Chapter 1:

We've been married for a year and… NO PROGRESS!

Like a usual housewife I cook, do laundry, and cleaning, nothing more, well our marriage was forced after all, I mean arranged.

1 year earlier, before the marriage…

"I'm expecting 30 grand children, I want them this year or else… if you need me I'll be at the usual cabaret bar," Dad demanded and yes he didn't bothered to attend my marriage, "Mai, congratulations," he said before he left. I don't mind if he comes or not since it's arranged anyway, I nodded. My father, Matsuidara, he's a pervert and had many wives; I'm his daughter in his 2nd wife.

My dad came back before the ceremony began he looked at the groom, "Oh yeah, if anything happens to her, your head might end up rolling," he said in a form of threat. The groom nodded and there goes my dad again.

End of flashback…

Now I'm a regular housewife, it's quite boring… I loved the thrill when I was in the Bakufu, but now all I'm doing is just a cycle of chores and when he arrives; I welcome and serve him dinner. We sleep in separate rooms, my dad doesn't know about it though.

I used to be the 2nd division captain of the Shinsengumi, my dad saw my talents in leading and swordsmanship, I know a woman shouldn't be holding a sword, but since dad didn't mind it, I continued to learn.

"I'm home…" he said in a deadpanned voice.

"Oh, Okita-kun, welcome back," I said with a usual smile. I took his jacket and served food on the table, we sat down. I was used to the awkward silence around us, "So… how was work?"

"Fine…"

"Oh…"

I washed the dishes while he watched TV, anything is the same. My life is easy, I don't have trouble with money, I live in a huge house, and I'm still young. But somehow I'm not happy… I can do whatever I want… yet… I don't know if I love him though.

In an unexpected moment, "Are you happy?" he asked out of the blue.

"Eh?"

"Nevermind…" I joined him watch TV, but he seems to be not in the mood in watching, so I changed the channel. The movie is a love story, surely he won't be interested, but I watched it anyway.

"Len… I love you! Please go out with me!"

"Rin… but we are doing a forbidden love…"

The show ended with a tragic ending, I yawned and glanced at his direction. He was already sleeping soundly; I couldn't help but observe his face. I resisted the feeling of wanting to kiss him, but I'm his wife… I can do it can't I? I let that feeling aside and covered him with blanket. I don't want to take advantage in his sleep.

"You could've woke me up… it's already this late?" he stood up and went on his way to his room.

"Good… night…" he didn't answer; he just nodded and walked away. Oh no! Is he mad?

The next day…

I woke up early to fix breakfast, but it seems he's not awake yet, so I had to wake him up to avoid tardiness.

"Okita-kun, it's time for breakfast," I knocked on his door, but no response. I decided to come in, the door wasn't lock, "Okita-kun?" he was there still sleeping. I approached him, I still haven't touch him for the past years, we were both hostile, so there were no love even now.

I sat on his bed and observed him again. Seeing his masculine body and his baby face, makes me want to hug him tightly. I'm his wife! I'm allowed to do it! But I got the feeling that he won't like it if I do, he is the type who never opens up to anyone except his deceased sister. I gulped and called his name again, "O-Okita-kun… please wake up…"

"Didn't you get it? Stop calling me over and over again, I don't feel like going to work today…" I could feel him annoyed with me.

"I see…" he really is mad… maybe I should just drop this lifeless marriage. He noticed the frown on my face.

"You're not happy aren't you?"

"…" I didn't respond, I just left his room. But before I knew it, I stepped on some sort of voodoo doll with a name on it. He caught me, I don't know why, but I shoved him away, "It's over…"

"Hmm?"

"You're right, I'm not happy with this and I know you're not either, so let's just-"

"Who said I wasn't? I enjoy having a slave around to serve me."

I slapped him, but he dodged and grabbed my wrist. For all this time the reason why he won't let me go is because of the service I gave him… "Let go of m-"

"Honestly, I'll seal your lips with mine," his words made me turn red. But I continued to struggle; I broke free from his grip and ran away.

I got out of the house, his footsteps were near and it was raining hardly, I continued to run. Where should I go? I don't want to go back there anymore! After what happened…

I ran into a dead end, he's coming, so I climbed on top of the fence, "I hate you!" I can feel his grip on my feet, he pulled me down. I was all out of energy, I'm so tired… I'm cold…

I could feel the warmth of his arms and his breath, "You need some rest…" I slept so I didn't hear the last part.

To be continued...

Note: The "Rin" and "Len" that were mentioned were not from vocaloid, it's just so happen that I like that name and forbidden loves in fictions.

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