Chapter 1

A/N: Hey Friends this is my first FanFiction so please feel free to review and let me know what you think! I love this show and love the characters even more and I just couldn't let them go. This fic is Jo's perspective on the last few episodes and what happens in between some of the scenes. Hope you enjoy!

Betrayal is perhaps the worst of emotions. At least Jo always thought so. Although Henry had told her next to nothing about his life he still means more to her then anyone in her life at the moment. And that is why his betrayal hurts so damn much.

There was always a nagging feeling that Henry wasn't telling her something. It became background noise when they started working together. Henry was a private person and didn't offer up much about his life, which sounded a lot like her so how could she blame him? How could she except him to let her in if she didn't let him in. The more time they spent together however the closer they became. Jo had begun to open herself up to Henry. He became her person the way Sean used to be. Whenever she needed someone she went to Henry and he was always there for her. But as she began to open herself up she noticed how he still wouldn't budge. With only a comment here or there concerning his life he never truly told her anything.

Henry woke up her feelings; Isaac was just there to point out to her that she had some. Although it wasn't long until she discovered her feelings weren't for the man pointing them out to her but for the one who woke them up in the first place. The first time she realised she had feelings for Henry was when she was so disappointed in Isaac's 'fool proof itinerary' for their trip to Paris. She not only wanted to get lost as Henry suggested, but she wanted to get lost with him.

In a rush of emotions and revelations she told Isaac that she couldn't do it any more. Almost cruel in a way, she asked him not to call her because she'd finally figured out the truth of who she wanted to be with and that it wasn't with him.

He had asked how she could come to this realisation so fast and dismiss their relationship so rapidly. He told her that he was invested and that Jo was more important to him than anyone in a very long time. He begged her to reconsider, telling her they could go at her pace; they didn't have to go to Paris. But Jo had her mind set, Isaac was not the one she wanted to be with and he never was. She held strong and said they weren't compatible. He asked why and the answer to Jo had been too simple.

"Because I want to get lost."

That was the last thing she said to Isaac just before climbing out of the car. On impulse and operating on the roller-coaster of emotions riding through her she went to see Henry. She had to tell him the way she felt. Is it possible he felt the same way? When she gets there it is harder to face him then she thought it would be. Now knowing her feelings for him she noticed the things that she had brushed off in their previous meetings. His warm chocolate eyes and is quirky smile alive on his face when he comes to get the door. She stumbles on her words as she enters bringing her bag with her. How does she tell him she has feelings for him without scaring him off?

She never gets those words that are eating at her out thought. Henry is asking for reassurance in what she's trying to say and she has a lot of trouble giving it to him. And before she can get to the punch line Abe comes in wanting to talk to Henry and all her courage is gone. She makes a quick excuse and an even quicker escape. What had she done? Not only had she jeopardized their friendship but their professional partnership.

She goes home and drinks. She pours herself a glass of scotch and adds a pinch of water without thinking about it. Henry had taught her that water would give her the most out of her drink. And before she can take a sip she laughs at how much of an impact he has made on her life. She thinks about him the way she always tried to stop herself from thinking. She remembers the way he acted and made jokes when she interrogated him on their first case, his overall passion when it came to cases, the way he would put himself in front of a bullet for her without even thinking, the way he was there and said exactly what she needed to hear when she needed to hear it most, and of course the maybe not-so-innocent touches they exchanged to comfort each other, the silent "I am here for you". These are things that Jo fell in love with even though she had no idea what was behind those tired troubled eyes and knowing looks throughout their time together.

Jo's laughter turned to tears when she thought of that being gone. What if they never got back to that place? What if what she said, or almost said, is what changes everything for them, and not in the way she'd hoped? Jo downs the scotch and wipes away her tears embarrassed even though she is the only one around. She can't believe she's crying over a loss that hasn't even happened yet.

"Pull yourself together Martinez" She says to herself and with a deep breath she does. She decides to not take it as a rejection until it is an actual rejection at which point she could deal with the repercussions. In other words she would have to deal with her broken heart.