It's easy to smile here, students, happy faces all around. It's easy not to think about the past or future, with them as a meaningless distraction. Distraction or not it all catches up to you sometime. Maybe that time is when the bell rings and your left standing alone in the hall while students run for their classes.
They all leave. Just like he did.
It's hard when I get home and memories come running back to my mind. I wish they would just stop and I didn't have to think of him or the family that left me. I smile at Charlie and give a light chat over dinner. At first, I could see the worry twisting in the corner of his eye but now, months later, any hint of that is gone. I'm a good actor. Charlie watches the game as I clean up the mess from dinner. Soon after he goes off to bed, this is the hour that gets me through everything. I go to my façade; I take a shower before bed. I use the shower to cover my loving curse.
The alarm clock screeches for me to wake up. I don't want to move, my body is stiff and stricken with pain. Physical pain, mentally I've become numb and dead.
Charlie is already gone when I head to school. I put my mask on again and struggle holding the weight of my backpack on my left arm. A feeling grew in the pit of my stomach that it's going to be a long day. First hour, second hour, third hour, they all melt together but when fourth hour comes to an end and lunch starts I can't bring myself to enter the cafeteria. That's where I first met them… I make an abrupt stop and do a 180 which causes me to crash into something hard and fall to the floor. I probably ran into a wall again. My eyes are shut, I don't want to get up but I hear a voice, "Bella, I'm sorry, are you alright?"
My breath gets caught in throat, I know that voice. I force my eyes open and I see him. "…Jasper?"