A/N: Originally this was gonna be a one shot but it's pretty long so I'll just make it two parts.

Guess I'm writing this to make up for the lack of Eli and Clare in my other fanfic "Awestruck" lol.

Uh I guess you could call this incest so if you're uncomfortable I'd advise you not to read. It's rated M for a reason.

Can't Fight This Feeling

Part One

Clare's P.O.V

Life could not be any worse. It was the day of my mom's ceremony. She and my dad had been divorced for six months. She had told me that she didn't want a big wedding only a small ceremony to commence her 'new and better life'. I wasn't mad because she was getting re-married. I loved my mom and wanted her to be happy. I was mad because of who she was getting married to.

Eli's P.O.V

I stared at my shoes in the church pew. I didn't even know what to think anymore. My dad didn't really ever care about my opinions. It's not that I didn't want him to be happy it's just... Why did he have to be marrying her? I looked down the aisle to see some of the bride's maids standing there. They weren't elaborate dressed that you'd find in a big wedding just simple sun dresses. It was April anyway. Clare and I had been dating since winter exams, after the dance. My dad sat me down a few weeks ago and said he had been seeing the most wonderful woman in the world and was thinking about asking her to marry him. I told him he should go for it, that he deserved to be happy. That was, until I found out the woman was Clare's mom.

Clare's P.O.V

I looked up at the first row of pews. It was funny to see Eli in a church. He was looking back at me. I smiled at first but then got a little sad. I had begged my mom to understand my feelings. I loved Eli even though I had never told him and he hadn't told me, and now her marrying his dad made it so we couldn't be together. What would people think if they knew our parents got married and we were still dating? It would just be weird. Plus my mom wanted Eli's dad to legally adopt Darcy and me, I'd have the same last name as Eli. It was so frustrating to think of. A few months before my mom had told me that she was getting married to Eli's dad I had decided that Eli was the boy I was going to lose my virginity to. I had talked to my older sister about it and she told me most of the things my mom tells me is a bunch of bull shit. I didn't want to be 'Saint Clare' forever. He hadn't told me that he loved me but I knew he was just afraid. I didn't get the chance to tell Eli and the most we had really done was make-out and he would touch some of my areas through my clothes. I guess he thought I didn't want it and I was too much of a chicken to tell him otherwise. The music started and my mom stood next to me. The doors to the back of the church were closed now so you couldn't see.

"Hey honey." My mom said to me.

I ignored her at first but then said hello and sighed.

"Your still mad?" She asked me

"Mom, I'm never going to not be mad. Your taking away the only thing that's important to me."

"Do not do this now, Clare." she said sternly.

With her there was never a good time to do anything. I decided to just stay quiet.

Eli's P.O.V

The doors shut to the back of the church and I faced forward. I stood up when my dad motioned for me to go stand next to him along with the other people he had chose to stand there. I rolled my eyes and got up. I was not happy about this. Clare was everything to me. Why was it that every time I was happy with something life had to come and take it away. I hadn't really spoken to my dad. Clare and I were on April vacation from school this week but as far as everyone at school knew we were still together. We talked it over and decided it'd be best if we spent our last few days as an actual couple rather than breaking up. I hadn't spoken to Clare all day. I couldn't even look at her. How was I supposed to live with her as my...sister? I didn't want to break up with her. I loved her. Now I was going to have to ignore her as if she was never anything to me. The music started playing and the doors opened. Clare's sister Darcy was first to walk out followed by some girls I didn't know and then Clare. I watched her walk staring her down as I watched ever curve of her move. How was I supposed to think of such a beautiful girl as my sister when she made me excited in ways that a 'sister' shouldn't? This sucked. I stared blankly pretending to look interested as the ceremony continued. The priest continued and asked if any was opposed to the marriage about to take place. I wanted to scream. "Me! I am. I am in love with that woman's daughter and I can't allow this marriage to happen." but I kept my mouth closed. I knew if I said anything to ruin my dad's big day I'd be punished forever.

Clare's P.O.V

I glanced over at Eli as the priest spoke to my mom and Eli's dad. He was obviously spacing out. I was upset because he would never look at me the same way again after today. Why couldn't my mom just understand?

We all had to walk out of the church in pairs and get into the limo. Eli was my 'escort'. We didn't speak walking out of the church or even in the limo on the ride to the hall where the reception was. It was weird to sit next to him and have him not hold my hand or kiss me on the cheek. I hated it. Everyone in the limo was talking except for Eli and me.

"Are you guys just not gonna talk to each other?" Darcy whispered to me.

She had come back for the wedding.

"It's a little awkward in case you didn't notice." I mumbled.

"Well, you're going to be living together; you can't ignore each others existence forever."

'I can try.' I thought to myself.

Eli's P.O.V

The limo ride was painful. I knew Clare was hurt because I was ignoring her but it was the only way I could think of to deal with this. If I looked at her I would want to kiss her and we agreed that after the marriage between our parents was official we wouldn't show affection anymore. Clare and Darcy talked a little but I stayed silent. We arrived at the hall and everyone stepped out. There had been a rehearsal and when we all walked in they had to announce us. Clare and I were being introduced as "The Son and Daughter of the bride and groom." That pissed me off. Everything about this day sucked. We even had to dance together. I wanted my first real dance with Clare to be at junior prom in a few months. Now I can't even take her because everyone will say that I am taking my sister.

After the painful introductions and speeches it was time for the wedding party to dance. Clare and I took the dance floor and some people took pictures.

"Are you going to ignore me forever now?" Clare asked me very bluntly.

"I don't want to." I said "It's just too hard to look at you." I said finally meeting her blue eyes with mine for the first time today.

"I'd rather be your sister than nothing to you." She said.

"I'd rather you be my girlfriend again. I can't stand not kissing you." At any other time that would be where I would kiss her but that would never happen again.

"Eli," Clare sighed."There's nothing we can do but accept it." She had given up. I thought I was teaching her better than that this whole time we'd been together.

"There's plenty more we can do." I said.

"But, our parents would be mad if we did anything stupid."

"We need to show them how much we mean to each other." I said sharply.

"But..." Clare hesitated. "Maybe we weren't meant to be together and that's why this is happening." She said tears starting to form in her eyes.

"Don't even think like that." I said a little hurt.

The music ended and we went back to take our seats.

Clare's P.O.V

I couldn't fight my mom's wishes like Eli wanted me to. Besides, how would we 'show them how much we mean to each other' anyway? I've already tried to explain it to my mom a hundred times. Nothing I said got through to her. They were serving the food now. Eli was next to me on my right. I looked over at him. He wouldn't look at me again. It was ridiculous. I nudged him a little with my elbow. He gazed at me out of the corner of his eye.

"Really?" I questioned a little annoyed.

"Clare." He said looking at me. "I just...I can't." he looked away.

"Why?" I pushed.

"Because then..." Eli closed his eyes and took a deep breath. "Then I'd be too tempted to do this."

Suddenly he turned towards me and kissed me on the lips. No one really seemed to notice since it was a short kiss but my mom had seen and she immediately grabbed us both by our wrists and pulled us off to the side of the table.

"Eli, Clare. I understand your feelings towards each other and they are just going to have to stop." She said. I just stared at her. My face was hot and I was angry. It was terrible to be scolded by my mom let alone with Eli there too as my "brother". I just wanted to scream.

"How would you feel if your mom got married to my dad's dad?" Eli said rather loudly.

"You two are supposedly 'in love'. Wouldn't you be pissed if you couldn't be with the person you love?"

"Eli..." I said quietly.

"No, Clare!" He shouted. "I'm not keeping quiet. I can't." I didn't want him to be quiet. Did he just tell my mom that he loves me?

Eli's dad was heading over to us now.

"Son, why don't you go outside for a few minutes and get some air."

My mom looked at her new husband a little teary. Eli stormed out of the hall. By now some people were starting to stare.

"Is he usually like this?" My mom asked.

"Only when he truly feels upset about something, I'm sure he'll be fine." His dad said.

"Ugh, You two make me sick." I said walking toward the door to follow Eli.

"Clare!" My mother said shocked.

I ignored her and burst through the doors.