loud. Everyone turned to face me and I blushed. I quietly started walking towards the garage with everyone behind me. I was, and was falling deeper, in love with Cyborg; my brother, my friend.