chapter 1: transformation.
"Isablella swan" he chuckled almost teasingly but in a furios tone,
but then you saw the anger the fire enter his eyes, "what in the world
is wrong with you? why did you think that you could come and see
jacob!huh?why in the world would he even be here after what you have
done to him. what YOU have brought upon him.!"now he was screaming at
me. thank goodness alice cant see werewolves i thought to myself or
edward would be down here chewing billy out. "BELLA did you even hear
what i just said?!" billy screamed in my face."yes billy i heard you!"
i said back calmly practically exasperated. "but i do not understand
what you are trying to say? all i want to do is see jacob before i
make the biggest choice of my life!" i told him. "i thought you had
already MADE youre biggest choice whether or not you had or hadnt
asked Jacob? because he obviously thought that you had already made up
youre damn mind.!" billy is still screaming is he ever going to stop?
i asked myself in my head not quite understanding billly's meaning on
where in the world jacob is. i mean that is all i want to know! i dont
want to listen to any of his other subjects that he concludes to
whining on. Holy crow is it seriously THAT hard. "billy" i said his
name slowly and annunciated all the syllables on the rest of my words
"where..is...jacob?"
"HES GONE GOD DAMNIT AND ITS ALL YOURE FAULT!" he was ferocious now as
it was finally sinking in. "So youre saying he left?well when did he
say he would be back? where did he go billy? i could use some answers
right about now!" i was going into panic mode. no i thought jacob
couldnt leave because of me. and then i was knocked out. i didn't know
what hit me. but it was soft but powerful, and warm. my mind was
swimming laps and laps. never stopping, trying to resurface. i knew i
wasnt drowning. because i could still float on my back.haha i thought
to myself floating on my back thats silly. concentrate bella i told
myself then waking up. it felt like i had been out for hours but it
turns out that it had only been seconds. it is silly what time can
seem to do you. when i awoke. i found to see that i was slumped againt
the white wall in billy front room the wall which i must have hit my
head on somehow which had caused me to blank out.i then turnes my
head, my eyes searching for billy then i saw him out of the side of my
peripheal vision. to find billy in his wheelchair. in corner,
shaking...uncontrolably. the sad thing was i knew what was going on i
was just so suprised i didnt move a muscle frozen in place. besides
the fact that i didnt think that it was at all possible for someone so
old to transform. even after all of the rules that had been stated by
jacob. this, now this was something different something new something
that i doubted had EVER happened. and to say so myself i was quite
afraid. and unsure what to do. then my mind reacted finally finding
the emotion of self preservation that i had pushed to the back of my
brain for a very long time. I half way stood up, but then froze. My
knees bent, The ground was shaking like an earthquake. It was
impossible to walk or even move but still I tried to process the
thought through my mind that I wanted to live and ran well mostly
tumbled and fell and rolled, well all the words pertaining some
similarity to those of. To the door. I opened it and practically face
planted into the swirl of concrete steps. I ran. Like I never had
before, down the dirt road. all the way to first beach. The rocks
only made it worse. Like a big grey wave, Then to look out at the
ocean, ugh. It only made me dizzy. Then I slowed out of breath not
feeling any rumbling besides my stomach that was at partial feature of
exploding. I was so friggin hungry then the running. And when I say
explode I mean upchuck. You would think that out of all the strange
things ive seen you would imply that my stomach would be able to hold
something down..but, it just doesn't manage.thats when I noticed the
log. The old white washed up log, me and Jacobs stump. The whole
thought made my tear ducts start up again. I needed him now badly. I
walked over to the stump feeling a new hole in my chest a new wound.
Nothing near as bad as Edward. Nothing near as bad as dying. But still
injured. To the point. Of tears and crying. His pain stricken face of
that day I left him to save Edward. Kept striking clearly like a match
in my mind. My self imploded sunshine. That hated me. I sat down on
it. And felt something poke me in the but. "what the hell?" I said
aloud. I got up to look at what I must have been sitting on. It was a
thick piece of white lined notebook paper that had been folded many
times. On the front in scraggly writing it said, "bells" and on the
back in the same writing it said "from Jacob. There was a spot where
the ink from the pen ad smeared from a drop of water, most likely the
rain. Other then that a little scruffed up. I wondered how long it had
been waiting for me. That's when I heard a low rumble shiver across
the ground that made the grey wave like rocks in front of me do a
little dance.