Living On and Letting Go
Summary:
Cagalli muses over what she has, what she once had, and what she will never have again. Post GSD.
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Disclaimer: I own many things, the least of which is Gundam Seed, Seed Destiny, or any of its affiliates.
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I miss you...
Those used to be the words my mind would unconsciously utter, accompanied with a cold feeling, and a contracting pain in my chest.
I used to just stare into space emotionlessly, after which I could feel myself grip my fists tighter. Unknowingly, warm tears would cascade endlessly down my face, and everything would be silent.
Do you think of me too..?
Another thought would cross my mind, and as I would coldly face the bitter reality, I would notice the tears flow angrily down my face.
Did you.. Forget.. Me..?
As I would painfully close my eyes, more thoughts would incessantly course through my very soul.
And as I shiver from the harsh cold emanating from my very being, everything would fade away, until all that is left is a numbing feeling, which makes me truly lose contact within reality.
I want to sleep forever.
Nothing is left anymore. All that remains is the broken shell of what has once been.
I don't mind sleeping forever, as long as I can forget you.
No one knows that I am like this. And I intend for it to stay that way. Everyone is content knowing I can smile, and that I have moved on. They do not have to concern themselves with the truth.
I tried so hard to forget you, but I just can't seem to let you go.
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Author's Note:
This is my first Gundam Seed fic. I was listening to Fields of Hope while I wrote this. You should try it too. It complements the mood perfectly. Sorry for the angst, Im just feeling rather down lately. I apologize too for the short length. I aim for quality, not quantity. Also, I intend this to be a two-shot, with me posting the other half if people tell me that they want me to continue. I hope you like it. Please Review. Thanks.
Love, kiuna'yukina