What Can You Lose
I'm a song fic writing fiend today. As always, I don't own any of the characters or the song. If you'd like to hear the song it's on the D ick Tracy Soundtrack called I'm Breathless from Madonna and written by Stephen Sondheim.
Rated PG, just because
Summary: Two years after the events in "The Price of Nobility" Faith and Bosco's relationship has grown, but will either of them be willing to take the next step?
"Bos? I'm not interrupting anything am I?" Faith asks as her voice trembles.
Bosco hears the tears in her voice and immediately comes alert. "What's wrong? Where are you?"
"I'm at the bar down the block from your place. I'm sorry. I probably woke you. Never mind â€" see you at work." Faith starts to hang up the phone.
"Faith wait. You want me to come down there or do you want to come up?"
"If you're sure you don't mind, I'll come up."
"I'll be waiting." Bosco hangs up the phone.
*********
Bosco opens the door when he hears Faith's footsteps outside his door. "What happened Faith? Are the kids ok?"
After the shooting in the hotel room two years ago, Fred left Faith and moved to New Jersey with the kids. Bosco stood by Faith's side through the whole ordeal â€" even when she didn't want him to. Slowly their relationship worked it's way back to what they had before Sergeant Cruz came along.
"No, it's not the kids â€" it's me. This is stupid. I'm sorry, Bos. You don't want to hear my problems." Faith gets up from the couch and starts toward the door.
Bosco places a hand on Faith's arm to stop her. "We're partners. If you can't tell me who can you tell?"
Faith looks into Bosco's eyes before nodding and returning to the couch. "It's two years today. My marriage ended two years ago and I'm still alone. I've been out on three dates in two years. What's wrong with me, Bos? Am I ugly or something? Does my breath stink? Why can't I find a guy to love me?"
What Can You Lose? Only the blues. Why keep concealing, Everything you're feeling? Say it to her. What can you lose?
"There's nothing wrong with you." You're beautiful Bosco thinks as he puts his arm around her. "It's the guys you're meeting. Most guys can't handle a strong woman." Like I could he adds silently.
"It all comes back to me being a cop doesn't it? I don't want to have to choose between my job and a family. Fred tried to make me do that and I was miserable. Why can't I find a guy whose manhood isn't threatened by my job? Why can't I find a guy who accepts me for who I am?" Like you do she thinks.
Maybe it shows. She's had clues, Which she chose to ignore. Maybe though she knows, And just wants to go on as before. As a friend nothin' more. So she closes the door.
Faith relaxes against Bosco's shoulder. She thinks about all the twists and turns her relationship with her partner has taken. Her marriage couldn't withstand the pressure, but her partnership stayed strong. "I don't know how to be alone. How did you do it all these years?"
Well if she does, Those are the dues. Once the words are spoken, Something may be broken. Still you love her. What can you lose?
"I've never been alone. I've always had you. You're not alone either â€" you'll always have me." Bosco puts his other arm around her and cradles her against his chest. I could love you, if you'd only let me.
But what if she knows? At least now you have part of her. What if she had to choose?
Faith takes a minute to consider what Bosco has said. He has always had me, even when I was married, but someday he'll marry one of the women that seem to be constantly catching his attention. Someday Bosco will be holding his wife the way he's holding me now. "How can you say that? One of these days, you're gonna have a wife and a family. She won't like me hangin' around any more than Fred did with you." Why can't it be me?
I don't want anyone but you Bosco's heart begs his mouth to say. "I wouldn't marry someone like that." Is what he manages to say. Fearful of what he'll say next, Bosco stands breaking their embrace. "Can I get you anything? A drink? Some ice cream? I got your favorite in there."
Feeling the loneliness return, Faith just shakes her head. "I'm pretty tired. I should head home. You need to get some sleep before work." Ask me to stay.
"You shouldn't be walking alone this time of night. Why don't you stay here? You can have my bed and I'll take the couch." Or I could just hold you all night if you want.
"Thanks, but I don't want to kick you out of your bed. I sleep on the couch at home anyway. I'll be fine here." Faith takes the blanket off the back of the couch and unfolds it.
"If you're sure that's what you want. I won't mind." Bosco watches as Faith gets comfortable on his couch. "If you need me, you know were to find me."
"Night, Bosco." I love you.
"Night, Faith." I love you.
Leave it alone. Hold it all in. Better a bone. Don't even begin. With so much to win, There's too much to lose.
I'm a song fic writing fiend today. As always, I don't own any of the characters or the song. If you'd like to hear the song it's on the D ick Tracy Soundtrack called I'm Breathless from Madonna and written by Stephen Sondheim.
Rated PG, just because
Summary: Two years after the events in "The Price of Nobility" Faith and Bosco's relationship has grown, but will either of them be willing to take the next step?
"Bos? I'm not interrupting anything am I?" Faith asks as her voice trembles.
Bosco hears the tears in her voice and immediately comes alert. "What's wrong? Where are you?"
"I'm at the bar down the block from your place. I'm sorry. I probably woke you. Never mind â€" see you at work." Faith starts to hang up the phone.
"Faith wait. You want me to come down there or do you want to come up?"
"If you're sure you don't mind, I'll come up."
"I'll be waiting." Bosco hangs up the phone.
*********
Bosco opens the door when he hears Faith's footsteps outside his door. "What happened Faith? Are the kids ok?"
After the shooting in the hotel room two years ago, Fred left Faith and moved to New Jersey with the kids. Bosco stood by Faith's side through the whole ordeal â€" even when she didn't want him to. Slowly their relationship worked it's way back to what they had before Sergeant Cruz came along.
"No, it's not the kids â€" it's me. This is stupid. I'm sorry, Bos. You don't want to hear my problems." Faith gets up from the couch and starts toward the door.
Bosco places a hand on Faith's arm to stop her. "We're partners. If you can't tell me who can you tell?"
Faith looks into Bosco's eyes before nodding and returning to the couch. "It's two years today. My marriage ended two years ago and I'm still alone. I've been out on three dates in two years. What's wrong with me, Bos? Am I ugly or something? Does my breath stink? Why can't I find a guy to love me?"
What Can You Lose? Only the blues. Why keep concealing, Everything you're feeling? Say it to her. What can you lose?
"There's nothing wrong with you." You're beautiful Bosco thinks as he puts his arm around her. "It's the guys you're meeting. Most guys can't handle a strong woman." Like I could he adds silently.
"It all comes back to me being a cop doesn't it? I don't want to have to choose between my job and a family. Fred tried to make me do that and I was miserable. Why can't I find a guy whose manhood isn't threatened by my job? Why can't I find a guy who accepts me for who I am?" Like you do she thinks.
Maybe it shows. She's had clues, Which she chose to ignore. Maybe though she knows, And just wants to go on as before. As a friend nothin' more. So she closes the door.
Faith relaxes against Bosco's shoulder. She thinks about all the twists and turns her relationship with her partner has taken. Her marriage couldn't withstand the pressure, but her partnership stayed strong. "I don't know how to be alone. How did you do it all these years?"
Well if she does, Those are the dues. Once the words are spoken, Something may be broken. Still you love her. What can you lose?
"I've never been alone. I've always had you. You're not alone either â€" you'll always have me." Bosco puts his other arm around her and cradles her against his chest. I could love you, if you'd only let me.
But what if she knows? At least now you have part of her. What if she had to choose?
Faith takes a minute to consider what Bosco has said. He has always had me, even when I was married, but someday he'll marry one of the women that seem to be constantly catching his attention. Someday Bosco will be holding his wife the way he's holding me now. "How can you say that? One of these days, you're gonna have a wife and a family. She won't like me hangin' around any more than Fred did with you." Why can't it be me?
I don't want anyone but you Bosco's heart begs his mouth to say. "I wouldn't marry someone like that." Is what he manages to say. Fearful of what he'll say next, Bosco stands breaking their embrace. "Can I get you anything? A drink? Some ice cream? I got your favorite in there."
Feeling the loneliness return, Faith just shakes her head. "I'm pretty tired. I should head home. You need to get some sleep before work." Ask me to stay.
"You shouldn't be walking alone this time of night. Why don't you stay here? You can have my bed and I'll take the couch." Or I could just hold you all night if you want.
"Thanks, but I don't want to kick you out of your bed. I sleep on the couch at home anyway. I'll be fine here." Faith takes the blanket off the back of the couch and unfolds it.
"If you're sure that's what you want. I won't mind." Bosco watches as Faith gets comfortable on his couch. "If you need me, you know were to find me."
"Night, Bosco." I love you.
"Night, Faith." I love you.
Leave it alone. Hold it all in. Better a bone. Don't even begin. With so much to win, There's too much to lose.