Hi again, the other day I was listening to this song called "Sin miedo a nada" by Alex Ubago and it hit closed to me so I decide to bent it all in a creative way, you can google the song if you like, to those of you who don't speak Spanish there are translated lyrics of this song, if you want to understand more deeply of what this fic is about but I have to say I don't like the translations that much because it ruins a bit the meaning. I hope you guys enjoy this fic.
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Afraid of Nothing
Kimberly was packing her bags she was moving away to start a new life somewhere else she was really not happy about this fact, in fact she was really hurting inside, she had always wanted to move away and travel the world and live and work somewhere else, the problem was she had fallen for someone and she felt she was making a mistake but there was nothing she could do about it since the guy she liked even though she knew he liked her he never really told her so now she decided there was no point in holding her dreams and desires even thought she felt she was dying on the inside.
"Hey Kim!" Trini said entering Kim's room.
"Trini Hi, I didn't know you were coming." Kim said
"I thought that you might need some help with the packing." Trini said.
"Oh well, I'm almost done." Kim said
"So, are you excited? Or more scare than excited." Trini asked her.
"Um well, I'm having mix feelings and freaking out, I really don't know if this is a good idea but at the same time I feel that if I don't do it I will regret it." Kim replied.
"I'm sure you will be fine, this is a big step, something different, it takes a lot of courage and I'm proud of you for taking this step and if you don't like it you can always move back" Trini said.
"I know is just that it feels like I'm making a mistake." Kim said
"Why would you be making a mistake?" Trini asked Kim confuse.
"Well you see there is something that I haven't told you before, actually I haven't told anyone and is causing me a lot of distress." Kim said sitting in her bed.
"What is it? You are not sick are you?" Trini asked beginning to worry.
"No I'm not sick but I rather be sick, because it already feels like I'm going to die of desperation. You see, you know…" Kim said starting to get nervous she was a very private and secretive person she kept most things bottle up because she felt that if she gave them away she would lost control of her life.
"What is it Kim? I'm getting anxious here, what could be so bad that you think you are dying of desperation?" Trini asked even more confuse.
"Well, you see something happen and I don't know how it did." Kim replied.
"What happened Kim? I don't get it" Trini asked wanting to shake the words out of Kimberly's mouth
"A jolt of electricity, my heart has been awaken." Kim said
"What do you mean did you receive a shock and it hit your heart, were you playing with electricity?" Trini began to say until she realize what it meant "Oh, oh you mean Kim, wait, does that mean that you are in love?" Trini asked even more confuse, how could she not notice Kim was interested in someone? Well it shouldn't confuse her she was really good at hiding her feelings.
"I don't know, all I know is I have never felt like this before and it makes me so mad because what's the point of it all? I never notice him before and then he comes back after many years of not seeing him and bang! I'm taken by him! I don't even understand it! it doesn't make no sense at all!" Kim said exasperatedly.
"Ok who exactly are we talking about here?" Trini said.
"I don't want to tell you." Kim said crossing her arms.
"Why not? Are you embarrassed? Is he that ugly?" Trini asked dying to know who had Kim feeling like this.
"No on the contrary." Kim said.
"Are you going to make me guess? Let me see, you said that you had never notice him before even though he is apparently attractive." Trini said thinking hard.
"You know it doesn't even matter since nothing will ever happen." Kim said trying to distract Trini's line of though.
"Well let's see who could fill this profile, if you didn't notice him before it means he may have notice you and he is attractive." Trini said analyzing every single word "Oh my God you like Tommy!"
"How did you manage to get it that quickly?" Kim asked irritated.
"It's the only obvious answer honey, you said you were never going to notice him because he was to pretty and stuff, what happen? How did this happen? I can't believe it! I mean how did he manage after all these years to awaken your heart?" Trini asked perplexed, Kim was a tough cookie to crack.
"I don't know! But it doesn't matter because I think he wants to destroy me so." Kim said
"Destroy you? What are you talking about?" Trini asked.
"Yes I think he wants vengeance so he drove me crazy to get even because I didn't notice him before." Kim said.
"How did he drive you crazy?" Trini asked wanting to listen to this.
"I cannot tell you, you will think I'm crazy and that I'm creating things in my head and I know that I'm not crazy, besides I can't explain it." Kim said.
"Right, so you are in love with Tommy and he is in love with you, well then I think you guys should be together finally. I mean the poor guy finally has your heart." Trini said.
"What? No I didn't say that I was in love with him and he can't not be in love with me! He doesn't even know me personally! We are not even friends! He is a friend of my brother's one that can't stop staring at me, besides he is extremely shy around me and I get to nervous and even dizzy when I have him around that is not a good sign. I mean he makes me feel like I'm dying, who does that? That cannot be love is ridiculous." Kim said scandalized.
"So why if is just a crush you are so hysterical about leaving?" Trini asked.
"I don't know! I can't explain it, it's something completely different it is something new, feelings I have never experience before." Kim explained.
"I think you should talk to him before you go, this won't let you live in peace If you keep it bottle up, you will eventually explode and I think you are in love with him." Trini said.
"I'm not! All I need is to get him out of my head, he is there every single hour of the day terrifying me, I think the distance will help me forget him." Kim said.
"I don't understand why do you want to forget him Kim? He likes you too just like you like him, the obvious answer is to tell him! I'm sorry Kim but you can't just go without telling him I promise you, you will be sorry if you don't do it!" Trini said trying to convince Kim.
"It doesn't matter, he knows I'm leaving and he hasn't done anything, if he really liked me he would have said something." Kim said.
"Maybe he thinks you don't like him and he is terrified of being rejected or maybe he doesn't want to interfere with your dreams!" Trini said.
"Well I can't see into his heart and head so again it doesn't matter, I have tried to become his friend so I can get to know him but he is, I don't even know! I'm just extremely confuse and that is why I need to leave, we have been dancing around each other for some time now and I can't take it anymore! I am a girl I'm not supposed to be the one to say hey you know what? I like you that's his job! So if he doesn't want me then that's fine with me, it only means we are not meant to be."
"Wow you are really gonna leave like this?" Trini said
"What else is there to do? I just have to accept the reality which is really hard by the way because my brain likes to play really romantic ridiculous movies in my head where we are both the stars. It is really annoying! I mean is really intense!" Kim said.
"He really has driven you crazy, I only wish he knew the state you are in he won't probably believe it, in fact I'm pretty sure he would like to know about this." Trini said
"Yes and I forbid you to say anything to him or anyone, no one knows about this ok? And no one will find out." Kim pleaded.
"Maybe if you let people know he could find out and then get the courage to tell you he likes you." Trini said.
"Are you insane? Why would I want to tell people that? That is private." Kim said.
"So private that is killing you." Trini said.
" Trini you know I don't operate like everyone else, I'm some kind of abomination and in my head it makes sense all of this, so please don't try to make me do something that makes me feel uncomfortable, I know that with time, a lot of it I will forget him." Kim said trying to convince Trini.
"Kim it breaks my heart because I know he dies for you, you know what? he is also an idiot for letting you go like this without doing nothing about it, you both are so stupid you are both suffering like idiots for no reason at all because you both feel the same, I'm pretty sure the fact that you are leaving is killing him and he doesn't even dare to do something." Trini said frustrated with both of them.
"I know but maybe what it all means is that is not the right time or we are just simply not made for each other, everything is so awkward and sickening, I'm really making things up I don't know what to do, I know that the obvious answer is just telling him and whatever but I can't I just simply can't! Something tells me that I shouldn't at least not right now and I'm not going to!" Kim said giving up.
"What if he finds someone else?" Trini asked.
"If he finds someone else, it will hurt me and he will never know, I'll have to accept it and eventually I think that will help me heal, maybe that's what I need to happen so I can get over him." Kim said
"Gosh this doesn't even make sense, I don't get it! This is another level of idiocy. I feel so impotent, I wish that I could make you both see what a mistake you are both making!" Trini said desperate.
"Don't worry Trini I'll be ok, I always am." Kim said calmly.
"But I don't want you to be ok! I want you to understand that this is ridiculous, I can't believe this!" Trini said still hysterical. "I'm pretty sure he would like to know, this will make him so very happy he has been crushing on you since he was 16!"
"Exactly maybe I notice him too late and I don't deserve him, he gave up on me and I get it, why keep insisting? The truth is I was about to let down the wall when he gave up, it is just too late. He just doesn't know how to deal with me." Kim said.
"For crying out loud you were younger and naïve you were just not interested in getting to know no one your head was on other things at the time! Trini kept trying to open her eyes but gave up "I guess there is nothing else to do then, it seems you made up your mind and I know you won't change it no matter what I say." Trini said.
"Sorry Trini but this whole thing is draining me, I just prefer it this way. Come on I still have something in the bathroom I have to pack." Kim said and she followed her, they kept packing until everything was all packed.