I couldn't believe that I was here. I was in Noah Puckerman's and I knew exactly what he wanted from me. I knew that I didn't want to give it to him, but I was feeling insecure. I didn't want to feel the way that I felt. I knew that my parents could never find out about it. Maybe my real mom would have been okay with it. I was 10 years old when I found out the truth. I had always wondered why Frannie and I had dark hair and my mom and dad had blonde hair. The truth was that my mom died giving birth to me and Judy was my stepmom, but I loved her like she was my actual mother.
"Can I get you something to drink?" He asked. "I have wine coolers."
"Sure." I declared. I had never drank before and I really wanted to try it. I loved my parents, but I hated the sheltered life that they had given me. I saw how Frannie looked at her wedding. She tried to look happy, but I was able to see through her façade. I was pretty sure that the only reason that she did was because she didn't want to be cut off. Her husband did seem like he was okay as far as I knew.
After two wine coolers, I was beginning to feel a bit dizzy. I was a bit of a lightweight because I needed to be in good shape for cheerleading. I liked being a cheerleader, but I didn't like the coach. It was a necessarily evil (stress on the evil) to being popular. I may not have been the most popular girl in school, but I was definitely the most popular girl in the senior class, but that would change if anyone knew my big secret.
"So do you want to go to my room?" He asked. I nodded. I knew that I wasn't thinking straight. Okay, I was thinking straight, which was not how I thought most of the time. I still probably wouldn't do it. I started to take my clothes off and got on his bed in my underwear.
"We shouldn't do this." I declared. "I'm the president of the celibacy club. I took an oath."
"So did Brittany and Santana but I fucked them." He pointed out. Brittany and Santana were my friends. Both of them were pretty loose. They were kind of sluts, willing to give it up to any popular guy. Puck was the most popular of the popular. He was the quarterback, even though the football team was terrible.
"Yeah, but I'm dating your best friend." I stated. His best friend was not another football player. In fact, it was even another guy. His best friend was a girl named Lucy Hudson and he was the only one who knew about it. The secret that I didn't want people to know was that I was attracted to girls. I was very careful to be sure that my stares didn't linger in the locker room.
"You shouldn't think about it so much." He declared. "Have another wine cooler."
I knew that I probably shouldn't but I did anyway because it tasted good. Once I was done and after I had gone to the bathroom, I returned to his room. My parents probably expected me to be home soon.
I decided that I was tired and let him do all of the work. I felt terrible as it was happening. I thought it was supposed to feel good when done "the proper way", but it didn't. I fell straight asleep when it was done.
It was an hour later when I woke up and I realized what I had done. I quickly got dressed in my uniform and headed out the door. At that time, I turned my phone off silent and noticed that I had five missed calls: four from Lucy and one from my parents. I decided to call my parents, saying that I had went to Santana's house, but fell asleep because I was tired from practice. I knew that she would back me up on it. I was going to say Brittany, but Brittany was kind of dumb and she could have blabbed that I wasn't there.
What I did was terrible and I knew that I couldn't let anyone find out about it. I especially couldn't let Lucy know that I had betrayed her. She would never forgive me. I didn't even remember any of it. I could get Puck not to tell anybody. Hopefully, everything would stay buried.
So I wasn't planning on posting this for a while, but I really wanted to submit something today and it was too late to start anything else. I'm not sure when the next chapter will be. This idea had been in my head for a while. The cover is an edited version of Cassadee in her cheerleading uniform from high school. Please don't forget to review.