Best of friends.
I'm not a good person. I've done bad things and hurt others.
When others have joyed I've envied their happiness. A smile of lie has crossed my lips. Like I would stay hidden from the light itself.
I look at cross. I look at atonement. Tears come to my eyes.
Why someone wanted to die for a man like this? Why does He love me eventough I can never uphold the good in me?
And still He went to that cross. I could have easily been one of those who hit You in the face.
You love me. I can never answer with same amount and intensity of love. And that should never be any other way.
Thank you Jesus.
I want to change my life.
Always change myself.
I have seeken comfort from acts and deeds so often. Defined myself according to them.
To show You that I really am wothy of Your death.
How foolish and stupid can a man get! You don't want acts nor deeds.
Here I am Lord. A sinfull human is before you.
I deserve your judgement.
God. Your Law condems me.
I look to Your right side.
I see Your son. Now I understand.
"God. I have not lived like Your child should. I have avoided light and dwelled in darkness. Have mercy on me. Forgive me because of Your son Jesus. I have nothing else than Your mercy. I want to live my faith in in the mercy brought by Your son Jesus. I want to be Your child once again."
God doesn't answer me with words.
My gaze sees the Bible.
Word is here for humans.
I have been forgiven.
God has shown His mercy to me.
Thank you Jesus.
You want nothing in return.
I took a gift that was handed to me.
In prayer I thank and remember what you did.
I pray for those who don't know you.
Thank You.
A child of Light I can be in you.