Hi you'll this is my first attempt at slash so I am stumbling forward. And yes there will be lemons but not in this chapter I am building the story up to that and I hope that you will be a bit patient with me here. And let me just put in a small warning too, Paul will be in this chapter and he isn't a nice person.

Disclaimer: I don´t own, I just want to put things right.

"In reality they all lived in a kind of hieroglyphic world, where the real thing was never said or done or even thought.."(the Age of Innocence 1920)

Chapter one" The Age of Innocence"

"Edward! Jacob is here" my mother's voice interrupts my fifth reread of Wuthering Heights.

I get up from my stretch out position on the bed and head downstairs. Jacob is waiting on the porch he´s wearing shorts and a white tee shirt his black hair combed a bit slicker than usual and a big smile plastered all over his face.

"Hey Jake what are you doing here?" I ask, not remembering us making any plans today.

"It´s the first day of summer break and I am saving you from sitting all day in your room reading some silly romance novel, we are heading down to the beach and scooping for girls in their bikinis."

Jake is jumping up and down from excitement while playfully punching me on the arm. I shake my head and punch him back.

"I do not read romance novels, and you should try reading a book once in while it might be useful to use that tinny brain of yours for once," I reply feeling myself blush for some bizarre reason.

Wuthering Heights is not a romance novel it´s a classic, not that Jake would understand. I have known Jake since we got into fight over a swing at the playground, I was six and he was four. We both wanted the swing and ended up in a toga war over the damn thing. After pulling on it for a while Jake let it go and shoved me down in the sand. We ended up wrestling and Jake had been surprisingly strong even thou he had been younger than me. We both finally gave up and Jake had asked me if I wanted to check out this really awesome climbing three he had seen and the swing had soon been forgotten. Since that day Jacob Black has been my best friend, even thou he sometimes annoys the shit out of me.

"Ha ha Cullen, get your trunks and a towel and slap some sunscreen on your pale face because we are heading down to La Push beach, I have talked to my cousin Paul and he will meet us over there with some of his friends, it will be great," Jacob is already heading into my house and up the stairs to my room.

I follow him, when Jake gets an idea in his head it is hard to stop him. I can't help but smile even thou I really don't feel overly eager to spend the day with Jake´s cousin, I have only met him once but he seemed like a prick to me. Jacob is half Native American and has tons of relatives over at the La Push reservation, he is down there allot in the summers but I rarely come with him. Actually we rarely hang out much in the summertime, he devotes that time to his other best friend or as I call her his secret crush. Not that it is that much of a secret as he goes on and on about it. Yes Jake spends his summers with police chiefs Swan´s daughter Bella. She lives with her mother in Arizona but spends her summers with her dad in Forks. So every summer Jake runs after Bella and gives in to her every fluke. The only one oblivious to his apparent infatuation with her is Bella herself, and how she can be so delusional is beyond me. That girl must be blind, deaf and stupid not to notice. Not that I know her very well but I secretly hold a bit of grudge against her for steeling Jake away every summer.

Jake is pulling out drawers and tosses my green trunks at me. I catch them and put on my shades and go into the bathroom to find a towel.

"So what brings me the honor of your company today? I would have thought that you would hang out over at Swan´s residence like some love sick puppy," I say while following Jake´s advice and put some sunscreen on my nose.

"I am not a lovesick puppy for your information, and if you must know Bella´s plane got delayed so she isn't coming until tomorrow," Jakes tries to hide his disappointment but it's no use, he is such a love sick puppy and he knows it.

"So Jake are you going to tell Bella how you feel this summer? This might me your last chance you know, Bella is going off to college in the fall and who knows she might not spend the summers in Forks anymore, not to mention the tons of college boys she will have to pick from," I say and plop down on the bed where Jake is sitting eyeing thru Wuthering Heights.

"Not a romance novel huh?" he raises his eyebrows at me trying to change the subject.

I grab the book from him and give him stern look. Jake sighs and says:

"Okay you are right, but what if she never sees me as more than a friend? What if I ruin everything with some silly declaration of love? O God Eddie you have to help me, you read all these romance novels, you have to know how to win a girl over," Jake pouts and looks at me as if I hold the answer to his problem.

Why in the world would Jake think that I hold the answers in this matter? He knows that I have never had a girlfriend of my own. What would I know about charming girls? Sure there have been some girls who have shown interest in me but I have never shown any back. I wonder if Jake has ever wondered why. I know that I did for quite a while. That was until I realized that I wasn't interested in those girls simply because they were girls. Yes that's right I play for the other team or whatever term you like to use. I fall in love with boys, not that I have ever really been in love if you don´t count that pathetic crush on Mike Newton, and I don´t. That was just too pathetic to be filed in the in love section. But even thou I haven't really been in love I am one hundredth percent sure that guys not girls does it for me. Let´s just say that Jessica Stanley shoving her tits in my face at the graduation party did nothing for me but when Tyler Crowley bent over to get something on the floor I had to adjust myself a couple of times because something was straining against the fabric of my jeans. I know that I should tell someone, come out or whatever but I am just too fucking chicken to do it. I am waiting until I start college in the fall. Then I will go off the Seattle and it will be a fresh start. I won't know anyone and they won't know me so I can start with an open deck so to say. And with some distance between me and my parents I just might grow the balls to tell them. Deep down I know that they will be okay with it, they are very liberal and yes they might be shocked but they will come around. Telling Jake is a complete different thing I have no idea how he will take it. I am afraid that he will feel betrayed like I have lied to him all along or something. And I am afraid that he will think that I am attracted to him, which is not the case, not that Jake isn't attractive because he really is. Jake isn't just attractive he is hot as hell with his muscular body, beautiful smile and dark features but I just don´t have a thing for him, he is like a brother to me. He is my best friend and I am scared to death that he won't accept me being gay. So I haven't told him or anyone else and now I am sitting here with Jake expecting me to help out in the ever ongoing drama that is him and Bella.

"Jake man I don´t know but like girls seem to want what they can´t have, you are always so fucking available to Bella. Maybe if you like ignored her a bit, you know seemed a bit mysterious and shit. Say stuff like you that wanna hang out with her but it would be best if you didn't. And then go off not telling were you were or make up some totally ridiculous excuse like that family issues had come up," I say realizing that I might actually have a point here. Jake is always so fucking nice and lovely to Bella and what has it gotten him? Not a fucking thing if you ask me.

"I don´t know Eddie why would anyone want someone who acts like a total asshole? If you like somebody you will do nice stuff for them and make them feel great right?" Jacob looks at me innocently.

"Yes duh! But girls like think differently or something they like someone a bit mysterious and maybe Bella will finally see how fucking good you have been to her if you stop being that for a while and let her chase after you for a change, and quite frankly if she doesn't like screw her, I mean don't screw her, or she isn't worth to be screwed," I shut my rabble up because Jacob is hitting me with a pillow over the head.

" Okay I get it Edward let´s hit the beach before we give Paul a chance to stab at us for being late and make innuendos about what we have been up to," Jake says and gets off my bed.

Did I mention that Paul is a total douche?

***E***

The beach isn't exactly crowded but there are small gatherings of people scatted over the area, some has even dared to get into the water. I hope to avoid that myself it's a fairly warm day but I bet that the water is freezing. Jacob is beside me scanning the area after Paul, I secretly hope that he won't find him but of course he does. He waves his arm and drags me with him over to Paul and two other boys. Paul gets up and gives Jake a slap on the shoulder.

"What took you so fucking long? Had to put your makeup on?" Paul speaks in an annoyingly loud voice.

"Yes I had to make myself pretty for you Paul," Jake answers and slaps Paul back.

"Well Paul you already know but this is Embry and Quill, "Jake makes a gesture at the two boys who gets up from their towels to introduce themselves" and guys this is my friend Edward"

We shake hands and I study Paul's two friends. One of them has long black hair hanging down his back the other one has short spiky hair; they both have nice smiles and tanned bodies. I am going to look paler than snow in this crowd. All of a sudden I feel very self-conscious, all of the boys have fairly muscular bodies and I can´t help but to wish that I would have taken Jake up on his offer to work out together more often.

"Nice to meet you Edward, it´s nice to put a face to the name, Jake is always talking about his best friend in Forks," Quill says and gives me smile that makes my heart beat a little faster. At least Paul's friends seem allot nicer than him.

Jake and I spread out our towels and sits down. Jacob pulls his tee shirt off and lays down basking in the sun.

"Fuck Jake, have you put on even more muscles since last I saw you? Are you on fucking steroids or something?" Paul asks in a volume that I am sure reached even the people situated at the other end of the beach.

"No I just work out allot that's all, you should try it" Jake answers not even bothering to look up at Paul.

"If somebody works out as much as you it's because he has some major frustration issues, and besides I like to work out one muscle in particular and it is not my bicep if you know what I mean," a wicked grin plays on Paul´s lips and he wiggles his eyebrows at me for some bizarre reason. I just stair down in my lap pretending I didn't notice.

"You are disgusting Paul, lets hit the water instead of sitting here listening to your wack off stories," Embry says and gets up.

Paul stands up too and starts to sprint down the beach.

"The last one in the water is a fag," he yells as he crashes into the waves.

Jacob yawns and stands up.

"Are you coming Edward?" he says and tilts his head to the water front.

I pull my tee shirt off and silently wonder if Jacob was so fast to get up because of what Paul yelled.

"Ye okay," I say and follow Jacob who has stated to jog down to the water. I walk slowly dreading to get into the cold ocean. The sand tickles my feet as I walk and the sun is in my eyes. O why didn't I just stay at home reading a book instead? Jake is already in the water wrestling Paul who tries to splash water at Embry.

"Wait up," a voice from behind calls and I stop and Quill walks up beside me.

"Fuck the water is probably freezing," Quill says and laughs.

"Yes I bet it is, but Paul seems to enjoy himself," I say and point at the water line where Paul now is chasing after a two girls who shrieks as he splashes water at them.

"Paul´s an asshole," Quill says and shakes his head.

"Why are you friends with him then?" I ask.

"He is like brother to me, we have grown up together and shit, but someday I swear I am going to punch that mother fucker in the face," Quill says and smiles making me wonder if he is serious or not.

We reach the water front and I put my feet in, o God it´s cold. It's like a million needles hitting the souls of your feet. Both I and Quill stands like that for a while no one of us moving.

"After you," Quill says makes a gesture with his arm and winks at me.

Nobody has ever winked at me before. All of a sudden I am feeling very eager to get into the water. I start to plunge in and end up basically throwing myself into the water causing it to splash everywhere. It's so cold I am afraid I might get a cramp or something. But I feel relived at the same time because the chilly water helps me out with the growing problem in my trunks, and all because of a fucking wink. I get a fucking boner because a guy winks at me, gees I feel like I am participating in an afterschool special or something. I am almost expecting to hear a voiceover coming in explaining that getting an erection is perfectly normal and can happen when you least expect it. Yes if you are thirteen and on a school trip or something not eighteen and supposedly over that face of your life.

***E***

"You have to come with me otherwise I won't be able to keep my cool and this brilliant plan of yours will be over before it even started," Jacobs voice is pleading on the other end of the line.

I rub my forehead and try to think of an excuse but can't come up with one. Going over to Bella´s isn't exactly what I had planned for the day. I was hoping on spending this second day of summer break with my books, considering that I had no time to do so yesterday. After my dip in the freezing ocean the rest of the day had gone off without any major events. We had sunbathed and Jacob and the others had talked about childhood memories. I had remained silent for the most part. After a couple of hours Jake´s stomach had started to make funny noises and we decided to head back to Forks to catch something to eat. We had said goodbye to the boys and Quill had gone on about how nice it had been to meet me about three times until Paul had said that maybe we should exchange phone numbers if we had had such a nice time, emphasizing the word nice. I had of course blushed like a fucking girl and even Jacob seemed a bit uneasy. I had contemplated to myself that this would be a good time for Quill to throw that punch at Paul´s face, but he did of course not do that. Thank God he didn't, that would have made the situation even more awkward. When Jake and I had gotten back to Forks we had had lunch together and then Jake had headed home and I had locked myself in my room and relieved myself from some of the day's tension. Okay I jacked-off to the images of a fucking wink that's how pathetic I am. This might be even worse than the Mike Newton crush, nah but it sure takes second place.

"Fine Jake, but I can´t spend the entire day with the two of you okay? I have other obligations," I say and feel content with making it clear that I can't act like some kind of chaperon to Jacob and Bella all day.

"Yes okay, I will pick you up in ten minutes and we will go over to Bella´s," Jake hangs up and I go downstairs to wait for him.

***E***

Bella´s house is a white two stories building with a small yard. Jake turns the engine off and gets out of the car, I follow him and we stand beside each other as he rings the doorbell. I watch Jacob from the corner of my eye, he is trying to play it cool but I see that he is filled with excitement. The door swings open after a couple of seconds and we are faced with a brown-haired girl with an even fairer complexion than me. Her face breaks into a smile and she throws her arms around Jake who swings her around.

"Where have you been Luca?" Jakes says before putting Bella back on the ground.

"In Arizona duh!" Bella answers before running her hand thru her hair and laughs.

"Hi Bella," I say wondering if she even has noticed that I am there.

"Hi hum Edward right?"

"Yes that's right," I say trying to keep my tone light. I have meet Bella several of times she should at least remember my name.

"Yes Edward wanted to come with me to meet you," Jacob says.

Yes and it never rains in Forks. I smile trying not to burst out laughing at Jakes ridiculous statement. Bella just gives me a weird look and gesture to us to follow her in to the house. The hallway is cramped and I feel a bit ridiculous standing there with Jake and Bella who immediately starts an animated conversation about what they have been up to since the last time they spoke. Bella keeps laughing and Jake doesn't seem to be able to stop smiling. He has obviously totally forgotten about that plan to play it a bit cool. And I am by all means the third wheel in this group. I move uneasy from one foot to another.

"O I am totally rude, there is someone I want you to meet Jake, yes and you too Edward of course," Bella says not sounding too convincing about the last part.

Bella starts so move towards the living room and Jake and I follow her. I take in my surroundings, the small room is clearly manly a big TV in the center and a brown couch and a chair. I look around the room one more time and my heart nearly stops, there by the windows stands the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. Rays if light plays in his blond curly hair making it look like a Gloria, his blue eyes meet mine and his perfect lips form a playful smile. He´s wearing a blue tee shirt, black knee length shorts and Nike sneakers a black tattoo peeks out on his left well defined bicep. He moves toward us and I hear myself swallow really loud. God it must have sounded like I just swallowed down an entire apple.

"This is Jasper my half-brother, he is going to spend the summer here in Forks because he is transferring to Seattle in the fall and is staying with me and Charlie while he´s looking for a place to live over there," Bella says as the Greek god, I mean Jasper, comes closer.

He reaches out his hand to me.

"Jasper Whitlock," his voice has a southern drawl to it and as I reach out to take his hand a thousand butterflies releases in my stomach and I swear sparks fucking fly around the room. O God I´m fucked, actually I´m not but I very much would like to be.

So what about that folks? Tell me what you think! All the chapters will be named after classic books because Edward does love the classics, the next chapter will be called "Alice's Adventures in Wonderland" who do you think we will meet there? Hope to hear from you and until next time dream of Edward and Jasper I know I will. Merry Christmas by the way!