It was like any other day at the BAU. There hasn't been a case yet. So gar the team was just finishing up some paper work. Morgan was getting some coffee when he saw the sugar was tipped over. As he was putting it right side up he found the sugar was empty.

This was weird because he knew it was almost full yesterday. The only people he knew that took that much sugar was…

"Reid" Morgan said softly to himself. He was having nightmares again. Morgan just knew it. Reid was sitting at his desk with coffee in his hand and staring into space.

"Reid" Morgan said walking over. Reid didn't movie he didn't even look up. "Reid?" Morgan said again. Nothing. "Reid!"

"Huh? ….um sorry what?" Reid said snaping out of the daydream. Then took another sip of his coffee and looked at Morgan.

"You okay?" Morgan asked

"Why is everyone asking me that?" Reid asked back with a tone in his voice. "I'm fine."

"You sure?" Morgan asked again. "It's only been two months since it happened."

"Two months, three weeks, and four days." Reid replied before he could stop himself.

"What?" Morgan asked.

"It's been um…two months, three weeks, and um… four days since…" Reid didn't finish. He couldn't finish.

"Reid if—" Morgan was going to say but got cut off by Reid.

"Oh hey! Emily!" Reid said finding the first person to get Morgan off his back. Emily looked surprised that Reid was calling her over. But who could blame her? Reid had not been the most friendiest person here in the last few weeks.

"Hi…" Emily said. and well she didn't really like how Reid was treating her for the past couple of days.

"Oh! I'm going to ask Hotch about something…bye!" Reid said without an other word. Then ran off. They both knew he was lying.

"What's up with Reid?" Emily asked. She just wanted Reid to go back to the guy that was so nice to her before all this happened.The guy that told her stuff that she didn't care about but still didn't know. The guy that made her feel like a part of the team before anyone else did. Now she was lucky if he would talk to her.

"I don't know. I wish he would just talk to me." Morgan answered.

"Well good luck with that" Emily said with a mean tone in her voice.

"Emily you know he doesn't mean what he said to you about anything" Morgan told her knowing that she meant.

"I know. I just wish he'll tell me that." She said looking down.

"He will…." He said not knowing if it's true.

"Yeah…" that seen to be the end.

Reid really didn't need to see Hotch, and he knew that they knew that, but he couldn't stand being there with Morgan when he was talking about what happened. Reid still didn't want to even think about that had happened. Reid went back to his desk and started doing his paper work. Taking a pen from his bag and then he feel it.

The container that made his life hell

The reason he couldn't work the way he used too.

The drugs.

It was back. The pain to get the needle and use the drugs until there was no more left. To get away from everything just by useing it.

But he couldn't. Not here and NOT now. He just took the pen and started working. The worst part of word was the files. They took forever and Reid didn't want to stay long.

"Hey Reid." Said a voice. A tall blonde hair voice, and with food too.

"Hi JJ." Reid said without having to look up. "What time is it?"

"Oh about 2:00." She leaded out the food for him. "Thought you might be hungry." Reid didn't eat all day but the thought of food made him sick.

"Thanks JJ but I don't want any."

"Oh…ok." She stopped...Then "Hey Reid?"

"Hmmm?" He answered without looking up. Still working on the files

"…Why…why is there no more sugar left?" she asked

"Because someone used it up?"

"You?" she said. Reid couldn't believe it. Morgan told them about it. What a great friend Reid thought unkindly.

"What does this have to do with anything?"

"Well you seem upset...like you're having nightmares, you're just not yourself-" but JJ was cut off.

"Wait! Are…are you profiling me?" Reid asked. He couldn't believe any of this. "Is everyone looking at my ever move!?" He's voice rising.

"Reid we're just worried." JJ didn't like this. Reid never yelled at her before. They're friends. So what was going on?

"Well…I'm fine." Reid said "Okay?" Reid softly not wanted to yell anymore.

"Okay" JJ said stepping back. Reid couldn't deal with this right now. So he took off before he could hurt her feeling more.

JJ sighs. Then walked over to Morgan and Emily.

"Hey JJ" Emily said

"Hi. Do you know what's up with Reid?"

"I wish" she said and she meant it too.

"Me too"

Reid made his way to the coffee. He somehow drank all of his. The sugar wasn't working as well as he hoped. He needed more. Making his way to the coffee he saw that it was all out. He got the pot and trued on the water, to make some more. But then he saw that he used up all the sugar. He was begging to get very tired and he feel that he need the drugs again. If he didn't do something he was going to flip out.

So he walked back to his deck without the coffee. He wanted to go home but he couldn't leave so early. He told Gideon he would never do anything like that again. So he took his pen again and did his paper work. As he wrote he started getting very sleepy. His eyes closed for a moment then jerked back awake. 'No' he thought 'I have to get my work done' so he began writing again, about his case that happened sometime ago.

After a few moments he started to slowly close his eyes once again. But before he could stop himself he was fast asleep.