Embry POV

We start school in two days, which sucks. Which sucks even more is that Jake didn't come back yet. And Sam told us - well more like ordered us - not to go looking for him. And Quil was spending a lot of time watching Clair, which is irritating. He spends all his free time watching her, and when he's not with her he's thinking about her when we're on patrol. Even though the bloodsuckers are gone and Bella is one of them now. After Jacob left, Sam talked to the leader of the bloodsuckers and they explained that when Bella supposedly went to LA a few months back she actually went to Volterra, Italy and that the 'royal' vampire family told them since they broke the rules by telling Bella about what they are, they ordered she be changed or if she isn't they'll find out and kill Bella themselves.

The bloodsuckers explained to us that after the wedding, Edward is going to bite Bella. Sam would do anything to save lives, technically Bella isn't dead, and she's the living dead.

I miss Jake. It's really boring without him around. I tried hanging out with Paul and Jared but Paul has short temper, and snaps real quickly. Jared is cool, when he's not sucking face with Kim, that is. I've tried hanging out with Seth, but he's been obsessing over Sue's Goddaughter coming to live with them. Seth talked so much about Rainy, Sue's Goddaughter, I feel like I've known her my entire life! I know she was born here, in La Push. I know her father is Quileute. And her mother's Irish. She has dark brown hair and hazel green eyes. Her favorite color is black. She had a puppy when she was four, but it got ran over by a semi two years after she got it. She moved to New Heaven, Connecticut when she was five. Her father's grandfather was in the last pack. Her favorite band is Billy Talent and Crossfade. She wears black a lot, but when she smiles she lights up a room, or so says Seth. She has a two year old sister who, her mother asked to name, and she named her baby sister Angel, because she is obsessed with angels and that old show Angel. I snorted when I heard that, Angel is a show about some bloodsucker. Ha. I also got the oppression that Seth was crushing on her, that that was why he was talking so much about her.

I tried hanging out with Brady and Conner, but they're like three years younger then me and they're kind of really boring to hang out with. And Leah… well let's just say Leah is really irritated, and she's been like that since Harry died. I feel sorry for her. I may have not had a father but I know how it feels to loss someone you care about. I cared about Harry. He was like a father too me.

I sighed and got up from my bed. I grabbed some sweats off the floor and put them on. I guess I'll go over to Emily's since mom has work and left early today.

I walked out and started running toward Emily's street. I was starved. I hadn't eaten since last night, and then I had patrol. I don't get why Sam's so over-protective about the land and treaty. The bloodsuckers are gone, and they're never going to come back. But since they left he's put us all on double duty. And with Jake gone and all, it's too much for me. I've hardly gotten a decent 5 hours of sleep one night in at least 3 weeks. It's getting on my nerves. And I'm sleep deprived. That won't be a good thing when school starts up again.

I opened the door to Emily's house and heard a familiar laugh. I walked into the kitchen and actually saw Leah laughing! It was really amazing! Leah was beautiful at a time, but after she changed she just seemed to have a permanent scowl on her beautiful face.

I stood awestruck watching Leah laugh as she talked on the phone. She must be talking to a guy, I thought. And rolled my eyes as I walked past her. I sat on the table across from her nodding my head at her then turning to Emily who was hovering over the stove making something delicious of the smell of things.

"Hey, Em. Whatcha makin'?" I asked, as the smell of chocolate chip muffins filled the air. I sniffed, it smelt good. Just then the door opened and Sam walked in.

I saw Leah's expression change to hurt and back to a hard mask in less then five seconds. I felt bad for her. She had lost her love and never found out why until a few months ago. I thought about my love life while I saw Sam take Emily into his arms and take her into a deep, passionate kiss. Usually I'd be complaining they get a room but now I was just thinking.

What if I never find the girl I'm supposed to imprint on? What if I loss my love like Jake lost his? Well, what if something happens to her? What if she doesn't love me back? Sam said imprinting on a girl is like she is your sun. Like your world revolves around her. And only her. What if she doesn't love me back? As much as I loved her? I started to panic. Thinking about losing the girl I love before I meet her. Wow. I've really lost it with this. What's wrong with me?! Gosh. I really got to stop listening to mom telling me about those stupid, sappy soup operas she watches.

I sighed and grabbed three muffins off the plate on the table. "Who you talking to, Leah?" I asked.

I looked at her and she glared at me. I snickered and stuffed the muffins in my mouth. I picked up another muffin and threw it at Leah. She mouthed the words 'I'm going to kill you,' and said something in the phone.

"No way in hell I'm letting you out in those cloths you own, Rainy. Tell me what size you wear or I'll tell Seth," Leah threatened into the phone. She must be talking to Rainy.

"Hey, Rainy!" I yelled so that Rainy, who was on the other line, could hear me. "It's Embry!" I was seriously starting to hate this girl and all her little fans.

"Ugh!" Leah exclaimed and threw her free hand in the air. She shot out of her seat and walked into the living room. I laughed and it sounded kind of off. Sam turned to face me.

"What's the matter, Embry?" Sam asked.

I sighed. "Nothing is the matter, Sam. I'm starved, Emily, when are you gonna finish the food?" I asked a little agitated. I guess thinking about never finding the right girl got to me.

Just then the door slammed open and Seth came rushing in – more like jumping in.

"Rainy is coming tomorrow! Rainy is coming tomorrow!" Seth jumped up and down. I heard Leah laugh. She came into the kitchen and looked at Seth like he was crazy – which, by the way, was hilarious since Seth has grown a lot and is much taller then her.

Sam, Emily, and I laughed. Seth snickered.

"We all know that, Seth. What's so special about her anyway?" Emily asked and I huffed out a big buff of air. Great. This again. I've heard so much about this girl, too much for my liking. I couldn't wait to finally meet her in person. See what's so special about her.

"Great. Emily, I don't think I can take hearing anymore about this 'Rainy'. I'm going for a run. Call me when breakfast is done," I huffed.

I ran out of the house and ran to the forest. I pulled off my sweats and started running. I phased and felt a vibration go down my spine. I was in full wolf mood now. I heard Brady and Conner. They must be on patrol. I pushed myself to the limit, running at top speed. That's one thing all us wolves agreed on. The speed was great.

Are you on patrol? I heard Brady's voice ask.

Uh… yeah, Sam told me to tell you guys to go rest. I lied. I knew it was pointless since they can hear my thoughts. I tried to cover it up by thinking about my mountain bike. I had to fix it and find a new motor; the old one broke after I rode it up the cliffs a week after Jacob left and it kind of died on me halfway up.

Conner scoffed in my head. Yeah, right, dude. If you want to be alone with your thoughts you don't got to lie.

Okay, then leave, I want to be alone. I growled harshly.

Oh! Somebody's PMSing! Brady was being an ass.

I heard Brady growl.

Leave him alone, Brady. You were complaining about being tired.

Brady growled again but I heard him and Conner phase.

I ran. I ran like there was no tomorrow. I didn't understand why I was so depressed. I wished I could talk to Jake. He probably knows why I feel like this. I ran for what seemed like forever. Then I heard someone phase. Seth.

He was coming from the south.

Breakfast is ready, Embry, Emily told me to call you.

Okay, be there in a sec. I covered all my thoughts and feelings by thinking about my bike again. Like I did earlier.

I ran back to the edge of the forest, phased and put on my sweats. I walked to the small porch and went in through the front door.

"Hey, Em," Quil was sitting at the table, stuffing his face with turkey bacon – Emily didn't like eating anything that came from a big. "What's up?" he asked, his eyes softening a little. Great. Why can't things be a secret around here? Why can't I feel like crap without my friends looking at me strangely?

I shrugged. "Nothin' much. How was patrol last night?" I asked, changing the subject. I guess the guess could kind of see how upset I am. Considering I'm always happy. Or, at least, used to be.

"Nothing new," Quil said glaring at Sam. "I need at least 5 hours of sleep if school is starting in two days, Sam. So you figure something out, cause Sue isn't gonna like it if Seth has to stay on watch during school nights. And most of us have to go to school, so think something up if you're gonna keep up this much patrol."

While Quil was complaining I sat at the table in front of a big plate with scrambled eggs. I picked up my fork and dug in.

Sam glared back at Quil. "I'm only doing this to protect our land."

I scoffed. The coven of bloodsuckers that used to live outside of Forks left, and the newborns are dead. We don't have to worry. But Sam's got us on double duty now that the Cullen's left.

"The bloodsuckers left, Sam. There aren't any of them left here. And school is starting soon for these guys and they need their rest. Just have two of us on patrol at a time. Instead of having two of us at out there for four hours, have two out there four two hours," Leah said. We all stared at her. It was the first time she addressed Sam directly in a long time. I dropped my fork and Seth gaped at his sister, even though he was holding the phone in his hand. Quil gaped at her as well. Emily stopped whisking eggs and looked up at her cousin smiling. Sam seemed a little taken aback but composed himself. Leah didn't seem to notice. Seth stopped gaped and smiled at his sister. We all saw in his mind how much pain Leah went through when Sam imprinted on Emily.

"Maybe, but the Cullen's aren't around to actually help with the vampire problem. For all we know there are more newborn bloodsuckers in Seattle right now," Sam said in a calm voice.

Seth started laughing and we all stared at him. Why the hell was he laughing?! What the hell is his problem?!

He pointed to the phone in his hand. "Ah, come on, Rainy!" Seth whined into the phone. I groaned. What's with him and that girl? It's really ticking me off! What's so special about her?

Seth ignored me. "You can tell me anything!" He whined. "Please, please, please tell me, Rainy!"

I suddenly became angry. I've spent so much time with Seth on patrol lately and I'm pissed that he thinks so much about her. I started shaking. I stood up and gave Seth a death glare.

"Put. Down. The. Damn. Phone." I growled. About ready to phase into my wolf form. Seth looked scared as hell and froze. I've never gotten into a fight with one of the pack members and I don't want to start. The phone slipped out of Seth's hand as he slowly tried to back away.

"Calm down, Embry," Sam tried to calm me down, but it didn't work. It only ticked me off even more. I started shaking even more.

"Embry!" Sam yelled. "Calm down!" I couldn't stop shaking. So I ran outside. I phased as soon as I jumped into the cover of the trees.

I ran. I ran to the northeast. I wanted to run away like Jake did. Never look back on my life here. But I couldn't do that. I love my mom and she doesn't have anyone but me. Sometimes I think I'm the only one keeping her sane. That is when I don't bug her about telling me who my real father is. And I love the pack. I would never want to let them down the way Jake let us all down. But I continued to run. I didn't want to stop. I couldn't stop. In my mind I heard Quil phase. I tried to ignore the fact that he was following me but I couldn't.

Embry, slow down a little, will ya? I heard Quil yell in my mind. I ignored him and pushed myself faster.

Embry! Dude, slow down! We need to talk! He yelled even louder

I ignored him and his attempts at getting me to stop and kept running. I ran for who knows how long and Quil eventually stopped bothering me. I noticed, after Quil phased back to his human form, that I was the only wolf out. That was comforting. I could be with my own thoughts without getting bugged by one of the pack members. I kept running. I didn't know where I was going but I just needed to run. I ran for hours more before I got tired. I doubled back and ran to the imaginary treaty line. I lingered there for awhile.

I didn't get it. Why didn't my ancestors just kill the bloodsuckers instead of making a stupid treaty with them?! It was, I think, really stupid to sit and talk and do some business with some stupid bloodsuckers. It was also dangerous. For all they knew, they could've hunted the wolves and broke the treaty.

I howled. I didn't know why, but I felt… weird. Like something was missing.

It started raining and started running. It was way past dark now, and I was still alone. I couldn't hear a thing. Still. I looked up at the sky and could tell it was at least midnight. I started running, as fast, and hard as I could push myself. I found myself slowing after awhile. I slowed to a walk and walked into a clearing. The clearing. The one we fought with the bloodsuckers, instead of against them. Well, technically we fought against them too. We fought with the Cullen's, and against some wild, crazy newborn vampires. I have to say, it was one hell of a fight.

I looked around the clearing, remembering, seeing the fight replay itself in my head. It was crazy. I looked at the tree where that bloodsucker had tried to kill Leah, but Jake interfered. That stupid, crazy, wild leech broke Jake's back. Jake fell.

I watched in horror as Jake fell in pain and agony. I howled. I had to stop watching this movie. It just hurts me even more. I howled at the moon. I howled to try to get the pain inside me to cease. But it didn't. It just hurt me even more and I howled in pain this time.

I got really tired so I walked further into the clearing, careful. I stopped in the middle and lay down. I put my head on my paws and started to whimper in pain. My chest hurt. I don't know why but I was in a lot of pain. I feel asleep thinking about the girl I'm going to imprint on some day. I wished it would be soon. ….

I woke up and was surprised to see it was actually sunny. It hasn't been sunny in a really long time, even though it was summer; there was only two sunny days that I haven't slept through. I looked up at the sky and saw the sun was directly over head. Well, that was a decent sleep. The most I've gotten in almost a month!

I sighed. School starts tomorrow and Jake isn't back. I also haven't gotten any supplies. Wonderful. That's all I needed.

I have to get back home. Mom is probably worried about me. She said she was suppose to take me school supply shopping. Ugh. Great. School.

I groaned and got up. I had to apologize to Seth. Crap.

I started running back in the direction I cam from. I pushed myself as fast as I could go. I got to the edge of the woods by Emily's house and remembered I don't have cloths. Crap.

Just what I needed. I howled. Maybe Sam or someone form the pack would hear me. I peered through the trees and saw a very solemn Sam walk out of Emily's house. He had a pair of sweat pants with him. Thank God. I love Sam.

Sam walked over to me, still with a very sober look on his face, and handed me the sweats without saying anything.

I phased back to my human form and pulled on the sweats. Boy, was I gonna get it. Sam's sober mask fell and he was pissed. Crap. He's probably planning my slow, painful death. Sam was a cool leader and all, but don't get on his bad side, he'll give you a load full of him. Then, in less then a second, his face saddened.

"Embry, you know you can tell me anything, right?" his voice matched his expression, sad. I was confused; he obviously wanted to now what I was thinking. Great, I had to tell him I was depressed at the thought of imprinting, and, even though I'd never admit this out loud, a little afraid of falling in love.

"Yeah, I know that, Sam," I said in a monotone voice.

Sam sighed. "Look, Em, if you need to talk, I'm here for you, and the rest of your brothers, too. If you need anything, just say so."

Yeah, I just need someone to love me. I thought, but didn't say anything out loud."Okay."

"Good," Sam said and nodded toward Emily's house. "Emily's making spaghetti, you coming?" he asked. Of course I was coming! I was starved! I mean I ran all day yesterday and didn't have breakfast!

"Of course!" I exclaimed running to the door of the small house. I heard Sam chuckle quietly behind me. I got in the house and saw Emily leaning over the sink with a big pot of boiling noodles, probably draining the water.

I didn't even notice the boy sitting at the table until Sam walked in and gazed at me then the table. I followed his gaze and there sat, none other than, Seth Clearwater. He looked terrified. Poor kid.

I half smiled at him. "Hey, Seth, what's up?" I asked in a fake cheerful tone. Everyone in the room knows it was faked. Obviously Seth heard the fakeness in my voice because Seth snorted. Then his eyes twinkled mischievously. He all of a sudden jumped out his seat and ran right up to my face.

"RAINY IS COMING TONIGHT! RAINY IS COMING TONIGHT!" he shouted and I just about killed him. But I deserved it. I willed myself not to phase and laughed.

"I don't get what's so special about this girl. You really must've fallen hard, Seth." I stated. I know Seth pretty well, and I know how hard a guy can fall, not form experience, but from watching things with Jacob and Bella through Jake's mind.

Seth blushed and ducked his head. Emily and Sam had been watching the whole thing and started laughing. I did too. She looked really funny with the blush on his face.

Ha. Seth falling hard on a girl he might not imprint on? Sad and funny. Just the same.

Seth huffed. "I'm going home," he said as he waved to Emily and Sam and punched me.

Sam laughed and turned to kiss Emily fully on her ruined lips. You could practically see the passion and love oozing from them. I sighed and looked away, still thinking about the girl I'm supposed to imprint on. I hope I love her as much. Gosh I hope I find her soon.

"Ugh. Could you to, like, stop. I'm going to eat and suddenly starting to lose my appetite," I groaned. Even though I know I would never lose my appetite, I still complained because it does make me nauseous.

"Then shut up, and wait patiently for your food," Sam said when he managed to pull away from Emily long enough to say that sentence. I wanted to laugh when they both pulled back to kiss each other. But I didn't, I sat down and waited patiently, just as Sam told me, for Sam to let go of Emily so she'll give me the food I'm waiting for.

When finally, Sam let go of Emily and she opened the cupboard to get some plates. Thank God. I'm really starved. She put the tomato sauce in a big bowl, as I watched. I was about drooling and my stomach was growling loud enough for Sam and Emily to hear. They started laughing as I scowled.

Emily was still laughing when she handed me the big plate with the noodles and with a lot of tomato sauce on top. I dig in like the pig I was.

In five minutes, I was scooping up seconds. Just as I sat down, the door burst open and in came in Jared panting. It was kind of weird, since we don't lose our breaths that easily, so I looked up. And Sam looked up from Emily. When Jared caught his breathe he told me and Sam to hurry out and phase. I started to get worried. What's going on? Is there a bloodsucker past the treaty line? Is anyone hurt? Oh, crap!

I dropped my plate and ran out after Jared. As soon as I was in the cover of the trees, I trembled all over and jumped in the air. In mid-air I phased and landed on all fours.

As soon as I heard the others thoughts, I choked. I couldn't believe it.

Bella. Was all Quil thought. I saw the beautiful, breathtaking vampire that is supposed to be Bella. Bella. I couldn't believe it. He changed her. He actually changed her.

Poor Charlie.

I thought of the first time I met her, back in January. Right before I phased for the first time.

I ran till I reached the clearing the fight took place at a couple months ago, the clearing I spent the night before at.

And there, I saw her. She may be breathtakingly beautiful - she was pretty when she was human - but she stinks, along with the rest of the leechs. She smells sickly sweet, like someone took to much sugary substances in one person. It was disgusting.

Why are they back? I asked in my head, hoping that one of the wolves will answer my unspoken question, not at the least expecting the mindreading, bloodsucking leech to answer.

"We need your help, mutts,"