Resurrection

Chapter 01

It was my first year at Hogwarts and I couldn't be more excited. For two years I've been listening to James's amazing stories about the school and his friends. He'd always tell mom about how much he loved the castle, of all his amazing grades and adventures – well, not all of them, pretty much just one or two. Once he told mom and dad about how he got revenge on Peeves after the ghost pranked him, Sirius, Remus and Peter. Yes, I ended up memorizing his friends' names, the names of the Marauders, that's how they called themselves. I discovered it after listening to a conversation between my brother and Sirius. They'd always keep on talking, never noticing I was around.

We were in front of the entrance to platform 93/4. James ran straight to the brick wall as soon as he saw it, our parents following him. I was left behind, as always. I took a deep breath as I walked one step forward "It can't hurt you, it's just an illusion, you won't get hurt" I whispered to myself, eyes closed. I opened my eyes slowly and started walking to the column, my steps getting faster and my breathing getting harder each second. When I was about to hit the wall I closed my eyes. Next thing I know, I'm standing in platform 93/4. A smile takes its place on my lips, the place was stunning. So many wizards together, kids and teenager so happy to finally see their friends after such a long time apart. I shake my head, pushing the thoughts away.

I look around, searching for my parents and after a few minutes with no sign of them I finally notice I won't get a goodbye. I lower my head trying hard not to cry. James has always been their favorite, I've always known that. Why am I even sad?! I knew this would happen!

I raise my head and walk to the train, no emotion showing. All cabins I walk by are full. I stopped at James' cabin. He's sitting there with other three boys, one of them is Sirius, the others might be the rest of the Marauders. I stare at him, he sees me but doesn't turn his head. He acts as if I'm not there. Tears threaten to start falling down but I push them away, I couldn't cry in front of him, I had to look strong.

That had been the most terrifying day of my life and my family had left me. I've always known I couldn't trust them, but before I still had hope it could change. That was the day I lost hope.

I kept walking through the train expecting to find an empty cabin. It didn't happen but I found a cabin with only one boy. He seemed to be my age and kind of a loner too, so I knew he wouldn't bother me. I walked in "You mind if I stay here? All the other cabins are full." I asked, a bit nervous, it was the first contact I've ever had with a human except for my family and Sirius – not that he ever directed a single word to me but he still knew who I was. They never said it out loud, but I could see it whenever they looked at me, the look of someone who's staring at a freak, an abomination. I've always been a weirdo to them, I never seemed to fit in the family.

The boy looked up seeming surprised. He didn't notice when I approached. "Hmm… sure… No problem… you can sit" he spoke looking uncomfortable. He seemed to be shy – like me – so I smiled thankfully and sat on the sit across from him.

"The name's Nicole, by the way" I smiled shyly.

"Regulus. Regulus Black." He smiled without showing his teeth.

I widened my eyes."Black?" I asked "You're from Sirius' family?" It couldn't be. I would hear Sirius complaining about how much he hated his family. How they oppressed him, how bad they treated him. But this boy seemed so nice. He couldn't be one of the monsters my brother's friend always talked about. He simply couldn't. I wanted to cry. Why do I always seem to attract the worse kind of people. My parents, my brother, and now Regulus.

"Yes" he hesitated in answering "How do you know my brother?" the boy asked suspiciously.

"You're his brother? I never knew he had a brother" Sirius never talked about his brother. Maybe that's because he wasn't bad. Or maybe, was it because Regulus was to Sirius what I was to James?

"I can assure you he has a brother. Now answer my question" he demanded fiercely.

"He's friends with my brother, James Potter" I told him and he frowned.

"Well, I never knew Potter had a sister" he raised an eyebrow at me playfully.

I smiled. Regulus didn't seem to be that bad, after all "Well, I can assure you he does have one". He laughed and so did I. We talked for the rest of the trip.

Through the rest of the years Regulus and I got even closer, he became my best friend, my support and in some way, he was my new family and I could say I represented the same to him.

We both got sorted into Slytherin, which made my parents and James even more distant from me. But it didn't matter, because I rarely saw them. During school time I'd see James once in a while and my parents wouldn't send me letters. During vacations I'd stay at the Black household with Regulus.

With time I got fond of his family. Walburga was more of a mother to me than Camila* has ever been. During my fourth year, Sirius and I exchanged home. He went to live with the Potters and I started living with the Blacks. I took his old room and I think he took mine, since I never walked into that old house again.

In Hogwarts I made friends, all of them Slytherins. They helped me to see how stupid I was for staying for such a long time with my family trying to change the way they saw me. They helped me to get better in some way. But not completely because I still cared for my family, even though I acted contrary wise.

I became a good actress. When I was next to James, I learned to pretend his words and his games didn't affect me, but they did. For some reason I couldn't let go of him – he was my brother after all. Yet, it didn't make any sense why I would always protect him regardless of anything.

The Marauders were always in trouble and I couldn't help myself so I'd clean up their messes every single time and they never came to know about that. I would do my best to help James and his friends not to get caught.

After sometime I'd wait by the Gryffindor door at night until they left to have one of their adventures, I'd follow them and clean up their mess after. That was how much I loved James and how sick and hopeful I was and still am.

I became a good spy and at my third year I became an animagus to be sure none of them got killed by the werewolf or in any other way. I grew tender to the rest of the Marauders even though they kind of hated me.

When James and Lily started dating it was hell, because she didn't hate me at that time so she was always trying to convince him to talk to me, but he started putting things into her head about both me and Severus. She has always been so innocent and she loved James, so I don't blame her for listening to him. She stopped talking to me, Severus and she grew apart. They were still friends and they would still talk to each other, but it wasn't the same thing anymore.

Severus and I became closer. We were already great friends but he was always spending time with Lily, but now she was dating James and she didn't have time for Severus anymore.

Now back to the Marauders, I was there when they created the map. Very useful I have to admit, except for the part that they'd see me following them around, so I simply cast a hiding spell on the map, as for them not to see me .

When I was on my fifth year, James, the Marauders, Lily, Severus, Lucius, Avery, Mulciber, Bellatrix and a lot of my Slytherin friends left. All the Gryffindors becoming aurors and the Slytherins joined Voldemort, most of them also got jobs to hide their true loyalty.

I stayed in school, with Regulus, Narcissa and a few other friends, being the two of them the most close to me. At the end of our school year Regulus and I became Death Eaters. To hide ourselves, Reg got a job in the government with his father and I became an auror. Narcissa got married to Lucius and as the socialite she is, never got a job.

That's all that's needs to be told.

For now.

*Camila is the name i gave to James and Nicole's mother since JK never mentioned it.

Hey guys! Hope you liked my story, i've had the idea a long time ago but got scared of posting it because for some reason i never finish any of my stories and i wanted to be sure i wasn't going to stop writing this one. Well, now i'm sure, but i may take some time to post because of school and other stuff. Also, English is not my first language, so i'd be grateful if you showed me any mistakes, i really want my writing to improve. Thank you so much for reading and i'll see you in the next chapter.