Tainted Memories...
Chapter One by Star-chan
Disclaimer: Saiyuki belongs to Kazuya Minekura-sensei!! And since its already hers it can't be mine...ne?? ...sigh...
Extra Short Summary: The sequel to Loving You!! Reveals what happened after Loving You (obviously). Goku have been waiting for Konzen, but he never came, then he meets up with Sanzo, and doesn't know that Sanzo and Konzen are the same people!! Will Goku ever get back his sun??
Author's Note: This chapter is dedicated to Kimie-chan!!! Since she helped me with the title!!! Arigato!! Actually I wanted to make this a one-shot fic, but couldn't wait to post this out!! And since there's still a long way to go I'm posting it now!! But this story will only be around two chapters or so cause I'm afraid I might not be able to finish it up before school starts if its any longer!! And Goku is slightly more mature in this fic... cause after all that happened to him... he should be... ne?? Although not intentional... Enjoy!!
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" Wait for me... Aishiteru... "
I had waited for you... for more than five hundred years... but you never did came. You didn't come back and find me. At times, the memory of your face had almost vanished from my mind... but as I remembered those words you once told me, those beautiful violet eyes and silky blonde hair would automatically make its way back into my mind. I wanted to continue waiting for you, but somehow, it was released. And it took me far away from there. But know that although I won't be waiting there... I'll be waiting for you forever, in my heart... zutto...
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Blood was splattered everywhere, all over the place, on my hands and on my clothes. And no matter how much time I spent trying to get rid of it, it was still there. I had tried to stop myself from killing people, but I couldn't control myself. Something else was living in my body, and I had no control over it. And it was causing havoc.
I didn't want to do it. I didn't want to kill them, for all those people had died for no reason. No reason at all! And it was me who killed them. Me, as I couldn't control myself and to let that thing appear, it was my fault that they had died. Their agonizing screams could be heard echoing in my ears as my claws slashed into their bodies. All pleas to be spared were ignored by the other me. As much as I wanted to prevent it all, I couldn't stop it. And it was simply painful, knowing what was happening... and being so helpless...
My body then appeared next to the nearest person and I sunk my claws in his body, my other half enjoying the expression on the victim's face and was already impatient for more of it. And the only thing I could do was watch... watch as the victim's face twisted in pain, the horrified look in his eyes, and I heard his last words.
" Onegaii... don't kill my loved ones... Please...... pleas... "
And his body slowly fell to the floor, to join the other dead bodies on the ground... to be another one of my victims. Just another unidentified body after mixing with all the blood of the others. I silently promised him in my heart that I would try not to hurt his loved ones... and before he died, I saw his lips slowly curl up into a small smile. It was as if he saw me looking at him, and he trusted me to protect his loved ones. As his body touched the floor, two small cute girls that were around six and nine years old came running out to the man's body. With tears flowing down both of their faces and with their cracked voice, calling out for their otou-chan that was already dead. Killed by me.
My body moved towards them, and I knew what it was going to do... and I closed my eyes and just hoped, hoped that my other half could just spare the two little girls life, that I could just stop myself this time. And as I waited for their screams to come, it didn't. I slowly opened my eyes, and the scene in front of me was simply wonderful, the two girls were still there and alive. I had managed to fulfill the man's wishes. Even more, it meant that I had managed to stop my other half.
But then my body moved again, and I was never prepared for what that came next... my body quickly vanished and reappeared next to the younger girl, sunk in its claws and pulled out the girls heart. I could hear the girl beside me gasp as blood spilled all over her and myself. More streams of tears fell down her already bloodshot eyes as she screamed out for her sister. She looked at me hatefully, full of anger and disgust. Then, she started screaming at me, calling me a murderer... over and over again.
Even as my other half laughed at what the girl said, I knew I was guilty and I accepted her words... knowing that I was a murderer, a murderer who killed without mercy and could even laugh into my victim's face. Although my body was already itching to attack the girl, I held my other half back. Determined not to give in this time, as I still wanted to fulfill my promise... even though only half of it. And I forced my body to turn around and leave the almost empty village. Taking all the girl's words with me...
" You heartless murderer!!!!! I hate you!!! "
Those words were already engraved in my head as I walked away, without taking a single glance at the horrendous site I had created... for a heartless murderer I was.
I slowly walked through the deserted forest, my other half not active then for no victims were in sight. My stomach was already growling in need of food and my other half immediately reacted. I appeared next to a small bird and grabbed it with my sharp claws. It was stuck in my grip, with no way out... and the next moment, it was already dead. Even a small little bird could not live its life.
Then, my eyes came upon a small figure from the side of my eyes. The figure was walking alone, about fifty meters away from me. My body automatically moved nearer to the figure, having seen a potential victim. At lighting speed I reached the figure, and I hid on top of a tree behind him. Waiting for the right moment to attack him, and I got a look at him. He had stunning blonde hair and was wearing a beige-colored outfit. He also had some kind of writings adorning his shoulders, and that was all I could see being in my position.
He reached a tree and started turning around to rest below the tree. As he turned around, my other half knew it was the perfect time to attack the man and my body leaped through the air towards the man. But, as I reached the man, a gun was aimed at my face... and, at that moment... violet eyes met gold. I was mesmerized in the man's violet eyes that looked so utterly familiar and unlike me, he took the opportunity to attack me. The papers adorning his shoulders flew around me and trapped me in the middle. Then I lost conscious, with those violet eyes still trapped in my head.
I woke up to find something that was gripping onto my head tightly, and it was very uncomfortable. I tried to push it off when suddenly I heard a voice.
" You wouldn't want to get it off... "
" ...Doushite???... By the way, who are you?? What have you done with me? "
" Ch... I bring you all the way here and I don't even get a thanks... You ungrateful brat... I just gave you a youkai limiter, you dumb saru! Running around attacking all the people in sight... Do you know how much damage you could have caused??"
" Sou ka... arigato. "
" Hn... '
" ................................. "
He didn't say anything else and just sat there, by the table with his specs at the bridge of his nose while reading the newspaper he had took out from his sleeves. He looked intently into the paper and I took the chance to study the man in detail. He had his robes half down, revealing smooth black leather underneath and was sitting with his legs crossed.
" He used to do the same thing you did, in the same style... " I suddenly blurted out, ignoring his weird stare.
" He would take his papers and look through them, then he would slowly plant his stamp carefully... and everything would be perfect. Then I would run in the room, with flowers in my hands... and call out his name... " I continued, not knowing where all these words came from, but it all felt familiar.
" He would sometimes scold me, but he still smiled in the end... I know he did. "
There was an uncanny silence in the room, and then, he slowly took off the spectacles and finally asked me.
" Who was he? "
"............... I don't know... I don't remember..."
~~ End of Chapter One ~~
Author's Note: Minna!! How was it??? Please drop a review or comment at star_foreva88@hotmail.com !! Tell me how was it!!! Onegaii!! Hope you still enjoyed it though, no matter how bad it was!!
Chris: Arigato for reviewing Loving You!!!!!!! This is more!!! Hope you're still reading this though!!
Gokugurl: Wai!!!!! Hontou ni arigato!!!! Yup this chapter is dedicated to you!!! Arigato for helping me with the title!! Some more you call me to update one!!! And have reviewed all my stories although it seriously sucked...*sob sob* Arigato!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you decide a new title remember to tell me too!!
Minna!!! Arigato for reading my fic(that is if anyone reads it)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bows head*
Chapter One by Star-chan
Disclaimer: Saiyuki belongs to Kazuya Minekura-sensei!! And since its already hers it can't be mine...ne?? ...sigh...
Extra Short Summary: The sequel to Loving You!! Reveals what happened after Loving You (obviously). Goku have been waiting for Konzen, but he never came, then he meets up with Sanzo, and doesn't know that Sanzo and Konzen are the same people!! Will Goku ever get back his sun??
Author's Note: This chapter is dedicated to Kimie-chan!!! Since she helped me with the title!!! Arigato!! Actually I wanted to make this a one-shot fic, but couldn't wait to post this out!! And since there's still a long way to go I'm posting it now!! But this story will only be around two chapters or so cause I'm afraid I might not be able to finish it up before school starts if its any longer!! And Goku is slightly more mature in this fic... cause after all that happened to him... he should be... ne?? Although not intentional... Enjoy!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
" Wait for me... Aishiteru... "
I had waited for you... for more than five hundred years... but you never did came. You didn't come back and find me. At times, the memory of your face had almost vanished from my mind... but as I remembered those words you once told me, those beautiful violet eyes and silky blonde hair would automatically make its way back into my mind. I wanted to continue waiting for you, but somehow, it was released. And it took me far away from there. But know that although I won't be waiting there... I'll be waiting for you forever, in my heart... zutto...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Blood was splattered everywhere, all over the place, on my hands and on my clothes. And no matter how much time I spent trying to get rid of it, it was still there. I had tried to stop myself from killing people, but I couldn't control myself. Something else was living in my body, and I had no control over it. And it was causing havoc.
I didn't want to do it. I didn't want to kill them, for all those people had died for no reason. No reason at all! And it was me who killed them. Me, as I couldn't control myself and to let that thing appear, it was my fault that they had died. Their agonizing screams could be heard echoing in my ears as my claws slashed into their bodies. All pleas to be spared were ignored by the other me. As much as I wanted to prevent it all, I couldn't stop it. And it was simply painful, knowing what was happening... and being so helpless...
My body then appeared next to the nearest person and I sunk my claws in his body, my other half enjoying the expression on the victim's face and was already impatient for more of it. And the only thing I could do was watch... watch as the victim's face twisted in pain, the horrified look in his eyes, and I heard his last words.
" Onegaii... don't kill my loved ones... Please...... pleas... "
And his body slowly fell to the floor, to join the other dead bodies on the ground... to be another one of my victims. Just another unidentified body after mixing with all the blood of the others. I silently promised him in my heart that I would try not to hurt his loved ones... and before he died, I saw his lips slowly curl up into a small smile. It was as if he saw me looking at him, and he trusted me to protect his loved ones. As his body touched the floor, two small cute girls that were around six and nine years old came running out to the man's body. With tears flowing down both of their faces and with their cracked voice, calling out for their otou-chan that was already dead. Killed by me.
My body moved towards them, and I knew what it was going to do... and I closed my eyes and just hoped, hoped that my other half could just spare the two little girls life, that I could just stop myself this time. And as I waited for their screams to come, it didn't. I slowly opened my eyes, and the scene in front of me was simply wonderful, the two girls were still there and alive. I had managed to fulfill the man's wishes. Even more, it meant that I had managed to stop my other half.
But then my body moved again, and I was never prepared for what that came next... my body quickly vanished and reappeared next to the younger girl, sunk in its claws and pulled out the girls heart. I could hear the girl beside me gasp as blood spilled all over her and myself. More streams of tears fell down her already bloodshot eyes as she screamed out for her sister. She looked at me hatefully, full of anger and disgust. Then, she started screaming at me, calling me a murderer... over and over again.
Even as my other half laughed at what the girl said, I knew I was guilty and I accepted her words... knowing that I was a murderer, a murderer who killed without mercy and could even laugh into my victim's face. Although my body was already itching to attack the girl, I held my other half back. Determined not to give in this time, as I still wanted to fulfill my promise... even though only half of it. And I forced my body to turn around and leave the almost empty village. Taking all the girl's words with me...
" You heartless murderer!!!!! I hate you!!! "
Those words were already engraved in my head as I walked away, without taking a single glance at the horrendous site I had created... for a heartless murderer I was.
I slowly walked through the deserted forest, my other half not active then for no victims were in sight. My stomach was already growling in need of food and my other half immediately reacted. I appeared next to a small bird and grabbed it with my sharp claws. It was stuck in my grip, with no way out... and the next moment, it was already dead. Even a small little bird could not live its life.
Then, my eyes came upon a small figure from the side of my eyes. The figure was walking alone, about fifty meters away from me. My body automatically moved nearer to the figure, having seen a potential victim. At lighting speed I reached the figure, and I hid on top of a tree behind him. Waiting for the right moment to attack him, and I got a look at him. He had stunning blonde hair and was wearing a beige-colored outfit. He also had some kind of writings adorning his shoulders, and that was all I could see being in my position.
He reached a tree and started turning around to rest below the tree. As he turned around, my other half knew it was the perfect time to attack the man and my body leaped through the air towards the man. But, as I reached the man, a gun was aimed at my face... and, at that moment... violet eyes met gold. I was mesmerized in the man's violet eyes that looked so utterly familiar and unlike me, he took the opportunity to attack me. The papers adorning his shoulders flew around me and trapped me in the middle. Then I lost conscious, with those violet eyes still trapped in my head.
I woke up to find something that was gripping onto my head tightly, and it was very uncomfortable. I tried to push it off when suddenly I heard a voice.
" You wouldn't want to get it off... "
" ...Doushite???... By the way, who are you?? What have you done with me? "
" Ch... I bring you all the way here and I don't even get a thanks... You ungrateful brat... I just gave you a youkai limiter, you dumb saru! Running around attacking all the people in sight... Do you know how much damage you could have caused??"
" Sou ka... arigato. "
" Hn... '
" ................................. "
He didn't say anything else and just sat there, by the table with his specs at the bridge of his nose while reading the newspaper he had took out from his sleeves. He looked intently into the paper and I took the chance to study the man in detail. He had his robes half down, revealing smooth black leather underneath and was sitting with his legs crossed.
" He used to do the same thing you did, in the same style... " I suddenly blurted out, ignoring his weird stare.
" He would take his papers and look through them, then he would slowly plant his stamp carefully... and everything would be perfect. Then I would run in the room, with flowers in my hands... and call out his name... " I continued, not knowing where all these words came from, but it all felt familiar.
" He would sometimes scold me, but he still smiled in the end... I know he did. "
There was an uncanny silence in the room, and then, he slowly took off the spectacles and finally asked me.
" Who was he? "
"............... I don't know... I don't remember..."
~~ End of Chapter One ~~
Author's Note: Minna!! How was it??? Please drop a review or comment at star_foreva88@hotmail.com !! Tell me how was it!!! Onegaii!! Hope you still enjoyed it though, no matter how bad it was!!
Chris: Arigato for reviewing Loving You!!!!!!! This is more!!! Hope you're still reading this though!!
Gokugurl: Wai!!!!! Hontou ni arigato!!!! Yup this chapter is dedicated to you!!! Arigato for helping me with the title!! Some more you call me to update one!!! And have reviewed all my stories although it seriously sucked...*sob sob* Arigato!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you decide a new title remember to tell me too!!
Minna!!! Arigato for reading my fic(that is if anyone reads it)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bows head*