Hey guys! I he you like this one. Yes Romano is a bit O.O.C. but I had to write this when i thought about it. If you guys like it and I have a good response on it I might make a chapter 2. Thanks guys.
-Ivansbabe66
oh and in no way do i own Hetalia.

2 days after the break up Romano was lying on the couch simply breathing, when the blood starting rolling down his arm again. He felt the sweet relief of pain to know this whole thing was real. It made him forget the pain of Antonio being gone. The pain of heart break disappeared from the blood pouring out of his cuts on his arm and upper thigh.

"Here come the tears again."

He thought to himself. The past few days were hell he didn't want to eat, sleep or even move. He still loved Antonio. He always would. He wanted to keep trying to get him back. But he knew he couldn't that would only push him away.

"Great! Just FUCKING GREAT!"

He yelled as he started to cry even harder and shake a bit. He wanted to text him so badly. Just looking at his name in his phone made his heart ache. What happened to love forever and that he wasn't going anywhere no matter what? He hated himself for letting it go this far. He made himself go numb for weeks. Nothing was helping him heal.

"Damn this man and his effect on me! My security blanket, my best friend, the love of my life gone in a simple second."

He knew it was his fault which made it worse. That damn word that freaked him out partly had something to do with the worst part of their relationship. Commitment. Romano did not want to turn out like his parents, and have a kid and then Antonio walking out on him.

"It's to late for him and I, but I have to get over this fear. Or I could get over it and wait a while then try to get him back."

He quickly dismissed the last thought knowing he meant nothing to Antonio anymore. At least not in that way. He was ok with it but he wasn't all at the same time. He finally talked to Antonio. They were ok being friends even though Romano's heart was still broken. Every day he put on the same damn smile and made sure that Antonio was ok. He walked around with s head down and cried a lot. But little did he know his heart break was far from over.