Hi everyone! I don't own skins (wish I did). I wanted to start a fanfic about Naomily because I've read some great ones. So this is my first attempt. People who have read my stories before this. It was I'd Die for you but it's new and even better than before! Hope you like it and my story is always in Naomi's point of view.
No one ever said it was going to be easy
I have loved the last year I have my gang and my girl and nothing could be better. That's until I went and ruined it. It's so hard to believe how much can change in a year. This time last year, things were completely different. I was completely different .The future is unwritten, so write it well that's all I can say so this is my story of my life.
I'm on a cold roof top in God knows what fucking time in the morning. Its like I'm on top of the whole world but in the wind I can hear Sophia's voice haunting me saying "Sometimes its better being alone, that way, no one can't hurt you" I don't want to be alone. I fucked up big time as I watched Emily read through Sophia's diary. I've ruined everything. I hurt my Emily, my forever.
All I could say was "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry".
Emily's brown eyes connected with my own blue ones, the hurt, and the pain.
"You ruined it, you don't want anyone to care" Emily yelled at me.
She stud up on the ledge looking down. I thought to my self what have I done. Emily looked like she was going to jump and all I could do was stand there and watch. My whole body froze I wanted to do something but I couldn't, I was stuck.
"You'd be dead in a second, every things so fragile then you realise that. We were special! Naomi… the worst thing about being lied to… is knowing you weren't the truth" Emily sobs.
Emily turns and hops off the ledge and starts walking to the exit. But she goes past me and looks me in the eyes. Her eyes used to be full of love now they looked dead. I wanted to grab her hand and tell her I was so sorry and that she was my everything but I was still frozen.
"I was scared" I only could say that.
"You're always scared, you broke my heart" Emily admitted. But then I heard her say so softly "The more you care the more you have to lose".
I watched her walking away. The one person I loved was walking out my life. Losing the most important person in my life is slowly killing me.
"EMILY" I screamed with all my heart and soul.
She just left out the doors.
I just sat there on the fucking roof and cried. I needed her more than she knew.
After about 10 minutes I decided to go home to see if Emily was there to see if I could make this all right again, I know it's never going to be easy but it's going to be worth it I said to myself, great I'm talking to my self, I'm a nutter. I got home and raided the entire house to see if there were any post-it notes.
I found one and put I'll do anything; I went outside and put it on the front door so when Emily came back she would see it. Hopefully if she came back. I sat there thinking to my self I should have never have slept with Sophia, never broken Emily's heart. I bet Katie will come round to the house and kill me, for what I did I deserved to be dead. Fuck I need to barricade the door.
I decided to go look out the window for Emily or Katie but desperately hoping it would be Emily. Then suddenly I saw a red headed girl walking down the street with tier stained eyes; I knew it was Emily.
Emily approached the house and saw the note. Her lips smiled. God I love her smile. Then she looked up and saw me and slowly walked in to our house.
She slowly walked up the sitars.
"Ems I am so sorry, I've ruined us"
I thought to my self sometimes I wonder if love is worth fighting for, then I see Emily's face and I'm ready for war.
She looked at me and then went to our room and shut the door.
"Ems please, I love you, it's always been you" I said so quietly that she could only here me.
"I know" she said.
I hate getting flashbacks from the things I don't want to remember.
Hey everyone I hope you enjoyed my first chapter :) please review and tell me what you liked and what you didn't. I'll update in this week :)
Tash