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This is just a short oneshot that I felt like writing all of a sudden. Hope you like it and please, please, please review :) I love knowing what you think :)

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She had said that it was too early. And apparently he had no intention of waiting.

Nancy Drew, eighteen, sat up in bed later that night and hugged a pillow to her chest. She had been back from the party for a couple of hours, and hadn't stopped crying ever since. The party at which a certain someone had ripped apart her heart.

She had been proposed to the night before by the only boy she'd ever say yes to. But under her current circumstances, she had not accepted. And he'd even seemed happy and relieved about it, strangely. She'd figured that he was just trying to cover up his disappointment and hurt.

She did want to marry him. Someday. But not right then. But after the party, she knew that was never going to happen.

Ned was engaged – to someone else.

She was shocked when she heard. She hadn't expected him to be the one to try to get back at someone. That was what he was doing – getting back at her – by marrying somebody else. That was initially what Nancy had thought, but as she thought back on their relationship, her opinions changed.

He had been missing dates recently. And that was absolutely not like him. He had always managed to come up with excuses that she had bought, and now she regretted it. She regretted believing him, trusting him.

And now what she had always feared had happened – he dumped her. Not the usual method of breaking up, but this was as bad. If not, worse.

But she still loved him, nevertheless.

They'd broken up before, but had never stopped loving each other. And that had made them find their way into each other's arms again – where they were meant to be. She knew that Ned had always felt insecure with her running off every time she had a case to solve. She knew that, but had done nothing to change it. She wasn't the most faithful girlfriend to have; she wasn't the easiest. But he had loved her for who she was. He had forgiven her seventy times seven, and she had taken advantage of him. She had taken him for granted, and that had always hurt him. She had made him feel like he wasn't special enough. They had strayed away from each other, so many times, but realizing each other's worth, had brought them back.

You realize someone's worth only when he or she isn't around. Nancy had always waited for that very last moment – when it was too late.

She lay back down on the mattress and closed her eyes. She desperately wanted him to come back to her. It might have been wishful thinking to want someone, who's engaged to come back, but she couldn't care the least.

Ned had been part of everything; her zenith, her nadir. And to think that he was never going to hold her in his arms again and tell her how much he loved her was terrible. It was terrible to know that she had an entire life ahead of her that he didn't want to be part of. He had always been there for her, each and every single time, and all of a sudden, he wasn't going to be around.

At that very moment, he was the person she hated the most. She hated him for breaking her heart, for the heartache he was causing her, but he was also the person she loved the most. There was nobody – nobody at all – she cared for and loved more than him. And there was also nobody she had hurt more than him.

Another tear slid down her tear-stained face as she realized something. Something that she should have known all along. A relationship required love as a foundation, but there was a lot more to it than just that. Her relationship with Ned lacked trust. She knew that Ned couldn't completely trust her. She didn't even trust herself. There was no guaranteeing when she would fall for someone else. She had fallen for so many guys previously. And every time, each experience just proved that there was no one like Ned in the world. There was no one else who could make her feel the way he did – absolutely no one.

There was no way to change things. She just had to deal with the facts, even if it killed her whenever she thought of what had happened.

She got out a pen and piece of paper. Writing id the best way to let out any kind of emotion, they said. She knew it wouldn't completely erase all the hurt, but it was worth a try. Fresh tears in her eyes, she took a deep breath and poured her heart out.

Ned,

We've been through a lot together, but there has never been anything that has hurt me so badly. Ever. I know you have your reasons for doing this to me, and I know you deserve much more than someone like me. You don't deserve to be heartbroken, like the way I feel right now. I jerked you around a lot. I know that. But you've always been the only one my heart ever belonged to. There has never been anyone else who can take the place my heart has for you. It yours, and yours only.

You've always been there whenever I needed you. But now you've decided to move on, and in the process, you have no idea how much it kills me. I care about you, Ned. I care so much. You may or may not believe me, but you mean everything to me. There's nothing that is as precious to me as you are. And despite all that I've done to you, I'm crazy about you. You've always made me feel so special, so wanted, and I love that feeling. You're the only one I love enough to break my heart. You're the only one who means so much…

Nancy began to tremble, the mind-boggling tonne of emotions, sunk right to the core of her heart. She eyes travelled to the picture of him that sat on her desk. Reaching out, she took it with shaking hands and hugged it to her chest.

"I love you so much," she whispered with all the yearning in her heart. "Why are you doing this to me?" She shook harder and cried until she was exhausted.

…You've been the one I've spent my best and worst moments with. Right from the start, you've been the one I've wanted to live with in the long run. You are undoubtedly the best thing that has ever happened to me. I just want you to know how sorry I am. I'm sorry for all the ways I hurt you. I really didn't want for that to happen. When it comes to the heart of the matter, all I want is for you to be happy. And hopefully, now that you've moved on, nothing will come in the way of that happening. I want to thank you for all the wonderful moments we've shared. And there's something you should know. I love you, and always will, even if you don't love me anymore.

Love,

Nancy.

She went to sleep that night, holding the photograph of the only boy she'd ever truly loved. The mystery of her heart was unsolvable, even for Nancy Drew, ace detective.