"I care."
I believed the words but they still had not soothed my confusion. I didn't need him to care I needed fire, passion, moon beams and laser lights….. "Dam" I muttered to myself as I drove away. Still hoping that I left some resemblances of a proper response… Oh for heavens sake… it could be worse I suppose…. He could have said that I was too young or that we were or should be just friends….. But what did, I care, really mean…. To what extent was the caring?
And to make matters worse was my inner feelings…. I cared too for the demi Saiyian, maybe it was lust that driven me, maybe that was the fire and passion I was looking for…. No one else had stirred me as much as he does, and he never did anything to provoke such desires….. Moon beams and laser lights… maybe I just needed to go to a great concert and get laid…..
What had lead to response, I care? I fisted my hands to my eyes trying to decipher the past forty minutes…..
We had been just hanging out….. A casual thing…. I don't even think it was planned…. I at his house was nothing…second nature….a normalcy….
We ate…. Laughed at some Goten antic…. Rolled our eyes at Bras latest fashion hiccup…. Ignored Bulma and Vegeta……
Then it was time to go… I had to meet my parents for dinner…..
He walked me to my car and I hugged him…. Enjoying the musky scent…. Thinking dirty lustful thoughts that made me smile inside…..
He cupped my face then slipped his hand through my hair pulling at the ends…. I waited for a comment on the length it had ascertained… quite proud that I could maintain the locks now that I didn't have to save the world…..
It was though he saw my erotic images in my head…. Flashing like a movie in my eyes…. He never stared directly at me like this without a good cause (usually a reprimand for some offense).
He smiled that Vegeta smirk then it morphed into his own sweet lilt…..
Then Bam… "I care." as though he was answering some unspoken question…
How in the hell was I to decipher that?
The beeping of a horn broke my reverie and I slammed the accelerator and spring form my slump and headed to my parents home….. Thoughts of Trunks swirling in my head….. and words that could be so much more than they were and so much less, than I knew, I hoped them to be….
I care too, damnit….. I've known him all my life how could I not????
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"Honey how was your day?"
They always asked the same trifle question, as if my days were packed with all kinds of new and exciting things…. Or it was though we were normal now and not one of us had an ounce of fighting power….. Just an average family. Normal, bah. I guess it is best to act normal and not be all superhero weird all the time; my parents can be the epitome of super hero weirdoes….. But I love them; I am feeling bitchy over the weirdness that I am feeling…..
"My day was good; I hung out at CC today"
"Oh, how are the Briefs and Vegeta?
That question posed by my dad…. He cracks me up. He still has no idea of how to handle Vegeta and Bulma's relationship…
They had been a couple for nearly 35 years….. Married by Vegeta standards….. Not earths. Vegeta and Bulma were Saiyian bonded. Something my dad was clueless about at times. Technically speaking, the Family name should be Vegeta, but anonymity is an important factor for Capsule Corporation, Briefs was the name and the game. Trunks real name is Trunks Vegeta Briefs on paper…. To his father, Trunks is a Vegeta, as is Bra and most importantly Bulma. No calls Vegeta, Vegeta Vegeta. Ever notice if you say a name too many times it sounds stupid? \
Here's another example… my name is stupid any way
Pan Son….. Son of bread…. My dearest bread son….. Pan Chan Son
Only at times do I hear… Panny…..
I use to not like Panny, I thought it too childish when I was growing up, and I was too the epitome of super heroism…. Now I see how silly that was, Panny….. Almost a normal name.
Normal
I will never be normal. I am too strong for one thing and too confused, but that sounds like my human friends. Well the confused part,
I feel like Jean. The one from our group that dates only older men. She is looking for a nearly dead sugar daddy. That's what we joke about,
They all drool over my dad. Who tries to look older, too bad his genes won't let him…. So he plays it down, I wonder if it is for us or for him that he does this,
In reality my parents are the same age as my friends' parents. But being with and being a Saiyian kind of has a perk, we age less often as humans,
So to all of them m y fiends, they think my parents are young. Too bad they don't get into history too often.
They are 45
Trunks is 34
And I am 20
It is not such a terrible breakdown,
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Right, back again to Trunks…… 14 years could never be spanned… at least we would look young together…… he cares….. Why did he have to say it? Isn't it normal for him to care???? So it has to mean more right????
Till tomorrow… then
Good day and good night…..
Panny Son (TVB)
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