Story of My Life II
Chapter 1
Back Again

Disclaimer: J. K. Rowling owns, but I rule this fic!

I looked over the crowd, trying to spot him. It was difficult but I would eventually find him. I grinned to myself; it's hard to be away from the person you love, but I will be with him soon, I just had to find him first.

I walked past family after family. My own family wasn't here to see me off, but I didn't care, it was better that they weren't here to see me get reunited with Sirius.

I was just about to board the train when someone grabbed my arm. I turned around, surprised. "Kay!" I exclaimed. "What are you doing here?" I asked as I hugged him.

He chuckled. "Can I breathe, please?"

I immediately let go of him. "Sorry." I said sheepishly.

"No problem, Lyrae." He smiled. "I'm here to see you off, couldn't let you go without saying goodbye." This time it was he who hugged me. When he released me he looked some what sad. "Are you sure you want to go through with this?" He asked not exactly happy.

My own smile faded away and I got a business like look. "It's what's expected of me. I have to do this." I answered, but he knew what I actually felt.

"I know." He said and tried to smile.

The train began to move and Kay hugged me for the last time. "I'll be fine." I said as we parted. He didn't say another word but I knew all I had to know, he didn't have to say anything.

I closed the door and began to search for a compartment, dragging my trunk and Hedwig with me. Like always it was hard to find an empty compartment, but eventually I did. I opened the door and tried to heave my trunk in the luggage rack, but I found it impossible. I remembered last time, how I met the Marauders and how it changed my life.

Since I can be so clumsy I naturally lost my grip on the trunk and it fell on top of me. Crap! It really hurt.

I was just lying there, gasping in pain, when someone lifted the trunk off me. I sighed in relief when I felt the pressure ease. "Thank you." I exclaimed in gratitude; Merlin it was good to get it of me.

"You're welcome." A familiar voice replied.

I got up and grinned when I saw who it was. "Remus!" I said, hugging him tightly.

"Need some help with your trunk?" He chuckled with a grin on his face.

"Always." I grinned. Remus just smiled and threw my trunk in the rack. "Thanks." I said sheepishly.

"Always the girl in need." Someone from the doorway said arrogantly.

I turned around. "James!" I said as I threw myself at him.

He laughed. "I'm happy to see you too."

I held him tightly. "It's good to see you again." I said to him.

Someone behind James coughed. "Interrupting something?" He asked.

I felt my heart skip a beat and I became very nervous; I knew that voice very well. I looked slowly over James' shoulder. "Sirius!" I whispered, happy and nervous to see him. It had been so long since last time. He looked a bit older somehow and much more mature. His wavy, black hair was in a ponytail and his eyes shone with mystery and love like they always did.

"Lyrae." He said and smiled.

I shrieked and ran at him. Throwing myself at him, I kissed and hugged him. "I've missed you." I whispered in his ear.

"I've missed you too." He said, kissing my neck.

"All right, I think it's about time we left." James declared and exited with Remus, closing the door behind him.

As they left I began to feel a bit shy, after all, I hadn't seen him in months. I looked at Sirius; he was just staring at me with a grin on his face. "I've missed you." He said again.

I looked at my shoes and brushed some of my hair behind my ear. But my eyes couldn't stay away from his long. "I know." I said with a smile of my own.

Sirius took my hands and we sat down. He began to kiss them, trailing kisses up my arm to my neck. I enjoyed every minute of it; just being with him was enough. Suddenly he stopped. I looked at him, oblivious to why he stopped.

His smile was gone and he was serious. "What will happen now?" He asked in a low voice.

I knew what he meant and what he wanted me to answer, but the truth is that I couldn't give him what he wanted. "I don't know." I replied sadly.

"What about us?"

I shook my head and suddenly found my hands very interesting. "You know I can't." I whispered. Sirius didn't respond, but I knew he understood even though he didn't like it. "Sirius, I…" I began only to be interrupted.

The door to the compartment slid open to reveal Missy, Zandra and Lily, all of whom had a huge grin on their face.

"Lyrae!" Lily exclaimed, attacking me with full force.

"Lily." I greeted the excited girl.

"Let the girl breathe." Zandra said as she dragged Lily off and hugged me herself.

"It's good to see you again, Lyrae." Missy hugged me. "We've missed you." She said as she let go of me.

Sirius coughed to make his presence known. All of the girls turned to him and stared.

"Err…" Lily uttered intelligently.

"We'll…ehm" Missy said, not completely sure of what to say.

"Just go." Zandra finished and steered the other two out of the compartment.

I watched as they exited and closed the door before I looked at Sirius again. "So." I said.

"So." He repeated. "What are we going to do?" When I gave him no response he said, "About us?"

I broke eye-contact and began to fiddle with my hands again. "You know what will happen to us, Sirius. You just have to accept it." I said gently, not wanting to hurt his feelings. He didn't say anything. He stood up and opened the compartment door. "Sirius." I pleaded but in vain. I grabbed his arm trying to get him to stay but he pulled it out of my grasp and exited the room in a stormy mood. I didn't follow him, even though I maybe should have.

I sat there for myself for about two hours before Zandra, Missy and Lily entered. "There you are." Lily said; she didn't have a smile on her face.

"Where else?" I asked; my voice not exactly happy. I was in a bad mood ever since Sirius left.

"What happened?" Zandra inquired with a frown.

"Zandra!" Missy scolded her.

"What?" She shrugged.

"Don't be so insensitive." Missy whispered so I couldn't hear, but I heard. Zandra shrugged. Missy looked at me; she wanted to know just as bad as Zandra did.

"We're not… together anymore." I answered. Had we actually been together at all? I don't know. "Where is he?" I asked them.

"We don't know." Missy answered. "We were in the boys' compartment and we thought you and Sirius were in here alone."

"We decided to come and see how you were doing, and found you alone when we came in." Zandra explained.

"Well, it doesn't matter." I said as I rose from my seat. "I'm getting married soon and I can't fool around with other guys anyway." I tried to smile and pretend everything was all right, but my face betrayed me. I couldn't pretend not to care, I loved him.

Missy, Lily and Zandra all looked sad. "Ice cream?" Missy asked.

"Chocolate?" Lily offered.

"Both!" Zandra said. "But not before we arrive at Hogwarts." She concluded with a somewhat sad look.

The whole train ride went by in silence, it seemed like no one wanted to say a word like they were afraid to upset me or something. It was better this way, I didn't want to talk about it, share my feelings and things like that. They knew it and that's probably why they didn't speak… or even looked at me.

I looked outside the window and saw the familiar sight of Hogsmeade. I smiled; even though I was sad, the sight of Hogsmeade and the thought of Hogwarts made me in a better mood. Hogwarts was my home.

Like in a trance I walked with the girls, dreaming about the castle and what would happen this year, but soon my thoughts went to what I had to do and that I couldn't be with Sirius. My thoughts made me miserable and I became angry. Why did I become angry? This was what I had chosen; I chose to help my family. I shouldn't be angry, if anything I should only be sad.

Suddenly we were by the gates. We walked up to the castle, up the stairs and to our dormitory. It felt good to be back. I couldn't help but smile.

"I'll get the food, you stay here." Zandra said before she disappeared.

I followed her. "I'll come with you." I insisted. Zandra nodded and we walked in silence.

Down the stairs, through the halls with the staring portraits, and a sudden stop. I froze. Zandra looked from me to him and continued her walk to the kitchens without me.

"Hi." He said uncomfortably.

"Hi." I said back, just as uncomfortable as he was. I felt an urge to apologize. "I'm sorry." I blurted out. He didn't seem surprised or anything, he just stood there. "Well?" I asked, frowning. What was he waiting for?

"What?" He asked like he was bored.

"What?" I asked, confused.

"What do you want from me, huh?" He demanded in a high voice. "We're through, aren't we?" He shouted. "I don't know what you want from me. Sometimes it seems like you love me and all you want is to be with me, and suddenly you change and push me away! Make up your mind, because I can't take it anymore!" He exclaimed, angry. His eyes burned in to my own.

He scared me; I have never seen him so angry and sad at the same time. I didn't know if I should be angry at him or myself. "I…" I didn't know what to say. I made him this way, angry and sad. I had to end it; I couldn't let him suffer like this. "I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore."

His eyes changed fast. His burning look became sad and hurt, but changed back in to his piercing eyes fast; he wouldn't look or act vulnerable. It wasn't who Sirius Black was; Sirius Black was strong and didn't cry or mourn over something simple as a girl. Without another word he walked past me and was soon out of sight. That was the last I saw of the Sirius Black I knew and loved.

I stood where he left me, heartbroken. Now I didn't have anything good left, except for my friends.

At least I could concentrate on what I had to do now. But I wasn't happy. Would I ever be?

AN:

Hi!
So I finally posted the sequel to Story of My Life. Hope you didn't have to wait too long. What did you think? Should I go on with this story?

You want to know something funny? Story of My Life is kind of like my own life, except the magic and all. I'm like Lyrae and my crush is like Sirius. It's very confusing and I hate it! And everything happened after I'd written Story of My Life! Freaky!

Just so you know I won't be updating every week like I used to anymore, my life is quite busy and I have a lot to do. But I hope you'll stick with me.

-FayTheLioness-