"I'll never leave you again..."
That is what I told my noiva year ago when i was in the hospital for being shot in the leg because i was trying to get out of being a bag boy for Wes Devlin. and has much as I don't wanna leave her i have too because I'm goin' to boot camp for 13 weeks because i promised her dad and myself that i was goin to enlist so i could give her more than my hot bod and good lookin' face. As I sit here in her secret spot on the mountain with her in my arms and i think of all the things we have been through i love her more than i did that night i told.
I feel her stirr in my arms as she wakes up and i look down at her and she looks at me and says...
"How come I'm always the one that falls asleep after."
I laugh as she smiles at me and i tell her. "Chica, it's not my fault that I'm so irrestiable and you get so worked up you get tired." I stroke her hair as i say this knowing that even though we just had one of our makeout sessions and havent made love she does usually fall asleep after either one. I thought i made her mad by my comment because she starts to get up and i get up with her and grab her wrist and turn her around and notice that she's crying. I hate this feeling that because of my stupid Fuentes ego and sarcasm i made her cry.
"Chica, I'm sorry you know im just playin'.
"I'm not crying cause of what you said."
"Then why are you crying."
"B-Because i-i f-feel..." i know she only starts to stutter when she is nervous or mad.. so i take her face into my hands and look her in the eyes...
"Because you feel what..." I'm scared that she is going to say that this past year has been a mistake and that she never should have fell for me...
"I feel like you don't find me that way... she starts off saying this but i was so distracted about what my mind thought she was gonna say on dont understand what she IS saying... when i don't respond she cries harder and then i realize that she was wanting me to reassure of whatever she was trying to say ...
" Find you what, Kiara I'm not sure where you're goin with this. "
"I feel like you don't find me irrestiable and that when we have sex or make out you just do it with me because you say you love me and not because you find attractive."My eyes go wide as i listen to this because i never knew she thought this way... I pull her chin up with my finger and kiss her passionately... when we both need air to breathe i place my forehead on hers. "Chicha, you're right I makeout with you because I love you and I don't have sex with you like i have with other girls in the past... I make love with you..." I lean up to make sure she is listening and i finish saying... "and not only do i love you but you are one sexy mamacita.." after i said this she looks up at me and says
"really?"
"yes chicha you are one helleva sexy mamacita..." and just has i said that i felt me get hard and im sure she felt it too because she said... "Are you wanting to get in trouble with me again, Carlos?"
"I always wanna get in trouble with you, chica."as i say that i grab her waist and grind up aganist her a litte so she knows i'm tellin her the truth then she takes my hand and places it on one of chichis and uses her other hand to bring my face to hers and says" Good" before her lips touch mine.