So, this story is going to be reposted and completed as a story that will be updated every day with chapters that range from 500-1000+ words in length. On some days I will post more than once, and the first couple of chapters will be the chapters originally posted, but edited.

As some of you know, my husband was being experiencing heart problems that are going to require a heart transplant in the future. I have been MIA lately because Jensen, my husband, took a turn for the worse and it was very touch-and-go for a while. Luckily, things have gotten a bit better and Jensen is still on the list for a new heart.

Hopefully, this different style of story will be easier for me to keep up with during this difficult time. Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me through all of this- it means so much.

The song for this chapter is "Lonely September" by the Plain White T's.

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"I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did and you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did."

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BPOV

The early morning rain had come and gone, leaving the sky murky and grey. However, I didn't let the gloomy dampen my good mood. I climbed the stairs of Edward's apartment building two at a time, humming to myself under my breath as I went.

I didn't knock on the door when I finally reached it; I just let myself in like I have done. I frowned as I walked inside, wondering why it was so dark, especially because Edward had told me he would be home. I kicked off my shoes in the entryway, venturing further inside. "Edward?" I called, poking my head into the empty living room as I passed. "Hon, are you here?"

"I'm in here." His soft, melodic voice drifted to me from the dining room, and I followed it.

He was sitting in the dark in the dining room, his head in his hands. I hesitated in the doorway, instantly knowing that something must be seriously wrong. "What's…Edward, what's going on?" I couldn't hide the panic in my voice. Horrible scenario's began to race through my head, and I felt myself start to panic.

Edward didn't reply, but glanced up at me. His green eyes were dark and weary, and he was worrying me.

"You're scaring me," I whispered, wrapping my fingers around the doorframe. "Just tell me what's wrong…please."

His stare was blank, and he cleared his throat before speaking again. "Alice just called," he murmured, running one of his hands through his hair.

"Oh." I paused for a moment, trying to regain my calm. "And? What did she say?" I asked, and my stomach tightened as I felt a very bad feeling sneak up on me.

"Bella, she told me-" Edward cleared his throat again, shaking his head back and forth as if he couldn't believe what he was about to say. He took a deep breath, and then continued in a low, quiet voice. "She's pregnant. Alice is pregnant."

I felt like someone had just punched me in the stomach. Repeatedly.

Because Alice was…she was pregnant. His wife was pregnant- with his baby.

"I…I don't know what to do," Edward said shakily, still not looking at me. "I can't be with her, Bella. I don't love her anymore, I swear to god. I love you. I can't go back to her, even if she would take me."

"It's your baby." My own warbling voice betrayed the calm I was trying to instill. "And she's your wife. Your divorce isn't final, Edward. She's your wife and she's having your baby. Don't you think it would be better for the baby if you stayed with her?" I closed my eyes for a moment, willing myself not to start crying and make this situation worse. "You should be with her. With them." I started to turn and leave, but I felt like my heart was breaking. Edward was the first man I had every truly loved, and now I was losing him.

Edward stood up abruptly, grabbing me by the waist before I could take more than one step away from him. "No. Bella, I can't. I filed for divorce, it'll all be final in a few months…and my marriage to Alice has been over for a long time. You know that."

Yes. I knew that. Because it was my fault that their marriage was over. I knew what I was doing was wrong, I really did.

And I couldn't help but feel that this was karma. I had finally met an amazing man, but he was married to someone else. So I stole him away, and now his soon to be ex wife is expecting his baby.

How are we supposed to get through this?

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Okay, so this will update again today, and then again tomorrow, possibly more than once. Because the first 11 or so chapters are the ones that were already written, they will come faster than the new chapters.

Xoxo- Mel