AN: I know it's been a while, and my apologies to readers of Unbreakable, but it has been put on indefinite hiatus. Same goes for Struck, but I'll try to work on that as soon as I can.
In the mean time, a rather emo drabble... Opening and closing lyrics from Pretend, by Secondhand Serenade
It seems all of these words couldn't be further from the truth
How did I get here? What did I do?
Your eyes, telling me lies
And making me find myself
I know I wasn't good to you. But I noticed it to late. You'd left me. Before I'd realized even, before I knew your true feelings.
How long has your smile been fake, your touch on my cheek cold and I didn't notice? I admit I don't deserve you; I never did. But how long were you absent from me while your body remained in my arms? Your mind was elsewhere, free. You wanted to escape from this misery my greedy heart imposed upon to you. I stole the blessings that you gave me, plucked them from you one by one and left you in ruin. I took what you offered—and you offered it all—took it from you with no regard to what you need, no regard to how you feel.
Selfish. Pathetic. I needed your attention, so I stole your love. The feelings that you shared with me, I claimed them for myself and ripped them from you to lock away in my own lonely heart. My treasures, I thought, but they were never mine.
Love given freely was soon transformed into a forced passion, cold kisses that never reached beyond my lips and I was always hungry for more without realizing why.
Your heart isn't in it, hasn't been for much longer than I've noticed. You want me gone; you want to go.
Too late I realized. Too late.
A distant farewell, encouraging words with the underlying hope that after tonight, you'd be free. You helped because that's who you are, loyal to a fault, but after this I know you intended to go a separate way. Farewell, with gun in hand, smoke curling over your face in a familiar musty screen, eyes hidden behind a wall of plastic orange, and you smiled but it never reached your soul.
Free of me, you raced away, you led them far from me. To protect me, and to escape.
Well, you're free now.
I forced my love on you, unwanted as it was. It was always unwanted, wasn't it? It always is. God wanted me to be alone, it seems.
Misguided feelings lead to ruin, and there you lie crumpled, your destiny crushed beneath mine. Never free, the only thing I ever brought was tears and death.
Escape from me and flee into the red. I remember you in crimson and the smile on your face, relieved.
You don't love me anymore. Heaven greets you with open arms.
I crash and burn and know the only being ever wanting me forever is the Devil.
"I'm so sorry...
Matt..."
Put down your world
Just for one night
Pick me again