Just another morning on Voyager, Captain Janeway is waking up from her usual two hour slumber. She sleepily strides over to her replicator.
"Coffee, black." She yawns.
She hold onto the coffee like it's her life line. She takes two sips and sits it down on her desk. She then lays out her uniform on her bed.
"Another day in the delta quadrant. It better be a normal one!" She says aloud.
She begins to feel something coming up her throat. She runs over to the toilet and vomits, her throat burning as she heaved.
"What the hell! This is the fifth time this week!" She exclaims as she lay over the toilet, wiping off her mouth.
She turns on the sonic shower. She begins to let her night gown fall off her shoulders and down her body. She steps in and lets the soft pulses hit her aching back. She steps out of the shower and strides over to her bed. She puts on her uniform and grabs a PADD. It had Tuvok's weekly security report on it. She didn't get a chance to read it last night because she was too busy making friends with her toilet! She exits her quarters and starts to walk toward the turbo lift. She passes many crewmen on the way, nodding and smiling at her. She of course smiles back. She gets to the turbo lift. The doors swish behind her as she enters. She spins around facing the doors.
"Bridge!" she tells the turbo lift.
As it starts to move she starts to feel dizzy. She begins to get pounding headaches in her temples.
"Halt turbo lift!" she says.
She puts her free hand on her head, messaging her right temple. The pain began to fade.
"Resume turbo lift!" She says as she places her hand on the bridge of her nose.
She enters the bridge, crewman start to face her.
"Captain on the bridge!" Harry announces
"As you were!" She says back. She begins to walk to the captain's chair. "Lieutenant Paris, what is our present course?"
"Our present course is to the alpha quadrant." He replies.
She nodes. Chakotay is sitting next to her looking at his console. All Kathryn can do is picture him sitting there. Those perfect muscles flexing as he moved his arm. She began to read the extremely boring security report. She all of a sudden drops it on the floor. Then a sharp pain hits her in the temple. She grabs her head. Chakotay bends down to grab it.
"Captain are you alright?" He whispers.
"I'm fine. I just have a headache." she whispers back, feeling bad that she lied to him. She isn't fine.
"We need to talk." He whispers.
"Okay…" She whispers raising her right eyebrow.
She gets up and begins to walk towards her ready room. Tuvok was standing at tactical with his eyebrow raised as he watched Chakotay follow her.
The door swishes closed behind Chakotay.
"What is it Commander? " She asks as she plops herself onto her sofa.
"You tell me!" He says back.
"Excuse me?" She replies confused.
"You haven't been looking very well. For the past few days you have been late to your shift. That worries me!" He says.
"I've only been a few minutes late. Is that a crime?" She asks.
"Kathryn, you're never late. If anything, you're early!" He says.
She starts to stand up but goes right back down. Chakotay runs over to her.
"Are you sure you don't need to go to sickbay?" He asks.
"I'm fine, you worry too much!" She replies.
He places his hand on her thigh. "Kathryn, please…"
She looks down at his hand and pushes it off. He looks at her, stunned.
"Chakotay…" she whispers, "We can't, we set parameters"
"We kind of broke those parameters four months ago!" He says with a smirk.
She begins to remember that beautiful night, a night she will never forget. Then she remembers.
"That was a mistake!" She replies, shaking her head,
"No, it wasn't, at least not to me!" He says gently.
Kathryn looks down at her lap, thinking. Chakotay gently lifts her chin up with his fingers. Tears start to stream down her face. Chakotay wipes them off. She grabs his hands and holds them in her lap. She had never cried in front of him before, but it felt good to release.
She looks at him, directly in the eyes.
"Chakotay, we can't. It would be completely unprofessional for the captain and her first officer to be involved!" She cries.
"Kathryn, we are thousands of light years away from Starfleet! Who cares if we're together? B'Elanna and Tom are together and they're two senior officers." He argues.
"B'Elanna's not the captain and Tom's not the first officer." She replies, wiping away the tears on her face.
"But Kathryn…" he grabs her hands and holds them tightly. He stares into her deep blue eyes. "I love you."
Tears begin to escape from her eyes. "Chakotay…" She pauses, looking down at their entangled hands. "I love you too, but we just can't. What will the crew think of it?" She says as she looks back into his eyes.
His eyes begin to tear up. Looking in disbelief that she cares about what the crew thinks! She had never seen him cry before. She thought it was kind of cute the way the tears fell of his chin.
"There are thousands of rumors swarming around this ship about us being together." He admits.
She sat there thinking and then remembered. "I'm sorry, but we can't. We made an agreement on New Earth." She wipes her face.
She then wipes the tears falling down Chakotay's face. He holds her hand to his face looking into her eyes. She then gets up, his hand still holding hers. She begins to walk towards the doors, when she feels Chakotay still holding on to her hand. She pulls away, again walking towards the doors.
"Wait!" Chakotay says before she gets to the door.
She stops and spins around to look at him.
"At least go to sickbay and see what's wrong." He asks, while wiping the remaining tears on his face off.
"Fine!" She says as she walks out of the ready room.
Chakotay follows her. The crewmen on the bridge turn around to look at them. Chakotay walks to his chair and sits down, fondling with the console. Kathryn walks to the turbo lift. Chakotay's eyes are a puffy and red, Tom turns around to look at them. He then turns to Harry. Harry shrugs his shoulders and returns to his console at Ops. Tom looks back at the view screen with a confused look on his face. Wondering what happened in that ready room.
"Commander, you have the bridge." She says as she enters the turbo lift. "Deck five!"
She begins to feel dizzy again. She pinches the bridge of her nose. She become light headed, and everything goes black.
This is my first Fan Fiction, so bare with me! Please leave reviews and inferences on what you think will happen next! I'm open to requests!