Title: Malchik Gay
Rating: PG
Genre: General
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation. I don't own the song 'Malchik Gray', it is owned by t.A.T.u.
~~~~~~~~~~ Hiroshi's POV
~Handsome,
Tender,
Soft,
Why do you look right through me,
thinking
'no'~
To me it doesn't seem fair. I was there for you all of these years. I was your best buddy Shuichi and now you turn around and go with some other guy. Eiri Yuki may be so popular, very rich, and all of that but I, Hiroshi Nakano, am part of you. Best buddies until the end? You remember that? I know that you do Shuichi Shindou! I know that it may have not shown all of these years but I really love you so much more than just a simple friend that I'm in a band with. Or more than an brother. I wanted to love you. I'm in love with you. I don't want you to go off to Yuki anymore. Why don't you come to me? I never said it before but I do love you.
I really do. Why can't you see that? Are you to blind to see that deep inside there's something more between us than just friends? Can't you see the pain in my eyes every time you say Yuki's name? The feelings in me are so mixed up every single time you say you love him. That you're going over to his house. It's like: Why didn't you ever come over to my house? I know that I didn't say that I love you but it should have been so obvious by now. I know that you aren't dumb Shuichi. I know you aren't. That's why...that's why I have to tell you tonight as I sit in the dressing room with the fans screaming outside. Before we go on I will tell you.
Hopefully you'll say you love me too.
~ I can't deny my feelings,
Growing strong,
I try to keep believing,
dreaming on,
And every time I see you,
I crave more,
I want to pull you closer,
Closer,
Closer,
Closer,
but you leave me feeling frozen~
You look over at me with that big grin of yours. It's so nice to see you smile. But I know that it's not for me, it's because you know that Yuki is going to be here tonight, and going to see you after the show. What about me? Why can't we do something after the show?
"So? You ready Hiro?" Shuichi asks me with a smile. I look up at him with a grim look, he walks over to me. "Ummm...you okay?"
"I-I have something to tell you..." I reply in almost a whisper.
Shuichi looks weirdly at me. He puts his hands in his pockets. "Yeah? What is it? We're going on in about five minutes so-"
"That's what I'm talking about!" I shout at him.
He jumps back, surprised at my outburst. I stood up angrily even though I knew that I could get my point across without yelling at him. But I felt that I had too. To show how I really felt inside.
Know how much pain I've been going through all of the times he goes over to Yuki's. Knowing their sleeping together.
"You never have enough time for me! Make enough time Shuichi!" I yelled.
"Calm down, Hiro! It's okay."
"It's what I'm talking about! Haven't you ever noticed! You can't tell me that you have never noticed!" I shouted, thinking he would know what I was saying. Even though he didn't have the slightest clue Shuichi took it all in. I kept on going. "It's never us! It's always you and Yuki! And you never notice when I'm angry?!"
"Why are you angry? What the hell are you talking about?" asked the eighteen year old, he was getting frustrated.
"Th-That I......umm..." I couldn't get it out.
~Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
I can be all you need,
Won't you please stay with me?
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
Apologies, might have been's,
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay
Can't erase what I feel,
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay~
"What?" urged on Shuichi.
I said as fast as I could "I love you more than a friend or a brother Shuichi!"
His eyes had a certain softness to them after he realized what I said. He seemed happy that I finally said it. What would he say? That's what scared me the most. If he said that he didn't have the same feeling...my heart would break in half. Peices. Ripping me apart from my head to my toes. If he said that he felt the same then I would be so happy. It would be like pure heaven. Though, I doubt he would say it.
Please, say it, please. Please. I wanted him to say it so badly. I prayed for it to come. Shuichi gave me a firm hug and said what I didn't want to hear.
"I'm sorry, Hiro, I don't think of you that way," He replied.
He could feel me loose my grip on him. I felt weary. Left out in the cold.
"I think of you more than that," Shuichi added, letting me go. I looked confused at him.
~Choking back emotion,
I try to keep on hoping for a way,
A reason for us both to come in,
Close,
I long for you to hold me like your boyfriend does,
and though my dream is slowly fading,
I want to be the object,
object,
object,
object,
of your passion but it's hopeless~
"Let me explain," my friend said to me. He put a hand on my shoulder and explained "See...ummm...we've known eachother for our whole life. I love you like a brother. That's how much I love you. It's more than how much I love Yuki or anyone else that I know. So it's like our own little relationship. And if you just wanted to spend more time with me than you should have just said so Hiro! I would love to spend time with you. I'm sure Yuki is tired of me hanging around him all the time."
So...I guess that's good.
"Ummm...now it's your turn to say something," said Shuichi nervously, as I picked up my guitar.
"Let's rock," I replied with a smile.
~ Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
I can be all you need,
Won't you please stay with me?
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
Apologies, might have been's,
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
Can't erase what I feel,
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay~
Well, if that's good enough for Shuichi, then it's good enough for me too. I don't want to rush anything. If Yuki and Shuichi ever break up I'll be there for him. As a brother. Who knows, maybe we could be together. One day.
So our band went on to rock that night and we spent the night partying at my house. It was the best night for me. Ever.
~~~~~~
PLEASE REVIEW!! PLEASE!!!
Rating: PG
Genre: General
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation. I don't own the song 'Malchik Gray', it is owned by t.A.T.u.
~~~~~~~~~~ Hiroshi's POV
~Handsome,
Tender,
Soft,
Why do you look right through me,
thinking
'no'~
To me it doesn't seem fair. I was there for you all of these years. I was your best buddy Shuichi and now you turn around and go with some other guy. Eiri Yuki may be so popular, very rich, and all of that but I, Hiroshi Nakano, am part of you. Best buddies until the end? You remember that? I know that you do Shuichi Shindou! I know that it may have not shown all of these years but I really love you so much more than just a simple friend that I'm in a band with. Or more than an brother. I wanted to love you. I'm in love with you. I don't want you to go off to Yuki anymore. Why don't you come to me? I never said it before but I do love you.
I really do. Why can't you see that? Are you to blind to see that deep inside there's something more between us than just friends? Can't you see the pain in my eyes every time you say Yuki's name? The feelings in me are so mixed up every single time you say you love him. That you're going over to his house. It's like: Why didn't you ever come over to my house? I know that I didn't say that I love you but it should have been so obvious by now. I know that you aren't dumb Shuichi. I know you aren't. That's why...that's why I have to tell you tonight as I sit in the dressing room with the fans screaming outside. Before we go on I will tell you.
Hopefully you'll say you love me too.
~ I can't deny my feelings,
Growing strong,
I try to keep believing,
dreaming on,
And every time I see you,
I crave more,
I want to pull you closer,
Closer,
Closer,
Closer,
but you leave me feeling frozen~
You look over at me with that big grin of yours. It's so nice to see you smile. But I know that it's not for me, it's because you know that Yuki is going to be here tonight, and going to see you after the show. What about me? Why can't we do something after the show?
"So? You ready Hiro?" Shuichi asks me with a smile. I look up at him with a grim look, he walks over to me. "Ummm...you okay?"
"I-I have something to tell you..." I reply in almost a whisper.
Shuichi looks weirdly at me. He puts his hands in his pockets. "Yeah? What is it? We're going on in about five minutes so-"
"That's what I'm talking about!" I shout at him.
He jumps back, surprised at my outburst. I stood up angrily even though I knew that I could get my point across without yelling at him. But I felt that I had too. To show how I really felt inside.
Know how much pain I've been going through all of the times he goes over to Yuki's. Knowing their sleeping together.
"You never have enough time for me! Make enough time Shuichi!" I yelled.
"Calm down, Hiro! It's okay."
"It's what I'm talking about! Haven't you ever noticed! You can't tell me that you have never noticed!" I shouted, thinking he would know what I was saying. Even though he didn't have the slightest clue Shuichi took it all in. I kept on going. "It's never us! It's always you and Yuki! And you never notice when I'm angry?!"
"Why are you angry? What the hell are you talking about?" asked the eighteen year old, he was getting frustrated.
"Th-That I......umm..." I couldn't get it out.
~Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
I can be all you need,
Won't you please stay with me?
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
Apologies, might have been's,
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay
Can't erase what I feel,
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay~
"What?" urged on Shuichi.
I said as fast as I could "I love you more than a friend or a brother Shuichi!"
His eyes had a certain softness to them after he realized what I said. He seemed happy that I finally said it. What would he say? That's what scared me the most. If he said that he didn't have the same feeling...my heart would break in half. Peices. Ripping me apart from my head to my toes. If he said that he felt the same then I would be so happy. It would be like pure heaven. Though, I doubt he would say it.
Please, say it, please. Please. I wanted him to say it so badly. I prayed for it to come. Shuichi gave me a firm hug and said what I didn't want to hear.
"I'm sorry, Hiro, I don't think of you that way," He replied.
He could feel me loose my grip on him. I felt weary. Left out in the cold.
"I think of you more than that," Shuichi added, letting me go. I looked confused at him.
~Choking back emotion,
I try to keep on hoping for a way,
A reason for us both to come in,
Close,
I long for you to hold me like your boyfriend does,
and though my dream is slowly fading,
I want to be the object,
object,
object,
object,
of your passion but it's hopeless~
"Let me explain," my friend said to me. He put a hand on my shoulder and explained "See...ummm...we've known eachother for our whole life. I love you like a brother. That's how much I love you. It's more than how much I love Yuki or anyone else that I know. So it's like our own little relationship. And if you just wanted to spend more time with me than you should have just said so Hiro! I would love to spend time with you. I'm sure Yuki is tired of me hanging around him all the time."
So...I guess that's good.
"Ummm...now it's your turn to say something," said Shuichi nervously, as I picked up my guitar.
"Let's rock," I replied with a smile.
~ Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
I can be all you need,
Won't you please stay with me?
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
Apologies, might have been's,
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay,
Can't erase what I feel,
Malchik Gay,
Malchik Gay~
Well, if that's good enough for Shuichi, then it's good enough for me too. I don't want to rush anything. If Yuki and Shuichi ever break up I'll be there for him. As a brother. Who knows, maybe we could be together. One day.
So our band went on to rock that night and we spent the night partying at my house. It was the best night for me. Ever.
~~~~~~
PLEASE REVIEW!! PLEASE!!!