Disclaimer. I don't own any of the characters so don't sue.

These are a collection of thoughts from the characters points of view stemming from all of the ff7 characters im just expressing what I think they might have thought based on what I know so if ya don't like don't read.

This first one is from clouds pov mostly because hes a very predictable character and im not use to writing in first person. Lemme know what ya think peeps.

Lost cause:

My name is cloud strife. Not exactly the best name in the world but at least ive got one. But I realy don't even know why ive got it. I don't deserve it. Hell I didn't do a thing to earn it. I just sat back and watched. Some other guy did all the work.

I don't deserve anything. I haven't done anything. I watched when nibelhiem burned and simply lied down to die. Not that I did. I watched as zack died in my stead. Not that he needed to. The world was better off in his hands. And when aerith died all I could do was cry. Some hero huh.

I think they've confused me for someone else. Im not a hero im just a country boy looking to make the best of things. What little there is to make the best of. Any way, I used to be a nice guy. I use to be able to hold my own when it came to career choices and keeping bread on the table. Now all I do is fight. Tifa and the kids depend on me and all I do is let them down. Denzel needs a father not a nobody. Tifa needs a man not a kid. And me……….. I just ………. I don't know anymore.

I use to think that maybe I wanted forgiveness. That I was the reason for zack and aeriths deaths. I finally figured out that it wasn't my fault, but I still don't feel like im who im suppose to be. They want a hero. But im just an average guy with a bit of a twist. Well I was. Im not so sure anymore.

Tifa caught me the other night. She sais I need help. I guess I do. I don't eat or sleep simply because I just don't feel the need to. Food doesn't fill the hollow and sleep only brings a prologue to more hurt. I don't want to watch them suffer for me. So I try to stay to myself.

I lock my door and sit in my room until tifa or denzel pick the lock and sneak in to spy on me. I don't blame them. I would worry about the freak next door too if I wasn't him. Still the fact remains. I only exist because I don't want to offend them by turning away their kindness. They don't deserve the insult. So I eat and sleep and 'breath' for appearances. Mostly because there's nothing else. I don't want to keep fighting a pointless battle. It just seems asinine. Like im only here because ive been put here.

I wish that just once they would step off, and let me be on my way. Its hard to be here knowing im the reason they hurt. Who would want to hurt. I love them too much to keep this up but if I leave…….. would it be worse.