Nina Jensen, a disgrace against all things good, a cheater, a liar, an over thinker, a socially awkward emotional wreck, a crier, a quiet girl who sits at the back of class and cries over her past, her regrets and her guilt. Nina Jensen, a lover without her love.
When Sammy left, I had nothing to live for but my tarnished reputation; she was everything to me, she wasn't just my girlfriend, just my lover she was my world, my reason for living, my best friend. Don't ask me why I did what I did, I could never give you an answer, but in the end I did it and that's why she's gone. So I can't blame her for my heartbreak, I can only blame myself.
It's not like I can confide my pain in anyone; Sam was the only person who i trusted enough to tell my secrets and even if i had other friends they weren't mine. they were ours and they all jumped out of that ship and wouldn't talk to me after how much I hurt Sam. I can't talk to my parents; they don't know i'm gay, they don't know I love Sam, they don't know I was her girlfriend, they don't know i'm heart broken. they just know what they see: I'm sad, I'm torn, I'm Angry at the world.
That's why when my dad told me we were moving to Ohio it didn't really phase me; there was no fixing things with Sam, she wouldn't ever forgive me, so what was the point in making other peoples lives harder, it sure as hell wouldn't make mine any easier.
That brings us here, me sitting in my room, crying as the Adam Levine's clear and high voice leaves lyrical imprints on my mind, helping me in an attempt to get over myself and pick up the pieces of the heart that I broke. By now I am accustomed to the pain, it travels along with me as I venture along this road pulling myself to and from emotional stability with the music.
Tears are far from unattainable; they come rapidly, randomly and unexpectedly and flow for eternities, stoping and starting, constantly changing pace.
Small and unnoticed vibrations fill my ears with music and my eyes bubble with tears but I hold them back; I will not cry on my first day at a new school, 'I. Will. Not.'
HOPED YOU LIKE DOESNT HAVE A PLOT I"LL SEE HOW IT GOES, ALSO I KNOW I HAVENT UPTADED "SHE'S MY SISTER" IN A WHILE BUT I'VE BEEN BUSY IN MELBOURNE AND I'LL BE BACK HOME SOON, I LOVE YOU ALL STICK WITH THE STORY, GLEE WILL FOLLOW AND EMERSE WILDLY IN COMING CHAPTERS.