River travelled with me for about ten days. She was wonderful, trying to be cheery, making tea, just being very human. But she and I were both hurting. And I couldn't look at her without thinking about her mother.
We hadn't talked about it. Not once. It was just...too hard. And that's coming from the man who has stopped the end of the world on multiple occasions.
We're just sitting here, in the TARDIS, after an encounter with an alien of rainbows. Weird, I know. But it literally cried rainbows.
Anyway, she keeps on glancing at me, as if to ask if I'm okay. All I can really do is simply smile, because what else is there? How do I talk about my best friend and her husband DYING? I've seen so much death-and maybe even things sadder than death. But I just... didn't expect it. Not for them.
"Doctor,"River starts. "I've given you a long time. But we need to talk about this."
"It wasn't a long time. We could travel back and it could've just happened. I could stop it!"
"You know you can't;it's a fixed point in time."
"I hate fixed points in time."
"What's going on, Doctor? Why won't you talk to me?"
"We are talking. We're talking right now."
"Alright, so do this. But the topic is my parents' death. I know it sounds harsh, and I know it hurts. But I was close to them to Doctor; they were my parents,"tears welled up in her eyes.
The Doctor leaned in to hug her.
"I've been rather selfish haven't I?"
"Doctor, you can't blame yourself. I just don't understand why you won't talk to me about it!"
"Because it hurts. It's like someone just ripped out my heart and stomped on it and threw it in a fire and then cut it in half. There are only so many words in the universe, especially for THIS."
"I know, oh Doctor. I know."
"What can I do to make it stop?"
"Make what stop?"
"The pain."
River pulled away, her hands carresing his face.
"Sweetie, it.."she choked on her words. "It'll just take time. You could hop a million years in the future but it won't help any because you just have to live through the pain, slowly but surely moving on."
"What if I forget them?"
"You won't."
"How do you know?"
"Because you never forget the ones that you can only think of so many words for."
Author's Note:Not a big fan of the ending, but hopefully it works! First story I've posted! Please tell me what you think? Pretty Please? :) Thanks!