Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi. Okay people? I don't!
~~~x-Just-x~~~
"I have to go back."
"Just like that?" I asked, tears forming in my eyes.
"You knew this was gonna happen." Eli said.
"I was kinda hoping it wouldn't. I was hoping that when you came home you would realize how much you missed me and you would never leave."
"I don't want to leave. But I have to help people Clare." He said, pulling me into a hug.
"Then help people by becoming a doctor or a firefighter! You're not helping anyone, if you get killed. Its War, Eli. The thought of never seeing you again crosses my mind, everyday!" I yelled, and he winced.
"But you know that's not true. You'll see me soon." He said.
"Soon? Your going away for a year! How is that soon?"
"We'll write each other. Like we've been doing." He said.
"I can't do this anymore Eli. I eventually want to get married and have kids. How can we do that if you keep re-inlisting?" I asked, slowly letting the tears fall.
"I just want to help people." He whispered.
"Even if it means you hurt me?" I asked and I could tell by the look on his face that the words hurt him.
"I don't ever want to hurt you Clare." He said. I shook my head.
"Too late." I said and walked away.
"Why are you doing this?" He yelled at me.
"Because I love you!" I yelled back.
"Then why can't you wait?"
"Wait? Eli I'm 25! I just watched my best friend get married! Adam and Fiona are engaged! And here I am waiting for the day we start our lives together!"
"Clare I love you! I'll be back, I promise. I'll be fine." He said, grabbing my hand.
Eli Goldsworthy broke that promise. He didn't come back.
~~~x-One Year Later-x~~~
"Hey Clare." Alli said and I nodded my head.
"Hey." I muttered.
"Your hair has gotten longer. Are you going to cut it?" She asked.
"Eli liked my hair short, so no I'm not gonna cut it." I said, lighting up a cigarette.
"You smoke now too?"
"Look you said you wanted to meet me here. Here I am, I don't need you to judge." I said, she shook her head.
"Clare he could still be out there and alive. They were never sure if he died."
"Then why hasn't he come back, Alli?" I asked.
"You look so different. Your eyes are grey and lifeless. Your skin looks dry, you smell like boos and smoke. I want my best friend back." She said.
"And I want the love of my life back, but we can't all get what we want." I said getting up.
"Clare wait I'm sorry." She said, grabbing my arm. I looked at her. My best friend, the girl I hadn't seen since Eli's fake funeral. It was fake because there was no body, which made it harder. I sat back down.
"How's Drew?" I asked.
"He's so amazing, me and him are trying to have kids and…" She stopped talking when she saw my face. Kids, that's all I wanted. "Clare I'm sorry."
"It's fine." I said, giving her my best fake smile.
"Adam says Hi, so does Fiona. They got married, they sent you an invitation but, um I guess you couldn't make it."
"Tell him I said sorry. But him getting married a month after his best friend died, really pissed me off." I said, putting out my cigarette.
"We were all pretty messed up after it. We all knew him Clare. You weren't the only one who lost him." She said, and I immediately stood up, knocking my chair over in the process.
"Your right, I wasn't. But, no one loved him like I did. Imagine having someone tell you that Drew was missing. " I said and walked off. She called my name but I ignored her.
When I got to my house I slammed the door and slid to the floor. I couldn't help the sobs that came out. I stumbled into the kitchen and went to the shelf and pulled down a bottle of Whiskey.
"My only friend…" I muttered.
~~~x-The End-x~~~
Author's Note: Well this is my new story. Don't worry Eclare will be in it. Its short but my next chapters will be longer. Tell me how you like it and If I should continue.
Charlotte.