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AN: Hello world of fanfiction readers :) My debut to the fanfiction world is facing difficulties, so I am starting a new installment. This is called Letters to You, Thanksgiving inspired so it is a bit "thankyou-ish". This is a day or two late, so sorry, family reunions *sigh*
This letter is a bit "choppy" but that is kinda how you talk/write when you are in an emotional state, right? and this is Momo we're talking about here ;)
So here you go! :)
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[Originally posted 11/30/13]
Dear Shiro-chan,
I-I'm... I'm sorry, I-
This letter is delayed quite a while, but please accept it, I've been meaning to tell you the truth, but I always chicken out because I was afraid how you would react, I still am but give me a chance to explain ok? And don't tell me it's okay because...
it isn't.
*sigh, and inhales and exhales*
I am sorry, Shiro-chan. after all you tried to protect me with your warnings, I turn my sword back at you. I never meant to do any of that Shiro! I also want to say sorry of believing Aizen-Taichou. I believed he was a kind man, I belieed he was kind to me and will never leave me... He was all I had when I left you at Granny's.
Remember Shiro? Remember when I told you it was my dream to be his fukutaichou, and I did! At the time I felt so honored and filled with happiness! So honored to meet him, and he saved me against the Hollows... Who would've thought such a caring, compassionate person turn out to be THE ENEMY of the SOUL SOCIETY, Shiro ?!
*sniffles*
And I can't believe I thought it was you Shiro-chan.
Shiro, when I escape your barrier in the Squad Four's Barracks, I wanted to see Aizen-Taichou, I wanted to find the truth behind his death. I never would've expected to see Central 46 dead. Though when I saw Ichimaru-taichou and he said my taichou wanted to see me, I was relieved and once again filled with happiness.
And then I was stabbed.
Stabbed while he embraced me in his arms. He had deceived me, he had deceived us all! My very own taichou had saved me and now he tried to murder me in the arms he had always embraced me and said, "Hinamori". It always made me so warm and safe inside was it all a lie, Shiro ?!
That stabbed not only stabbed my chest but it pierced my heart. I never really believed he actually did, maybe I was still in the medic and was still on the bed, maybe this was all a dream, Aizen-tachou was dead and the one that stabbed me was...
I made up a web of lies to myself and it blinded me from the truth.
You were right all along Shiro-chan.
I didn't mean to make you mad. I know you don't like to show your feelings outside so others can see, but I knew inside you were worried.
Don't deny it Shiro-chan.
I also knew you were angry, not at me, but at yourself. Please stop, I don't want you to agonize over my safety. I also feel responsible for causing you pain and stress.
I want you to let go. I was me all along. I refused to see the truth that was as plain as day. I refused to face reality, I was being childish and foolish.
* takes a deep breath*
So Shiro, don't be sorry.
Because I will become stronger. I don't care that you stabbed me because of Aizen.
I don't care that you are always striving to become stronger,
I don't care that you are Hitsugaya-taichou now.
I don't care that you hate being called Shiro-chan.
I don't care.
*whips tears streaming down her face, determinly.*
I want to thank you Shiro-chan, because of you, now I can forget about Aizen-
No.
I will never be able to let go of Aizen-taichou.
But I can promise with great certainty, that I will be able to move on. I won't cause you anymore pain and I will because stronger.
I am not bedwetter nor am I Hinamori.
I will become a new Hinamori Momo.
And Shiro-chan, save the knight in shining armor act for someone else, because the new Hinamori Momo can save herself.
- Hinamori Momo,
Fukutaichou of Squad 5
Two weeks later...
Fukutaichou Hinamori had just exited out of a meeting with the other lieutenants. She said good-bye to Rangiku and the others, and then she walked back to the Fifth. It has been quite hectic since the Winter War had ended and everyone is still adjusting to Hirako-taichou. He was nice enough to her and she found him as a great taichou, after the scars that have been left behind by Aizen-taichou, she wasn't quite ready to accept Hirako-taichou just yet.
As she made the turn to barracks, she felt a familiar spiritual pressure.
"Hey."
Hinamori turned.
It was Shiro-chan.
"... Hey, Shiro" She smiled hesitantly.
And then they both looked uneasily at each other, not knowing what to say next.
" Do you need to talk with Hi-"
"No, I needed to talk with you," He interrupted, " I got your letter." He said and turned away.
"Oh." Hinamori said not knowing how she should properly respond.
"Why did you even think to even write me this letter! I told you already, it's- ." Hitsugaya bursted.
"How could you say that?! " Hinamori exclaimed, looking far away past the roofs of the Seireitei.
Hisugaya looked taken back, he had almost never ever her heard yell at him.
"You know, Toshiro. We've known each other for a very long time, and we've been through a lot together. I really do think I should-".
"No".
Hinamori was now losing her patience towards him. "What now Toshiro?!"
"You're still a bed wetter and that won't change."
"I am not" She pouted.
"Are too." He retorted.
"Am not." She repeated.
And as they kept going on, Hinamori burst out laughing, and then a tear slipped it's way down her face.
"Hinamori? Are you-?"
"Silly, Toshiro."
He smiled.
"Whatever you do Hinamori, I'll always be behind you, whether you like it or not."
"Shiro-chan.." She said on the verge of tears.
"How many times have I told you, it's Hitsugaya-taichou." He retorted rolling his eyes, but there was a glimmer of amusement.
And with that, they both smiled towards the horizon, tomorrow, a new Hinamori will be born, and her loyal companion, Toshiro, will be by her side.
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Feather-Pencil © 2013
AN: Oh, and the reason this is incomplete, is because this will be many many letters towards hinted and canon pairings. No cracks, sorry. :/
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Thank you for reading this fanfic and have a great day ;)
-Feather Pencils