Soulmate Ch. 1
This is how I would want two best friends to come together and realize they cant live without the other.
Shaunee didn't like fighting with her twin but she couldn't help it. She never thought Erin was so cold about her feelings...but she was. Shaunee loves Erin like a sister but because they have been separated for weeks now that sisterly love is turning into something else. Something she can't control or understand for that matter. She never knew she had these feelings until she lost the person who made her feel them. She was in love with Erin. She never told her how she felt and probably never will now that this is happening. She doesn't plan on telling anyone either because she is afraid that someone will think less of her. She is in love with a girl for Goddess sake! Everyone knows how she thinks boys are delicious ;) but no one knows that she also thinks Erin is beautiful, independent, loyal, and her best friend.
"Ugh what am I gonna do?" I said out loud to myself.
"She won't talk to me anymore and I'm too much of a coward to even look her in the eye!" I added.
I just sat on my bed with my knees to my chest. Thinking of plans and alternative ways to go to Erin but everything ended with the same result. Us still not coming to an understanding.
I need to tell someone. Someone who has been in my situation before. But I don't know anyone of the girls in our group that is...well...gay. I thought to myself.
Then it hit me. I could talk to Damien! Because he is gay! I felt relief wash over me because Damien always has the answers to everything! I quickly got out of bed and headed for the blanket that was used for a door. I looked down the tunnels trying to remember which room was his when I heard his voice. He was laughing and talking to someone else coming a few doors down. The other voice was female and I recognize it all too well. It was the hag from hell, Aphrodite.
I don't think I really feel that way towards Aphrodite anymore. I mean she has helped us get this far, away from danger with Zoey and saved Stevie Rae from being a blood craving dead chick. In a way I appreciate her. But what was Aphrodite doing talking to Damien? I walked over and leaned in trying to be spy-like seeing through the crack of the blanket.
"I don't know what to do...she is with him and I'm not sure if I can actually go up and say how I feel..." Aphrodite said.
"You're going to have to if you want things between you two to work out. Whatever she chooses is up to her. You just have to be strong enough to know the truth. And what makes you think she won't pick you?" Damian said.
"Because he is right for her. He can give her anything...unlike me. For starters a family that I can never give her. And she loves him way more than me" Aphrodite said looking down at her hands. Looking hurt that I never seen before. She actually had a hurt expression on her face that looked like someone ran over her puppy. But why was she sad? And who was this girl she was talking about? Zoey? Stevie Rae? VENUS! But Venus doesn't have a bf. Well not that I know of. Wait...so Aphrodite is a...lesbian! Oh my goddess! No fucking way! I continued spying on them with my mouth wide open trying hard not to laugh at what I was hearing. So I took a deep long quiet breath and listened even harder.
"But you can give her love. You have to at least give that a chance."
Damien said placing his hand on hers. She looked at him and smiled. With hope filling her eyes. Oh my goddess she smiled!
"Thanks...nerd" Aphrodite said. " your actually quit helpful with this kind of stuff. "
" Well I am experience with the same sex so you're welcome and any time. But you do need to fill me in though. It still amazes me that you have feelings for another girl!" Damien said with a little chuckle.
Aphrodite gave him a mean look but smiled back.
"Yea...well we can't help who we love. My heart just decided to love someone who was all ready taken so it's my fault I guess" She said as she shrugged her shoulders.
Damian just stared at her. He leaned over and gave Aphrodite a hug from her right side. She then brought her hand up and placed it on his arm as if hugging it. And rested her head on his shoulder.
"Don't worry...even though the others think you are...well...bitchy at times...I know there is something in your heart and you don't need to worry about them k?" He said still hugging her.
She closed her eyes trying to hold back tears but failed. She replied "Thank you...I appreciate that". I was speechless. I couldn't control my breathing on what I was hearing. Aphrodite has someone she loves...a girl! Just like me... It seems she is having a hard time with it too...just like me.
"Can I ask you something?" she said. The concern in her voice caught my attention.
"Yeah sure" he said.
"How did you um...ok I don't want to be mean by bringing it up but how did you cope with Jacks death? " she said wiping her tears from her eyes.
Damian had a hurt look on his face. He closed his eyes and breathed deeply before answering her question.
"What help me get through was being surrounded by the others. And the fact that he would come into my dreams. He would come every now and then to tell me he is fine and that he loves me. He wants me to not forget him or blame myself for his death." He was crying by now. I was too. I missed Jack. He was the sweetest and cutest white boy I ever seen and the thought of the pain that the bitch Neferet caused him was making me clench my fists.
"Oh...I was just wondering because as you know I didn't really have true friends until now. I keep thinking Stevie Rae is never going to come back and...well be with me. She has every right to be away from me because of all the bad things I have done to her but if I could go back in time and just redo everything from the beginning then things would've been... different." She said.
Oh my goddess! Did I just hear her right? STEVIE RAE! But...but...she isn't gay! She is with Rephraim! What the hell is going on! Aphrodite and Stevie Rae? I feel like fainting now. It's just too much to take in. Everything around was starting to feel dizzy when I heard Damian start to chuckle.
"You haven't known Stevie Rae long enough or seen her do unexpected things like I have. You be surprised of what she is capable of. Didn't it shock you that she fell in love with a Raven Mocker? Or turn into a Red Vamprye? Did you expect her to kiss you like she did? "
Ok whoa! Stevie Rae kissed her! This is crazy! So they are both dating with Darius and Rephraim and are kissing on each other behind their backs? Whoa they are in some deep shit.
Ok even though curiosity is getting a hold on me I don't know if I should be listening in anymore. I just have to much on my shoulders now and as much as I want to tell EVERYONE what I just heard I'm not that kind of person. Don't get me wrong I do not like Aphrodite. But she is an ok person. It's just her bitchy attitude I can't stand!
I started creeping away from Damian's room. I walked backwards to head back to my room when I ran into someone.
"Ow! Damn who the fu...oh it's you..." Venus said looking like the rich girl that she is.
"You need to watch where you're going hag..." I said pushing past her towards my room.
"What's your problem?" she asked. But I ignored her. I didn't feel like dealing with her. I guess I'm just going to have to wait until Damian's done talking to Aphrodite.
I waited for about an hour before leaving my room. I was now face to face with Damian's room. I didn't hear anyone else in there. I looked through the little crack I had before and saw him sitting on his bed and was doing what looked like studying. I stepped back. Mentally shook myself, took a deep breath, and knocked on the wall next to the blanket.
"Yeah...come in" Damian said.
Hey...uh...can...can I talk to you?" I said already feel my heart racing now. Should I tell him? I'm already here. I can't turn back now.
"Sure you can...is everything ok? What's wrong?" he asked putting his books down on the floor to make room for me to sit on his bed.
"I uh..." I looked down. I didn't want him to look at me while I said what was next on my mind. "I am in some deep shit with someone...someone that I uh...love..." I said looking back into his gaze.
"Awww Shaunee! You love someone? Who?" he said straightening his body towards me with his face covered in curiosity.
"I can't say...it would be too weird..." I said crying while looking away from him.
"Shaunee" he said placing his finger on my chin to pull my gaze to him.
"Its Erin isn't it?" he said with a smile. My eyes widen. How did he know?
"How...how did u know?" I said my mouth wide.
He laughed. "Shaunee...I been knowing. I've known you guys for a long time. I see the way you guys hang out all the time and I see the way you look at her. And also saw how you been reacting since you guys have been fighting. It's clear as day" he said leaning back on the head board of his bed. His arms crossed over on his chest.
"Wow it's that obvious?" I asked him.
"We'll...to me it is. I don't know about the others" he said looking down wondering in thought if anyone else knew.
"Well...that's good...but I just need to know...would you ever think of me less if I told you I was a...uh...lesbian? No...wait! I don't know...I like both... But only one is on my mind..." I said getting very nervous.
Damian laughed. "Of course not Shaunee! Sex doesn't matter to the heart. It's all about the person that your heart falls for" he said smiling.
"But does this person know you love her?" he said with a serious look now. My heart sunk. I never told Erin how I felt. And I don't know how she feels towards me. DAMN! I hate this...why couldn't it just be easy? I sighed and looked down.
"No...she doesn't..." I said.
"Why not?" he asked I jerked my head to his gaze. "What do you mean why not? I can't just go up and tell her how I feel! If I do and she doesn't feel the same way for me I would just make a complete fool of myself" I said in a shout.
He grabbed my shoulders and said "How do you know if she doesn't feel the same way about you? She could be going through the same thing that you're going through. She could be talking to someone right now as we speak just like you. After all you guys are soul twins. Why don't you just talk slowly to her. Apologize to each other no matter whose fault it is and start from there." he said.
I haven't thought about that. She could have the same feelings and could be asking the same questions to herself. Maybe I have to suck it up and just tell her.
"I see your point...I'm just so nervous." I said getting teared up again.
"I know it's nerve racking but it would be a huge weight lifted off your shoulders if you tell her" he said patting my back.
" Ok I will do it...just not this soon" I said getting up.
"Of course...take as long as you need. She might even come to you if she is having the same conflict with herself" he said with a smile.
"Yeah...maybe your right" I said and then a thought hit me.
I can keep secrets and I know Damian can too. Sooooo...
"Hey Damian I kind of...ok don't get mad. But I came by your room earlier to ask you about this but someone was in here..." "You heard what Aphrodite said about Stevie Rae huh? "He interrupted me.
I laughed. "Yeah...uh what's up with that?" I asked sitting back down on his bed.
"Same thing with you and Erin. Stevie Rae kissed Aphrodite. They have noticed their love for each other just like you have but Aphrodite is stuck with her being with Rephraim" he said.
"Wow...I didn't know that out of everyone here...Stevie Rae and Aphrodite!" I said totally out of it.
"Yeah I could say the same thing too. You and Erin. I would definitely want to see you guys kiss!" he said raising his eye brows in a flirty way.
"Oh my goddess you're such a perv!" I laughed "But yeah that would be amazing" I added smiling.
"Alright I'm going to go now, thanks Damian. Love you" I said giving him a hug.
"You're welcome sweetie, anytime" he said hugging back.
I swear Damian should be our psychologist. He knows what to do about everything and he ends up making you happy in the end. I sometimes wonder why he didn't use his own advice when Jack died...then again I don't know anything about losing someone I love the way Damian lost his. I stepped out in the tunnel and headed towards the kitchen to find some comfort food. I rounded to the entrance of the living room when I saw Erin sitting on the coach at one end and Venus sitting at the other. My heart literally stopped beating when I saw her. I hurried to the kitchen and had to focus on my breathing to control my heart. I haven't seen Erin in almost a week. Seeing her felt good but nerve racking at the same time.
I don't think she saw me. I looked back in the living room and she was still watching TV. I breathed a sigh of relief. I turned around and went to the fridge. I opened it and there was nothing in it but some lunch meat, drinks, cheese, mayo, and...blood...ewww. I closed it and turned around. I froze. I couldn't believe my eyes. Right in front of me was Erin.
So what you think? No one made a story about Shaunee and Erin so i made one :) hope you like it and tell me what you thought of it in the reviews and tell me if i should keep going with the story.