Wait

I call for you with a voice of years past.

How long has it been?

One day?

Two weeks?

Six months?

Ten Years?

Five hundred?

You're a liar you know?

I've been waiting

And waiting

For you to keep your promise.

I watched in a dark hole as you screamed my name while vines pulled me away

You said you'd find me

But how long do I have to wait?

A white rose is what you are

My handsome lover of a thief

You who became a briar to those who wished me harm

You who enticed me to come closer with curiousity unsatisfied

You're the one who stole my heart

And your piercing me now

I look at the snowy sky wishing

To become like it

To freeze like it

Invulnerable to these feelings

This Longing

This Loneliness filled with insecurity

I watch as my tears fall warm and unabated onto the bleach

Melting it

Like I melted your heart you said

You treasured me you said

Now I know

You just didn't want to be hurt

Do you feel what I feel about this?

Do you long for me Like I you?

Did you cry for me when I was taken- no torn from you?

Rose petals ripped from the bud.

I don't know anymore!

I can't say 'what if'

I can't take back my actions

I couldn't

I wouldn't

I refuse.

If I did you probably wouldn't even be alive.

My rose that became bloody with the years gone by.

Filled with that longing

With self imposed anger

With hurt love.

I know I promised

To be at your side forever

And always

I said that to you with my eyes open to everything.

Thorns score into white flesh.

You are my heart

I am your soul

One can't live without the other.

I feel like this void can never be filled.

I search for sunlit eyes.

Clutching to this shattering hope

Is my lifeline.

A hand reaches from the cage.

So this love is like a rose

I'm being hurt

By a beautiful thing

I'm dying

Slowly

By a gentle hand

A flower who wishes to bloom but can't.

Am I killing you too?

I find I can't fight this

No one could

You could kill me

Turn me into a withered beauty

But still

I would love you

This is my will to live

This love that even haunts my dreams

This

I could never refer to my wish in past tense

My love is now

My love is my future

And I await it

Impatiently