Chapter 1
I couldn't help but surrender that one blissful tear to the exposed world while I hugged my father. All I wanted to do was show Charlie just how much his words meant to me. He had been attacked by a vampire, a new born to be specific, he knew just as much about the supernatural world as I did now, he knew about Jake, and he was still happy for me, he still loved Jacob as his own son, he understood why I couldn't tell him,he knew it was for good reason, why it pained me to see jacob walk away, he knew everything and we had no secrets. Yes, all I could do was surrender that one little tear. I wanted to scream and shout and tell him everything but for now I was ok with hugging him just to show how much I loved him. Then Charlie spoke. " Now,Now bells don't get all mushy on me, I understand and I love you so...run along now, I refuse to cry anymore, I've done enough of that in the last week to run a river dry." He smiled. So did I, I was completely blissed out. Now what consumed my mind was the thought of my Jacob up on my bed waiting,I almost jumped out of my skin in anticipation. I looked at Charlie one last time " Thank you dad, I love you."
Now I was taking the stairs two at time to get to him. I was so excited I attempted to take three at once, and failed horribly, I went straight into the top step, it didn't stop me though I got right back up wanting so desperately to be in his arms, to feel his breath on me, to breath in the woodsy fresh dewy aroma of his body. I opened the door and closed it behind me carefully before rushing to my bed and on to his beautifully sculpted body. He giggled and wrapped his arms around me. I opened my mouth but he beat me. "I heard and Bella...there are no words for how happy I am with this news. I love you so much and even though you may not think so, I really do need your fathers blessing, you know just to feel a little more..."- He stopped , pondering, thinking of the write word and then it came to him- "worthy of you." At that I just had to let out a quiet laugh. My dear Jacob had it all wrong. He looked at me questionably. "Jake, I'm laughing because it's absolutely absurd." He still didn't get the meanings of my words I had to explain which was crazy, it was obvious. I sat up, he pulled me closer to him and wrapped his warm muscles around my waist. I continued "Jacob I am not worthy of you,I don't deserve any of you and I certainly am not worthy of your unconditional love." I bowed my head in shame. I was a monster and I knew I was, I knew I was in love with jake, I loved him more than I could ever love anyone else, I would have to try to love anyone else, it was completely absorb to even think that I could even love someone else even a third of how much I loved my Jake,even Edward, who had no hold on me anymore. I knew that I would want to spend the rest of my life with Jacob , I had loved him all along, and not known it. But what about all the hurt I had put him threw in the process of realizing that Jacob was my soul mate? Had I no shame in hurting him? And here I sat allowing him to comfort me with his warm rubbing hands. He was too good.
Suddenly I was moving from sitting on my bed next to Jacob, through the air and then I was laying down on his chest, I almost forgot how quick Jacob was after he phased. It took me by surprise but I didn't care, I loved being in his arms, it was home."Isabella Marie Swan, you are my life, my best friend, and my very reason for me to continue my life. If you were not worthy of me I would not be here, you are overly worthy of me. I'm still trying to keep up with your "worthiness"-He chuckled.- "I love you and I am very Happy, actually I'm not happy at all...I'm ECSTATIC." His words did soothe me but I couldn't let him think that I was more worthy, I opened my mouth to protest but suddenly my lips were very busy. Jakes lips were pressed tight against my own, I felt feelings flying trough me. I could feel every ounce of passion leaking out of him, I could feel the excitement and love just as if he had spoken the words aloud. Now all I wanted to do was get closer to him. He pulled me against his fire hot body and yet this still wasn't close enough. My fingers tangled into his short black hair and it was magic when we opened our mouths to breath as his breath entered my mouth, I could smell the thick aroma of something around the lines of fresh dew yet so much sweeter. I couldn't last long, I pulled myself onto him and all I could think about was the way his lips moved across my lips onto my chin and my neck, the way his arms were tight against my back, and moving. I pulled back feeling a very overwhelming need to tell this man something right now. "I love you Jacob Black."