Here's somthing that just poped into my head and i just really needed to get it out. I hope you dont get too confused and you like it.
Song: Keep Holdin on(Avril Lavigne) !!!R&R please!!!
It wasnt my fault. Thats the only thought i try to convince to myself having it run over and over like an old broken record. They say 'life is hard, death is easy' and of course the people who have yet experience that cold spine-wripping...having every detail you missed and thought you should have done at that time in life forced from the back of your subconcious only be shoved right back into your mind with a force that literally pushes you to your knees to empty what ever sorry excuse for a meal that day...its the flashes of those horrible memories right before your own death -that does indeed happen; i have felt it before only too many to count and i know its too many to even give a shit at this point in time- but oh! that numbness afterwards when it sinks in all too late is something you will want -need- to hold onto if only to convince yourself its all true and your dieing. And we can never forget that this all happens within those short -it may seem forever but its far from it- seconds between the deathly blow and your last breath. Yes, its those moments in time when we try so hard not to and -but no, that would be way too easy if you could give in just like that- pity our own pathetic lives; the moment when the 'what ifs' start flooding our brains in a turrent of doubt -maybe its the belief of it thats so hard to take- and just the mere thought -not that there is too much room for it- that this all the end, the moment where we 'head to heavens gates and face our life sins.'
You're not alone Keep holdin' on So far away Keep holdin' on There's nothing you could say Hear me when I say Keep holdin' on Ahh, ahh
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
no I won't give in
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend ah ah
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
When I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...
La da da da, la da da da da
La da da da da da da da da
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Keep holdin' on
Ahh, ahh
Keep holdin' on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
No one ever said life was perfect -then again half the time no one said it wasnt either- and perhaps thats why i find myself sitting here. Perhaps that is why i find myself on the brink of insanity -because you have to be insane to some extent to sit in the snow outside in the dead of winter with no rightful source of extra warmth- and trying to convince myself -only for the millionth time- that IT WASNT MY FAULT! But like they say again 'life is hard, death is easy' and im the one who is still alive while i drown myself in self pity for not being there when...after all, we made that silent promise to protect those most important to us didnt we -and you proved that time and time over again when i tried to force myself beyond my limits to get that numbess i prayed as my release- and your always right there to knock some sense into me -physical or mental- and no matter how strong we were on the outside we always ended with those tears falling to the floor and holding eachother for support of ourselves and the other. Perhaps the sin i have commited with the lie is too grand to even let death be a proper release.
Thanks for reading, please remember to make a good review. For reference the one speaking is Sakura talking about her friendship with Ino. It just came to me; for some reason they were the only pair i could get to go with the story. I will be updateing A Second Chance for Happiness as soon as i can though im trying to make the next chap longer then the rest.
Thanks again,
TeenageCrisis