This is an Icarly oneshot, please enjoy. I do not own Icarly

Lost memories

Lisa Benson, 15 year old, daughter of Jacob Benson, granddaughter of Samantha Benson, and Fredward Benson. Recently Lisa was taken to Ohio by her parents to see her grandparents she loved deeply. Noone could replace her grandfather, he was fun, creative, and all around great, but he wasn't all that open to people, especially in recent years. Her grandmother was her role model, her best friend, and a teacher. A tear rolled down Lisa's cheek remembering about her grandmothers condition. Her grandmother, the toughest woman she ever knew, had alzheimers. It was sad while she slowly lost her memories, Lisa felt as if the memories were but dreams, all the wonderful time with her grandmother was just a lie, or a mirage, a wish to be real in an unrealistic world.

Lisa slowly walked into the Center where her grandmother was staying, her parents on her left, and her grandfather on her left. Her grandfather visited grandmother everyday, because she is all he has left. when they entered the room Lisa saw the confussion, yet love in her grandmothers eyes...all she could see were her eyes.

(Lisa's POV)

I looked into the eyes and watched her...watched her helplessly look at me trying to remember me... I barely hear anything my parents, or grandpa say to grandma, but all I know is that I need to say something.

"hey grandma, it's me, Lisa, your granddaughter." I say hoping to help her remember, she just smiles, but the confussed look in her eye stays in place. The tears in my eyes fought with me to be let out. I could barely keep myself in control. "I miss you grandma, you mean the world to me, I just wish you were back in my life again." I begin to cry, and words begin to form from deep inside of me. I open my mouth and let the words spill out.

You were my role model

my hope joy and light

all I want is to cuddle

but I cant stand this sight

You made me feel normal

you made me feel complete

I didn't feel like a preachers daughter

I felt only like me

watching you sit, with little understanding

hurts my heart, my mind and soul

I cant help but searching

for the part to fill my black hole

you made me feel normal

you made me feel complete

I didn't feel like a preachers daughter

I felt only like me

you gave me hope to be who I am

Ill always love you till my ending days

love you my grandma, sam

your words will shine in this world of grays

you made me feel normal

you made me feel complete

I didn't feel like a preachers daughter

I felt only like me

Those memories we shared I felt were lost

but I cant help but think of your stories

in my mind, you were the one I sought

because these are not lost memories

you made me feel normal

you made me feel complete

I didn't feel like a preachers daughter

I can feel you love me

I finished singing the lyrics of the song, or poem, or whatever it was that came to my head, and I collapsed on the floor crying. I just cried and cried and cried. wishing I could reverse time and be with the my grandma one more time.

I just sat there crying, until I felt a hand rest on my head. I looked up I saw grandma sam petting me and smiling. I continued to cry, but smiled, knowing, just knowing it was all real, and she still loved me, even if she doesn't remember my name.

This is NOT a story for reviews, this is just to read, any one shot I write under this category is just for reading, for support of those who go through such things, or anything I write about..if you want me to write a story specifically for you situation, just PM me with your situation, and I will gladly write it into a story, no details just a basic description and I will be more than willing to write something for you. any of you.