"Get up sweety you're twenty minutes late to school!" Says my bewildered Mother trying to make sense of what had happened to me last night. I couldn't even recall what had happened, it was all a blur. I lazily got out of bed while my mother shut my door like I always asked her too. It was 7:20 AM and my rekindled mind couldn't function properly, my heart was beating a wierd rythem I could hear in my ears, and my body wasn't reading the messages my mind was sending to do as I was told: get ready for school. In my state of delirium I couldn't find any possible way I could make it through the school day so as soon as my Mom left for work I quickly closed the door behind her too eagerly to recollect my thoughts.
So this is basically all I could remember:
1.) I went to school yesterday and everything was pretty average untill the pen incident which I realized later that night.
2.) As soon as I got home I layed on my bed and tried to forget the world, but I didn't fall asleep.
3.) I remember looking at my alarm clock and it displayed 3:15?...no...3:45 AM
I felt like I was missing something, a huge something I couldn't quite figure out what. So on that note I thought maybe going to school would remind me what exactly I was missing. It was a stupid thought, I mean school was the last place I wanted to be right now but it's the best thing I could think of. So in less then thirty minutes I was handed an unescused tardy slip and made my way to third period. I sat down in my seat and pulled on my earplugs, thats when I saw It. To the left of my desk was the new guy everybody was talking about, i'd overheard his name: Blake. And saw what he was writing when I had the flashback.
I had fallen asleep early that night, well early for me, it was probably around midnight and from what I can remember it was a dreamless night. Then I heard the tip-tap-tip-tap of something at my window, maybe it was raining? But something of my intuition told me otherwise. So I took my numb body to the window and looked out at the suprisingly stary night. Thats when I heard it- this soft melodic voice that felt like kisses to my ears.
It sang:
"...but don't you worry now, because I've been places I wish i'd never seen, heard things I regret but here I am still holding on, holding on with all I have left, all of this for you..."
I was stunned at how beautiful a voice could possibly sound, but even more suprised as I found myself wiping a tear from my face, because the lyrics spoke to me they touched me in a way I didn't know was humanly possible. So I listened on...
"...take it steady now, my heart is heavy in your arms. Drag my feet off the ground let my sighs of defeat know you've won. Just remember me, I never let you down..."
Suddenly I found myself on the floor, tears streaming down my face, a huge pain in my chest that can only be described as emptiness. In my mind the only thing that made sense is that I had officially lost it. I'd gone insane. But I hadn't, I just let everything out and in my mind that was the worst thing I could possibly do. Show weakness.
I then gave myself a few seconds to get a grip. Im a sixteen year old misunderstood girl, don't get me started with how cliche that may be. It's not like my best friends death and the person I was in love with is an easy thing to deal with. Either way, I finally gathered enough will to stand back up and looked out towards the dimly lit night to find a shadow of sorts holding a guitar down on the curb of the street. This had to be the person singing. I felt a need to talk to this person, because after hearing what they had sung I knew they could understand me. Like maybe just this once somebody might get it. So I swung my leg over the open ledge on my window about to sneak out through it when my mind finally came back in play to how ridiculously insane I actually was. Here I was at three in the morning about to sneak out my window to meet up with a mysterious guy whose song had brought me to tears.
Instead I snapped out of it, I climbed into bed, wiped the tears off my face, pulled the covers over my head, and started humming the song i'd just heard back to myself. It comforted me as I slowly slipped away into oblivion.
I slowly opened my eyes after having the flashback.
To find Blake writing down the lyrics I had heard last night.